Love Again (Breaking What You Believe In)
Part 1 I
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I’m in a most fucked up moment now. Here I am sitting at the back seat of the car together with the bags looking as tall buildings turned it into large green lushes trees. I’m not a nature lover person but I rather look at these immobile creatures than to look at the couple seating in front. Yes, a lovely couple to watch but not to me. Being sick with the green color I allowed myself to set my eyes at the people in front. She was feeding him with fries as she talked about her plans. This is supposed to be their anniversary trip but hey the person she called as his husband’s friend tagged along with them and now sitting alone at the backseat. Why am I here the first place? Oh yes she insisted for me to come since I’ll be left alone in the city this summer and that I need rest from city life. She also mentioned of me meeting her family since I’m her friend now. I can say no definitely but seeing her beg and even used the help she gave in my shop I couldn’t say no. she’s nice and kind that’s why I can’t hate her. Yup, hate her for being so perfect and having all I wanted. A perfect family, stable job, lots of friends, beautiful inside and out and most of all a perfect husband. Honestly I don’t care about the others that she have, all I needed and wanted is him..him as mine..alone.
“are you okay, Key” I didn’t noticed that I turned back from trees watching but all I could see were gray. I turned to look at the owner of the voice. She looked so genuinely worried that’s why I tried to gave her a smile.
“yeah..just tired..” I replied. I noticed my voice so hoarse maybe because of hours of not speaking.
“you looked sick..you’re not even speaking back there..”
“no really just tried and sleepy that’s all..” I gave her a smile and when I decided to go back to m sightseeing I accidentally landed my eyes on the mirror and there saw his eyes staring at me. I averted my gaze as I settled myself back to my earlier business but I could still feel him looking at me from that mirror. I closed my eyes trying to relax myself enjoyed the wind hitting my face. This feels good. But that feeling didn’t last long. I felt the car stopped. I opened my eyes and saw him stepped out of the car.
“get out…”
“huh?”
“Hara can you change places with Key..he’s not used to riding at the back” did he just told his wife to change places with me?
“I’m fine..I..”
“oh yes..why didn’t you tell me earlier..” and Hara stepped out of the car.
“no Hara..i..” why can’t they just let me finish first. I’m kind of irritated to people cutting me when I’m speaking.
“cmon..” I was forcefully drag me out of the car to the passenger seat door. He opened it and pushed me inside.
“Hon..you’re a bit harsh to him..” I heard Hara said. Yes he is. I caressed my wrist as I felt pain. I
“needed Hon..he’s kind of hard headed person” he said as he settled back to his seat and started to drive again. I didn’t looked at him just stared at the now bruised wrist of mine. I could feel heat in my eyes. No, I’m not gonna cry now. Not here. I hoped not a single tear will drop, not when he’s around. After some time I couldn’t hold it anymore. I could feel it, a tear in the tip of my eye and there it fall.
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The rest of the trip was quiet. Hara fell asleep at the back, him focused in his driving and me back to trees watching and avoiding any contact from the person beside me. After another 2 hours we arrived at her parents’ house. We were warmly welcomed by her parents. As I guessed, they’re wonderful people just like her. After some introductions and a very delicious home-made dinner Hara showed me the room where I could stay.
“is this fine with you?” she asked as she changed the pillowcase.
“yes..don’t worry about me..” I said as I stepped out of the bathroom.
“that’s good..sleep well..if you need anything our room is just across yours..” she said as she made her way to the doors. As I heard the click of the door closed, I let myself collapsed at the bed. The 6 hours travel made my body hurts like hell.
“ I think I need a massage”I shifted myself and settled for a more comfortable position in the bed. I used my hands to pushed my body but then I felt pain. I looked at my hand and there saw the bruised. It became more visible. I touched it softly and felt more pain. Not just a physical pain but a skin deep pain.
I closed my eyes trying to get some sleep to relax and most of all forget. But I just found myself widely awake and its already 1 in the evening. I sat up, ran my fingers through my hair and stood up. A glass of milk might help. I tried to be quiet as possible as I made my way to the kitchen. I opened the refrigerator and smiled as I saw a carton of fresh milk. I grabbed it and made my way to the counter to get a glass. I was about to take a sip of my milk when I heard a voice.
