ODD MAN OUT
Is it September yet? I'm so miserable at home. I'm so sick of this place and only a week has gone by...
I spend most of my time working at a job I hate, or sleeping. When I get out of work I call pretty much my entire phone book, and put up a new away message begging people to hangout with me...and yet more often than not I find myself sitting in front of this god damn computer screen. To my dismay, all of my friends have better things to do, and by better things to do, I mean they all have a boyfriend or girlfriend.
So...to put it plainly...FUCK ALL YOU BOYS WITH GIRLFRIENDS AND ALL YOU GIRLS WITH BOYFRIENDS. FUCK EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU.
People have been telling me to "cheer up" and "quit complaining" because I'm miserable...well can you blame me? If you woke up and went to work, got out and 5 and optomistaclly ran home to eat and clean up just praying that by some off chance tonight is the night one of your friends will call and want to do something...only to be let down every single night. Then in a last ditch effort to salvage my night I run through my phone book again and try to get ahold of someone...I get voice mails or the sweet line, "let me call you back in a little while," which we all know really means FUCK YOU I'm already busy. If I was 21 I'd just fucking drink myself stupid every night and resort to alcoholism...then I wouldn't need anyone...but alas I am only 20. Maybe I'll jsut invest in sleeping pills...live from sleep to work and back again.
I heard an old song on the radio as I drove around aimlessly for an hour tonight...I don't know who its by but it went...
"Another Saturday night and I ain't got nobody
I got some money cause I just got paid
Oh, how I wish I had some chick to talk to
I'm in an awful wave..."
That didn't strike a nerve or anything...
I'm going to go watch Fucking S.N.I.C.K. or something...like the loser I am.
~f2
I spend most of my time working at a job I hate, or sleeping. When I get out of work I call pretty much my entire phone book, and put up a new away message begging people to hangout with me...and yet more often than not I find myself sitting in front of this god damn computer screen. To my dismay, all of my friends have better things to do, and by better things to do, I mean they all have a boyfriend or girlfriend.
So...to put it plainly...FUCK ALL YOU BOYS WITH GIRLFRIENDS AND ALL YOU GIRLS WITH BOYFRIENDS. FUCK EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU.
People have been telling me to "cheer up" and "quit complaining" because I'm miserable...well can you blame me? If you woke up and went to work, got out and 5 and optomistaclly ran home to eat and clean up just praying that by some off chance tonight is the night one of your friends will call and want to do something...only to be let down every single night. Then in a last ditch effort to salvage my night I run through my phone book again and try to get ahold of someone...I get voice mails or the sweet line, "let me call you back in a little while," which we all know really means FUCK YOU I'm already busy. If I was 21 I'd just fucking drink myself stupid every night and resort to alcoholism...then I wouldn't need anyone...but alas I am only 20. Maybe I'll jsut invest in sleeping pills...live from sleep to work and back again.
I heard an old song on the radio as I drove around aimlessly for an hour tonight...I don't know who its by but it went...
"Another Saturday night and I ain't got nobody
I got some money cause I just got paid
Oh, how I wish I had some chick to talk to
I'm in an awful wave..."
That didn't strike a nerve or anything...
I'm going to go watch Fucking S.N.I.C.K. or something...like the loser I am.
~f2