Who said we need girls?
Title: Who said we need girls?
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Taecyeon/Junsu, Nichkhun/Wooyoung, Chansung/Junho
Summary: Nichkhun had Wooyoung, Chansung owned Junho and Junsu’s with Taecyeon, who said they need girls?
A/N: Please excuse all the failed grammar and everything. *bows* I hope you all could enjoy it. Thank you!!!
We didn't date girls, we are not allowed to date one until 2PM were on their retirement day probably. JYP didn't allow us to have any close relationship to other girls, whether they were an idol or just ordinary girl. And that statement quite stressing me out, it’s been a very long time since the last time I touched/groped/gripped something called boobs. JYP thought the scandal we had with Jay Park was enough, and he didn't really want to create another one. I mean, screw him. Right now, Jay could date any girl he want while us? We stuck here in this new villa, jerking off.
I was jerking off. I said 'was' because, I remember the first time Junsu offered his body to me, not literally, its just a small talk that actually lead us to that, you know, what other people called as friends for benefit, sex buddy, no strings attached relation, yeah, you name it. It was started couple of months ago, when I confessed to Junsu about how lonely I am and how our new single Hands Up released the wild side of me. I remembered Junsu asked me, "You jerked off?" And I answered, "Yeah. So does everybody." Junsu chuckled and I lightly punched him in his shoulder, "You lonely?" He asked again and I'm like, "Yeah. What's the point of me telling you this? Of course I'm lonely." Junsu only smiled at me then patted my back, "I can help you."
"Help me what?"
"Jerk off?" I seriously had no idea that's what he was talking about,
"Junsu, you gay??" He shook his head and I remembered that was the day I hanged my mouth wide open for that long,
"No. We are both desperate. We can't create another scandal. I mean, we know each other, we are friends, and friends helping each other." I probably gave him my confused look, so then he said,
"You know what, let's try it once. If you don't like it, well, go ahead find a prostitute. They will solve your problem." I was pretty sure that I really considering Junsu's offer. I mean, I'm no virgin, I know how pussy felt in my cock, but a tight ass? I don't know, man.
"You're not thinking about fucking aren't you, Taec??" I was silenced,
"I'm not agree to have sex with you. Not yet, but as our first step, I guess jerking you off is enough." And those words reacted something in my head and of course, my cock, as I pulled Junsu's hand and brought him to my room. Unbuckled my belt, slide off both my pants and boxer as Junsu down on his knees and in a seconds, I had my orgasm. Yeah, lame, because I'm that horny and Junsu, I never thought he was so skillful with his tongue. Don't worry, with me cumming to Junsu's mouth was a bit turn on, I got hard again after it.
Weeks passed and I remembered clearly the first time I penetrated him. That day we finally agree to do more than make out and jerked off. And that was sex. To be honest, had sex with Junsu probably the best thing that I ever had in my life. It’s different when I'm doing it with him, because the way Junsu's reacted at it was so different to the usual Junsu you saw every day, the manly Junsu. That's a huge turn on as I remembered I never heard Junsu moaned my name out loud or screamed my name bazillion times while he panting beneath me. Never.
Nichkhun was always been a great bestfriend, so I don't mind telling him what had happened between me and Junsu. But surprisingly, he only laughed and said,
"I already done that with Wooyoung. Since, I don't know couple of months ago." And I'm doomed. Chansung who was eavesdropping before also said,
"Urm...me too. I’m with Junho." I just rolled my eyes and that made me say, "Oh hey. We are the 'TOP' gang."
That night both of them telling me about how the first time they started those sex buddy things. Nichkhun happened because he confessed to the small boy how horny he was with Victoria, but remembering their agreement with JYP and the other part, which is Victoria and her agency, Nichkhun had to restrain himself. But at that moment on, there was Wooyoung's offer; an offer to help Nichkhun with his lust and yes, just like me and Junsu, the relationship between them grew, to sex.
"Then what about you?" I asked Chansung. The maknae seemed to think about the answer, but then he smiled,
"It just happened."
"What do you mean 'it just happened'?" I asked,
"Yeah. It just happened, no heartbroken story, no offer, its just happened."
"What? What about all your ex?"
"What ex?"
"I thought you had problem with one of them."
