DO NOT read this!

[saturn_firefly]

I was going to write a happy journal entry...
I swear I was...

It was one of hope and wonder...

Not any more...

Maybe not ever again...

Comments

[flow_ichirou]

This is gonna sound mean, but its meant to be a kind kind of irony. Dont be so sorry. Humans arent meant to put up with all that shit. And thats exactly why they arent meant to be alone either. You worry about not having a proof of existance as you write it on one of your many proofs, one visible to so many.
Never discount friends. Theyre there to be there, no matter how tough it gets. True friends are there to outlast any other relationship, even lovers. And when theyre not there, which they cant always be, they are in you. This is the other proof left by people of their existance, their existance in others.
I wont lie, pain is something thats gonna happen. Its hard to avoid, and Murphys law isnt the only thing saying that. The thing is, there is always some way to relieve it, and the greatest one is time. And while you wait, distractions of any kind really help. Take it from a figurative old man on this one.
Dont worry about what you say when youre angry or mad or hurting. Thats when we push each other away because we dont want to hurt any more. But, this is the exact time when we need others the most. Be careful who it is though. Dont go looking for a doctor when you need a mechanic.
There is a reason that family, friends, and relatives are three seperate words. I have branches of my own family who are friends to me, friends not related to me who I consider family, and relatives that fit into neither of the previous two categories. Recognize who these are. Family and friends will each be helpful at times when the other isnt, but just because someone is related to you, dont expect any help.
To relieve the stress of the day, even when its cold out, just pick something you like to do for the heck of it and do it. Pick something where you dont really care if you do good at it or not. these are the best. Again though, dont discount the friends. Not only are they good to talk to, they also are pretty good to get together for these activities.
Really, the secret of life and happiness is trying your best with what you have, celebrating when you get it right, learning from when you dont, and not caring how many times you fail in order to succeed. You could lose your job, your home, and your food, but if you can find some way to laugh about it, youve not lost the hope to get it all back. I think the old mans been rambling for way too long now.