Sensual Red Lights- fan fiction- gazette/ alice nine/ d'espairsray-8/?

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Title:  Sensual Red Lights
author: Me..? Sarcasm_chan
warning: well, ...yaoi and vulgar language sometimes... english is not my mother-tongue..not beta-read
pairings: ShouxHiroto, SagaxShou, ToraxHiroto , UruhaxReita, Reitax?, RukixUruha, AoixUruha (beware of the one-sided ones)
disclaimers: unfortunately, their manager didn't want to sell them to me ;_; the meanie wants them for his own use -_-; so, i don't own them....
rating: - dunno NC17 is a bit overdone I think???
genre: manxman (a lot), drama
  Summary:
Uruha is a porn-star in the yaoi scene, his biggest rival is Ruki.

previous:

8

“You know that I appreciate your works as an actor, and you also know I what I think of you in private. That last thing didn’t influence my decision though.” Kai smiles. “I know with how much aversion you were looking on the promo, but you acted like a professional Uruha.
You put your negative feelings for Ruki aside and did what you had to do.
And even more.
We were all perplexed by what you put down there, in both of the scenes.
So! Congratulations!
You have the part!” Kai shakes hands with the taller actor in front of him, smiling warmly
Uruha feels triumph spreading through his veins. HE DID IT! He got the part! He beat Ruki! He will make it!
”I…I can’t say how happy I am Kai!” Uruha shouts.
”I know.” Kai laughs. “Here’s your script! We are starting with the shootings in a week. Try to know your texts.”

Uruha left the building with the biggest smile on his face.
Even the rain won’t harm him during his walk home…
He won! He did it!
While the smile doesn’t fade, he gets his cell-phone out of his pocket:
”Hello?”
”I hate you!” Uruha shouts cheerful into the phone.
”I love you too Uru-kun. So, are you happy with the part?” Karyu answers.
”No, I am deeply depressed, won’t ever get over it.”
”Glad to hear. Go work on those lines Thunderthigh! We’ll celebrate it tomorrow.” And with that Karyu hangs up.

He walks through the streets, it is later in the noon and it’s raining.
All people are hurrying cause of the rain, or looking for a place to stand dry.
But he doesn’t care. He is drowned in his thoughts.
He doesn’t exactly know what he’ll tell him, but he does have to talk to him.
And he hopes he remembers correctly where he lives…Let’s hope he did not move out in the time they didn’t have contact.

He knocks the door, while the water still streams from his body, though it’s dry in the gallery of the flat.
The door opens, a shorter brown-haired man stands there, and he remembers him.
”Hello Nao.”
”Ah! Eh hello…I remember you! Eh, give me a second-“Nao smiles.
”NAO? Who is it?” A voice shouts from behind, and the door to the tiny entrance hall opens, the blonde enters.
”…Shou…” Saga says softly and surprised.
”AH! See that I know you?” Nao says. “Shou! That’s right, Long time no see! How’re yo-”
”Nao,” Saga interrupts him. “Shut up and leave will you?”
Nao stutters something, Shou smiles uncomfortable. Then Nao leaves through the door Saga just came in through.

”That wasn’t very friendly.” Shou says softly while smiling a little.
”I’ll make it up to him.” Saga shrugs. “What can I do for you?”
“I eh…I wanted to talk to you.”
”Oh?” Saga asks curiously and friendly.
”You see…What were you doing in front of Uruha’s apartment yesterday evening?” Shou fires away, he said it fast, and squeezed his eyes closed while saying it, he is relieved he said those words now, but scared for Saga’s reaction.
His face looks perplexed. “So you did see me?” he asks softly.
”Eh, yes.”
”Then why didn’t you wave or something?” Saga says a bit indignant.
”Eh, because you didn’t either?” Shou says surprised. “But you still have to answer my question!”
”…I was just, taking a walk.” Saga says with a weird tone. “Why do you ask?”
”Just taking a walk?” Shou repeats.
”Yes.”
”A walk from two hours?”
”EH?! How do you-“
”I saw you on the pavement in front of my home Saga, I recognized your face. You knew the direction in which I went; you followed me, to see what was going on eh? And then you saw later that police car came to Uru’s apartment, and you got nervous and stayed to watch what would happen.” Shou sounds…severe and weird, as if he at the same time is hoping Saga will convince him that it isn’t true.

