DO NOT read this!

[saturn_firefly]

I was going to write a happy journal entry...
I swear I was...

It was one of hope and wonder...

Not any more...

Maybe not ever again...

Comments

[wisp001]

Though I'm not one to usually follow this... please don't hold so much in and let it go all at once. Call/text/e-mail if you need someone to listen. That someone need not even be me, but just someone supportive who will lend an ear and be there for you.

Please also stop worrying about hurting or scaring your friends with who you are. A person who enters into a friendship accepts the risk willingly. A friend will trust that you will not hurt him or her and forgive if you do. Very likely if there is hurt, it will be unintentional.

You are wanted.

You will be welcomed. (If I get back to Ohio, you'll certainly be welcomed there!)

I have proof that you existed... fond memories of Cos-Arena, cons, and chats.

I ask you, please do not withdraw, do not disappear. I'll miss you.

Do not worry about me. Be who you truly are and feel what you truly feel. I'm willing to see those sides of you. I'll take that risk.

Talk to me...

[rpb3000]

You are wanted more than you think you are. Just because your family doesn't care about you doesn't mean that your friends don't. We're here for ya', through the thick and thin.

[kimiko_xp]

Sarah... Don't ever think that you don't have people who care about you. I'd do anything in my power to help and I love you very much. Its insulting to your friends who love you like family to say that there is no one who cares for you. Please remember us Taru-chan, and remember that we do love you very much. Very very much.

[saturn_firefly]

I'm so sorry everyone.

You are all too kind to me, I truely don't deserve each and everyone one of my friends. But I am thankful that you are here and you maybe the only ones I can trust and call my family in the very end.

I just can't take the yelling anymore.
I can't take the fighting or the put downs.
I got past this once before, I guess I have to do it one more time...
I just have to rememeber how.

I can't really call people here without getting yelled or screamed at after I get off for being too loud or what I just talked about and going outside is an option but it's -2 out there lately. So what else can I do?

Fai you are right and I need to stop holding this in and I won't be writing such bad things just to get it out. And rpb, I thank you so much for your support.

I'm sorry Kimiko for insulting you and everyone but I have been complaining and crying so much since I've been here, I know it's at least old by now.

I'm so sorry and I thank you for all of your kindness and friendship. Everyone.

[flow_ichirou]

This is gonna sound mean, but its meant to be a kind kind of irony. Dont be so sorry. Humans arent meant to put up with all that shit. And thats exactly why they arent meant to be alone either. You worry about not having a proof of existance as you write it on one of your many proofs, one visible to so many

[wolfgoldeyes]

Well, I just got on here and read this and I agree with everyone. You need to remember Firefly that we are each and all here for you. You are not ugly and you forget that a prereq to being a friend of mine is being crazy.

You are certainly not neglected by me and I want to be your tamahome. If I am the guy you are talking about who is the brave one, I am still here for you. I get more scared and worried about you than anything else.

Remember, you have my number so call me whenever you want and if your family throws a fit; let them talk to me and my mother and if you want out of Iowa, come to Minnesota. I will see if I can find someone for you to stay with till you can get out on your own. I know my Grandparents owe me plenty!

[wolfgoldeyes]

Than there is my good friend Leah; a fellow Wiccan. If she needs a roommate; I am sure she can help you out with someplace to stay. You need to be in a place where people care about you and won't pick a fight with you over stuff. I would like to think I can provide it.