“can’t sleep?”
I felt my heart beat fast. I didn’t need to see who it was the voice itself made me know. I will never be wrong with his voice.
“yeah..” I lazily answered back. After today’s journey plus what he did I don’t have any interest for a conversation with him now. I quickly drank all the contents of my glass and placed it on the sink then made my way back to my room. But like what I expected, he grabbed my wrist..again.
“ouch..” I pulled away from him. He just hold at the same spot he bruised.
“I’m sorry..” he said concerned in his voice. He walked nearer to me and now I can see his face. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
Oh yeah..really..you didn’t mean to hurt me. It sounded like a sick joke to me. No..a pure lie. From the time I met him until now all he do is hurt me.
“I’m sleepy…” I said as I pushed him out of my way.
“why..?”
I looked at him waiting for him to continue.
“why are you here?..you could just say no..”
“I can’t..she begged..” I said and turned my back to him.
“but this is stupid..” he walked ahead of me blocking my way. He put his hands on my shoulder like him acting as wall on my way was not enough to stop from walking.
“yeah..i’m stupid..i already knew it no need to remind me..” I pulled myself away and pushed him out of my way. But he’s just too strong. He stood there like I didn’t just pushed him.
“ Key..” his voice sounded different. It’s like he’s begging but at the same time demanding something. “don’t be like this..”
“like what..?” I asked him. Now I can feel the tears in eyes again starting to form. Stupid tears of mine always there when I don’t need them.
“like what you’re doing..torturing yourself..stop it..” he said eyes on me. I can see in his eyes pure concern.
“you telling me to stop what I’m doing is like telling me to stop..loving you.. Minho” there I said it. He already knew it. I love him. He loves me. That’s what I know. Since the day he kissed me until the day he said he’s married. The day he won my heart back until to this day I feel like wanting to take it back.
“no..i love you..so much..you know it..”
“then leave her..” I didn’t mean those words. I know at the end I’m the one who will need to leave. She doesn’t deserve to be cheated.
“Key what you wanted is..” he looked away so fast but I didn’t missed the tear flow from his eye.
“I know..” I turned my back on him. I walked away move towards the main door. I turned the knob as quietly as possible.
“where are you going?” I didn’t noticed him walking behind me then I felt his hand on mine.
“getting some fresh air..”
“but it’s late at..” he was cut when we heard a voice coming from upstairs. I pulled away my hand put it inside my jacket.
“Hon..what are doing?..oh Key where are you going?” she looked like half awake. She’s rubbing the sleep from his eyes.
I smiled. “ I can’t sleep..i saw some 24hr shops along the way..and I need some fresh air.”
“oh..but it’s late..you’re not familiar with the place and”
“I’m fine..i was alone too when I first step in seoul.. I used to be being alone..” It’s true. I’m always alone but ended when I meet Minho. He changed a lot about me. Maybe that’s the reason why I’m so into him.
“Minho can come with you..right Minho..?” She said this time standing next to her husbad.
“no Hara..i can go alone..but I’ll appreciate if you lend me the car..” I said looking at Minho who has this blank expression. I hate this expression of him.
“oh..right..Hon..where’s the key?”
“No..i’ll come with him..” Minho walked away towards the drawer near the door and grabbed the keys.
“No..i can go by myself..i want to be ALONE” I emphasized the last word. I noticed that it made him froze. “I’ll be going..”
Then I turned around opened the door walked out bid goodbye and don’t worry about me to Hara and closed it. I walked of the backyard. I looked at both direction and decided to take the left. I grabbed the hood of my jacket and put it over my head. This will be a long night.