Saga stares at him, first he doesn’t say a word. Then he speaks:
”You,” He says with a dangerous tone. “Are crazy.”
”Wh-what?” Shou says.
”I was JUST taking a WALK! And yes you passed me, and yes I saw you in Uruha’s apartment building, and yes I know Uruha lives there. BUT I DID NOT FOLLOW YOU! I was just wondering what that police car was doing there, and then I saw you and Uruha standing in front of that window, and I realised the police came for one of you. That was all!” Saga shouts indignant. “SO DON’T THINK I AM STALKING YOU!”
”I DON’T THINK YOU ARE STALKING ME!” Shou shouts back. “I THINK YOU’RE STALKING URUHA!”
Saga’s eyes now become really big. “…WHAT?” He shouts.
Shou gasps; what did he do? What did he do? How could he be so stupid?
”I-…I” Shou stutters.
But Saga interrupts him: “SHOU, LISTEN! YOU ARE A RETARD! YOU SHOULD SEE A DOCTOR! AND I AM NOT GOING TO STAND HERE, LISTENING TO YOU WHILE YOU’RE BLAMING ME FOR DOING THINGS I’D NEVER DO! I DON’T CARE IF YOU’RE OVER ME OR NOT! BUT THIS IS JUST PATHETIC!”

Shou stares at him, his nose is white and he feels humiliated, stupid and ashamed.
”Saga, I- I was just afraid that-“
”THAT WHAT?” The blonde shouts.
”That you only contacted me because of Uruha.” Shou softly says.
”WELL I DID NOT! BUT IT IS CLEAR I MADE A MISTAKE BY CONTACTING YOU ANYWAY! SHOU, I’LL SAY THIS ONE LAST TIME: I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH YOU!” Saga shouts.
Shou slowly nods. “I know…” He says with a soft and sad voice.
Saga seems furious…How could he be so stupid?
”Now, please leave Shou.” Saga says, softer this time.
”But-“
”LEAVE!” Saga shouts.
And Shou leaves.

Ruki’s fists contacts his cheek again, he tastes blood and feels how the pain grows with the second.
”WHAT DID I TELL YOU?” Ruki shouts in his ear.
Reita groans from pain.
”WELL?”
”N-not to b-bring him pleasure again.”
”AND?”
”T-To stay a-away from him.”
”AND WHAT DID YOU DO TODAY?” Ruki shouts while punching him again.
”I-I talked to him.”
”Indeed! And that’s not staying away is it? No…” Ruki whispers in his ear, threatening.
”You won’t ever TALK or LOOK at him again! You won’t ever SPEAK his name again!”
Reita feels his anger pumping through his veins.
How many times did Ruki do this to him? Beating him up like this…Reacting all his anger and pain on him?
How many times did Ruki rape him?
Too many times. Even if it only was once.
But he won’t do it again. Not today.

”No.” Reita says softly, but decisive.
”What did you say?” Ruki says in his ear, threatening.
”NO!” Reita shouts, and with all his strength, he pulls his arms loose from Ruki’s grip.
Ruki seems perplexed by this sudden explosion of anger.
Reita starts screaming: “YOU WON’T TOUCH ME AGAIN!”
”Really?” Ruki says slowly.
”YES! REALLY! I DIDN’T TURN YOU IN BECAUSE I HAD COMPASSION WITH YOU, BUT-“
”If you turn me in,” Ruki interrupts him, his voice is calm but evil. “I will tell your name. To everyone.”
Reita swallows.
”You don’t want that to happen right?” Ruki continues. “Reita, Akira, Mr. Suzuki. A porn-stand-in.”
”No…” Reita mumbles.
”What will the yakuza do with that material?”
”No- you can’t-“
”Oh yes Reirei. I can.” Ruki smirks. “But,” And Ruki pushes Reita against the wall again, holding his arms at his wrists, and whispers in his ear: “If you stay away from Uruha, I’ll help you.”
”H-Help me?” Reita softly mumbles.
”To escape Reita! Like you want so badly!”
”E-escape?”
”Yes! Imagine…You won’t ever have to see me again. But, in return:” Ruki says. “Stay. Away. From. Uruha.”
”…You’re lying.” Reita says.
”Am I?” Ruki grins. “You’ll never find out if you don’t do as I tell you…” And Ruki wants to turn Reita around again.
Reita is too confused and too damaged to protest with the strength he needs…Again he feels how Ruki’s revenge burns inside him.
How long does he have to go through this?