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Author’s Note: Hi everyone! I was to post the other story about an action mystery shinee story but it was still in revisions..so I decided to post this first..i already finished up to hmmm…5 parts..this will not be along fic..maybe 7-10..depends on how will you love this….this part is a Minkey..there is another Key pairing…in the next part..i’ll update maybe every after day..please comment and tell me if you like it..i wanted to know if this interests you or not..i’m not that good at English but I hope you’ll understand what I wanted to portray here..enjoy and give some love^^^^^
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I’m in a most fucked up moment now. Here I am sitting at the back seat of the car together with the bags looking as tall buildings turned it into large green lushes trees. I’m not a nature lover person but I rather look at these immobile creatures than to look at the couple seating in front. Yes, a lovely couple to watch but not to me. Being sick with the green color I allowed myself to set my eyes at the people in front. She was feeding him with fries as she talked about her plans. This is supposed to be their anniversary trip but hey the person she called as his husband’s friend tagged along with them and now sitting alone at the backseat. Why am I here the first place? Oh yes she insisted for me to come since I’ll be left alone in the city this summer and that I need rest from city life. She also mentioned of me meeting her family since I’m her friend now. I can say no definitely but seeing her beg and even used the help she gave in my shop I couldn’t say no. she’s nice and kind that’s why I can’t hate her. Yup, hate her for being so perfect and having all I wanted. A perfect family, stable job, lots of friends, beautiful inside and out and most of all a perfect husband. Honestly I don’t care about the others that she have, all I needed and wanted is him..him as mine..alone.
“are you okay, Key” I didn’t noticed that I turned back from trees watching but all I could see were gray. I turned to look at the owner of the voice. She looked so genuinely worried that’s why I tried to gave her a smile.
“yeah..just tired..” I replied. I noticed my voice so hoarse maybe because of hours of not speaking.
“you looked sick..you’re not even speaking back there..”
“no really just tried and sleepy that’s all..” I gave her a smile and when I decided to go back to m sightseeing I accidentally landed my eyes on the mirror and there saw his eyes staring at me. I averted my gaze as I settled myself back to my earlier business but I could still feel him looking at me from that mirror. I closed my eyes trying to relax myself enjoyed the wind hitting my face. This feels good. But that feeling didn’t last long. I felt the car stopped. I opened my eyes and saw him stepped out of the car.
“get out…”
“huh?”
“Hara can you change places with Key..he’s not used to riding at the back” did he just told his wife to change places with me?
“I’m fine..I..”
“oh yes..why didn’t you tell me earlier..” and Hara stepped out of the car.
“no Hara..i..” why can’t they just let me finish first. I’m kind of irritated to people cutting me when I’m speaking.
“cmon..” I was forcefully drag me out of the car to the passenger seat door. He opened it and pushed me inside.
“Hon..you’re a bit harsh to him..” I heard Hara said. Yes he is. I caressed my wrist as I felt pain. I
“needed Hon..he’s kind of hard headed person” he said as he settled back to his seat and started to drive again. I didn’t looked at him just stared at the now bruised wrist of mine. I could feel heat in my eyes. No, I’m not gonna cry now. Not here. I hoped not a single tear will drop, not when he’s around. After some time I couldn’t hold it anymore. I could feel it, a tear in the tip of my eye and there it fall.
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The rest of the trip was quiet. Hara fell asleep at the back, him focused in his driving and me back to trees watching and avoiding any contact from the person beside me. After another 2 hours we arrived at her parents’ house. We were warmly welcomed by her parents. As I guessed, they’re wonderful people just like her. After some introductions and a very delicious home-made dinner Hara showed me the room where I could stay.
“is this fine with you?” she asked as she changed the pillowcase.
“yes..don’t worry about me..” I said as I stepped out of the bathroom.
“that’s good..sleep well..if you need anything our room is just across yours..” she said as she made her way to the doors. As I heard the click of the door closed, I let myself collapsed at the bed. The 6 hours travel made my body hurts like hell.
“ I think I need a massage”I shifted myself and settled for a more comfortable position in the bed. I used my hands to pushed my body but then I felt pain. I looked at my hand and there saw the bruised. It became more visible. I touched it softly and felt more pain. Not just a physical pain but a skin deep pain.
I closed my eyes trying to get some sleep to relax and most of all forget. But I just found myself widely awake and its already 1 in the evening. I sat up, ran my fingers through my hair and stood up. A glass of milk might help. I tried to be quiet as possible as I made my way to the kitchen. I opened the refrigerator and smiled as I saw a carton of fresh milk. I grabbed it and made my way to the counter to get a glass. I was about to take a sip of my milk when I heard a voice.
“can’t sleep?”
I felt my heart beat fast. I didn’t need to see who it was the voice itself made me know. I will never be wrong with his voice.
“yeah..” I lazily answered back. After today’s journey plus what he did I don’t have any interest for a conversation with him now. I quickly drank all the contents of my glass and placed it on the sink then made my way back to my room. But like what I expected, he grabbed my wrist..again.
“ouch..” I pulled away from him. He just hold at the same spot he bruised.
“I’m sorry..” he said concerned in his voice. He walked nearer to me and now I can see his face. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
Oh yeah..really..you didn’t mean to hurt me. It sounded like a sick joke to me. No..a pure lie. From the time I met him until now all he do is hurt me.
“I’m sleepy…” I said as I pushed him out of my way.
“why..?”
I looked at him waiting for him to continue.
“why are you here?..you could just say no..”
“I can’t..she begged..” I said and turned my back to him.
“but this is stupid..” he walked ahead of me blocking my way. He put his hands on my shoulder like him acting as wall on my way was not enough to stop from walking.
“yeah..i’m stupid..i already knew it no need to remind me..” I pulled myself away and pushed him out of my way. But he’s just too strong. He stood there like I didn’t just pushed him.
“ Key..” his voice sounded different. It’s like he’s begging but at the same time demanding something. “don’t be like this..”
“like what..?” I asked him. Now I can feel the tears in eyes again starting to form. Stupid tears of mine always there when I don’t need them.
“like what you’re doing..torturing yourself..stop it..” he said eyes on me. I can see in his eyes pure concern.
“you telling me to stop what I’m doing is like telling me to stop..loving you.. Minho” there I said it. He already knew it. I love him. He loves me. That’s what I know. Since the day he kissed me until the day he said he’s married. The day he won my heart back until to this day I feel like wanting to take it back.
“no..i love you..so much..you know it..”
“then leave her..” I didn’t mean those words. I know at the end I’m the one who will need to leave. She doesn’t deserve to be cheated.
“Key what you wanted is..” he looked away so fast but I didn’t missed the tear flow from his eye.
“I know..” I turned my back on him. I walked away move towards the main door. I turned the knob as quietly as possible.
“where are you going?” I didn’t noticed him walking behind me then I felt his hand on mine.
“getting some fresh air..”
“but it’s late at..” he was cut when we heard a voice coming from upstairs. I pulled away my hand put it inside my jacket.
“Hon..what are doing?..oh Key where are you going?” she looked like half awake. She’s rubbing the sleep from his eyes.
I smiled. “ I can’t sleep..i saw some 24hr shops along the way..and I need some fresh air.”
“oh..but it’s late..you’re not familiar with the place and”
“I’m fine..i was alone too when I first step in seoul.. I used to be being alone..” It’s true. I’m always alone but ended when I meet Minho. He changed a lot about me. Maybe that’s the reason why I’m so into him.
“Minho can come with you..right Minho..?” She said this time standing next to her husbad.
“no Hara..i can go alone..but I’ll appreciate if you lend me the car..” I said looking at Minho who has this blank expression. I hate this expression of him.
“oh..right..Hon..where’s the key?”
“No..i’ll come with him..” Minho walked away towards the drawer near the door and grabbed the keys.
“No..i can go by myself..i want to be ALONE” I emphasized the last word. I noticed that it made him froze. “I’ll be going..”
Then I turned around opened the door walked out bid goodbye and don’t worry about me to Hara and closed it. I walked of the backyard. I looked at both direction and decided to take the left. I grabbed the hood of my jacket and put it over my head. This will be a long night.
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Author’s Note: Hi everyone! I was to post the other story about an action mystery shinee story but it was still in revisions..so I decided to post this first..i already finished up to hmmm…5 parts..this will not be along fic..maybe 7-10..depends on how will you love this….this part is a Minkey..there is another Key pairing…in the next part..i’ll update maybe every after day..please comment and tell me if you like it..i wanted to know if this interests you or not..i’m not that good at English but I hope you’ll understand what I wanted to portray here..enjoy and give some love^^^^^