“…What was all that shouting about Saga?” Nao asks softly, as Saga sits on the couch, his arms crossed against his chest, his eyes stare at the ground, without blinking once in the 15 minutes that passed since Shou left, the expression on his face is a mix from pain and anger.
If Saga would have blinked, Nao would have seen the tears he is secretly crying.
”Saga?” Nao tries again.
No reaction.
”Saga, for days already I am noticing something’s wrong. Now this…
Is Shou the one that’s in your mind the last days?” Nao asks friendly.
Saga looks up as he hears that name. That cursed name.
”Don’t talk about him.” Saga only says.
Nao is surprised, though partial relieved his friend finally speaks again. “About who? Shou-“
”I SAID DON’T, NAO!” Saga shouts.
Nao falls silent again. Something is really wrong, Nao haven’t seen Saga like this in years.
Not since that one time when he came from some appointment with a friend, Saga was very confused and very…Frustrated.
He said everything went wrong, it was too late to clean up the mess, he said.
Nao knows that that friend, was Shou too.
But Nao doesn’t know what’s wrong between him and Saga, and Nao needs to know.
Nao wants to help his friend, client and roommate.
He may not always be that friendly, but Saga is as a brother. And Nao wants to cheer him up. It was time for Nao, to take some initiative: to pay a visit to Shou.

Shou finally put on some dry clothes when he hears someone rang the intercom.
”Hello?” Shou asks.
”Ah eh, good evening Shou. It is me, Nao. Can I please come up?”
Shou hesitates. ”Nao?” he asks surprised.
”Yes, you know. Saga’s roommate. I want to talk about something with you, I think you can help me…”
”Eh, yes, alright. Come in.” And Shou opens the door for Nao.

Nao walks up all five the stairs and is gasping when he reaches the floor Shou lives. He should do more exercise…
Shou is waiting for him in the gallery.
”Come in.” Shou says again. “Don’t mind the mess.”
Shou sounds…Painful. Like Saga did but then without the anger.
Something really happened, and Nao wants to know what it is.
’Shou definitely never visited our apartment,’ Nao thinks as he enters Shou’s living room. ‘because this, I don’t call messy, at all.’

”So.” Shou fakes a smile. “Sit down!”
Nao takes place on the soft red couch.
”Well,” Shou says softly. “What can I do for you? I didn’t expect you to pay me a visit to be honest.”
”Yeah, I know. But…I am really worried Shou.” Nao mumbles.
”Worried?” Shou says surprised.
”About Saga.”
As he hears the name, Shou seems like he has to swallow away some tears. “I-I see.” He stutters.
”You see, for days he is acting weird already, and he doesn’t want to tell me what’s going on. I think it might have something to do with you…Are you two having a fight?” Nao asks, his voice indeed sounds worried.
”Well,” Shou says sadly. “Now we have.”
”How come?” Na oaks concerned.
Shou shrugs. “I said stupid things. Very stupid things, things I should have never thought in the first place.”
Nao doesn’t ask what things, and Shou is thankful for that.

Nao sighs. “You see Shou, Saga doesn’t want to tell me what’s going on, but I know him well enough to be able to guess it.”
”Then w-what is wrong?”
”I think you are in his mind the last days, and I know Saga, when a person takes over his mind it must mean he cares about that person. I am not saying you are in love with each other! I have no idea about your sexual eh…about your preferred sex, let’s put it that way.”
Shou stares at Nao. ‘Wow, he does have guts.’
”We’re not in love.” Shou softly mumbles. “Saga prefers hating me at the moment, and he never wanted to be something else than friends.”
Nao now looks at Shou. “Well,” he slowly answers. “That I doubt.”
Shou looks up, really surprised. What is this? Why is Nao telling him that? They never were close friends, more a you’re-the-friend-of-my-friend-relation.
Nao shrugs. “If he says to you he only wants to be friends, then maybe he does. But like I said: I know him well. Maybe too well. He is confused at the moment, and I know his frustrations have a lot to do with you.”
Shou swallows. “I am sorry to cause him frustrations.”
Nao smiles. “Don’t be, I just…I just want to know what your fight was about this afternoon?”

Shou sighs. “Well, I…I blamed him for stalking someone.”
”You?”
”No. My friend. He gets stalked recently, and…I thought about how coincidental it all was, the first note my friend received was about the same time when Saga came back into my life again. I really, really, didn’t want to-…I didn’t believe myself Saga would really do that, but…For some reason, I needed to hear him say that. I needed an explanation! To hear that he didn’t contact me because of-“
”…So you did it because you were afraid Saga didn’t care about you, but about your friend?” Nao asks.
Shou slowly nods, and rests his head in his hands. “I am so stupid Nao. I really didn’t want to insult Saga, I never really believed he did it…I didn’t want to believe it. I should have known he would never do such a thing…”
Nao nods too. “Indeed, he would never do that. And he is proud, so you probably insulted him very deeply…I am afraid you really hurt him Shou.”
Shou’s shoulders shock. “I am so sorry…” He whispers, with his heads still in his hands.
”Don’t tell me, tell Saga!” Nao smiles.
”But he won’t ever want to talk to me again…”
Nao sighs. “He will.” He says then, he sounds decisive. “He cares for you, he’ll want to talk to you, how mad he may seem now.”
Shou looks up. “Really?”
Nao nods. “I am sure.”
Shou smiles a watery smile. “Thank you Nao.”
”No problem.” Nao smiles too. “You also helped me. I’ll calm down Saga.”
”Will you?” Shou asks relieved.
Nao nods. “Of course.”

Aoi lies down on his bed, only wearing some loose fitting pants. His shirtless upper-body is skinny, muscular and his skin is white, but though he’s not unattractive, Aoi’s body is in need of another one’s body.
A particular one.
But Aoi won’t ever admit that. It’s not the way he intended things to be. It’s no part of the plan.
He wanted to get rid of Him. And for getting rid of him he must get rid of his biggest concurrent.
That is his strategy.
But now…Does he want to get rid of Him? Does he really want to?
Well…Yes. As concurrent, He is too much for Aoi. He’ll win; he’ll take away Aoi’s position. And nobody will take away his position.
Ruki isn’t a thread, he is just a tool.
 A tool, to get rid of Uruha.
Not of the person Uruha, but of the actor, if Uruha gets out of this world, Aoi will stay number one.
And if he does that without playing dirty towards Uruha, at least, without him knowing, there’s a chance that his newest goal can be reached too.
That man has something that holds grip on people, it’s his…Aura. The atmosphere around him. The image.
Just…Him. Uruha makes people’s mind go crazy, even Aoi’s.

Aoi, the cold-blooded actor, he arrogant man that decided to give his best and make the best of his life, he fell for the only person that can ruin it.
But still, his plan will succeed. Aoi knows it’s working, he noticed Uruha’s suspicious behaviour towards Ruki, Uruha suspects him.
Things are going the way they are supposed to be.
And Aoi, will support Uruha and help him become the Star of the movie. Cause then, he’ll leave.
He’ll be gone, for good.
’There’s nobody that can ruin my plan to break those two.’ Aoi thinks. ‘There’s nobody that can stop me from reaching my goals: Staying number one, and making Uruha mine.’

Though, there’s one thing, Aoi is forgetting. And Aoi realises there’s this detail he did not notice, but…He has no idea what it is.