"Oh that..~"
"Yeah, that."
"No, Junho already took care of it."
"Ahh..."
"So you guys just happened? Just like that? Staring at each other and had sex?"
"Urm..no. Yes, we do stared at each other, and then we kissed, then.."
"Stop." Yeah, maknae, that's so typical, and little bit naïve. I remembered three of us were stood there, staring at each other. Thinking about what are we going to do next, while Chansung decided him still going to continue that kind of relationship with Junho. Sometimes I was so confused with Chansung, I mean, how come he easily decided what he want with Junho? I looked at the way Nichkhun staring at me, while I know our minds were connected to each other, and Nichkhun's mind told me, "Love?"
I only shrugged but then the Thai prince looked at me again, I'm telling you, he doesn’t need to say anything, it was his eyebrows that talking to me, "Continue what we doing?"
I asked a bit loudly, "What?"
"Sex buddy." I only shrugged while the maknae shook his head while smirking.
"Wipe that smile off your face." Nichkhun said as he pushed Chansung aside.
Since then, we decided to continue what we doing to our partner. Every time we finished our schedule, every time we had free time, you will hear grunted from Chansung's room, screamed from Nichkhun's room and moaned from my room. Yes, that would be the moment when me, Nichkhun, and Chansung fucking our partners. Well, an hour later, we sometimes changed places, Chansung and Junho in the kitchen, Nichkhun and Wooyoung in front of the tv, me and Junsu at the bathroom floor. I swear to God, that the day when we had our villa for our own and when we had free time, it would the time we had wild sex. With our own partner of course, we probably changed places, but not with changing partner.
--
I was staring at my partner; he lay down on his stomach, naked beside me as he playing my iPhone. I run my fingers to his back, feeling it so soft under my touch. I slowly kiss his back making my lips down to his waist. Junsu moaned before he giggled.
"I'm tired. You had worn me out." I was smiling at his reaction because it was true, I worn him out. I can't remember how many times I came inside him, I lost track. But yeah, we just had this wild sex for the thousands times. I slapped his butt and laughed then I wore back my tee and sweatpants. I sat up at the edge of the bed; Junsu turned his head towards me then caressing his hand to my stomach.
"Where are you going? I thought we want to sleep naked." I smirked. Damn that naughty voice, never failed to turn me on.
"Wait for awhile. I need to smoke." He nodded, "Don't take too long."
"I know. Don't sleep without me, okay?" I said as I made my way to the door,
"Yeah. Like I could do that without you." He yelled just before I closed the door.
I pulled out my cigarette. Yes, no one knew about my habit in smoking except my other member. I mean, yeah, I know we are not allowed to smoking, but heck, I'm a grown up male, I need smoking just as much I need sex. Did I say grown up male before? Yes. Grown up because I know when, where, and how much I can do smoke. And believe me, smoking after having a very hard wild sex was heaven. I was glad I had partner who loved me best in my cigar's scent and not being all whiny and wanting me to stop smoking. Junsu, he never demanded, as long as I know how to maintain it, and not excessive.
I slide the door to our villa's backyard then I sat to the bench there, I was inhaling the night's weather. I turned on my cigarette, slowly sucking on the cigarette, feeling it inside my lungs and I let it out slowly.
"Do you have another one?" I looked aside and Nichkhun sat beside me, it was pretty rare to see the Thai Prince asking for a cigarette. This was Nichkhun. Buck. Horvejkul.
"What's going on?" I asked as I offered him the cigarettes. Nichkhun sighed, inhaling his cigarette a little bit deeper,
"How's Junsu hyung?"
"In my room. All worn out. How's Wooyoung?"
"As usual. Rest." Me and Nichkhun then laughed,
"Damn, what have we done to them?" And I remembered both of us sighing after it.
"Do you think I'm doing the right thing, Taec?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, I looked at Wooyoung and damn. He's so beautiful. You know."
“No, I don’t.”
“I mean, everything that Wooyoung does was so amazing. I…” He sighed,
"Somehow you want it more?"
"I don't know, I mean, don’t you think is it weird that I am the one who want to know where our relationship may end up. Is it going to be a lover? Or friends for benefit forever?"
"Everything is up to you, man."
"I know, but,"
"You afraid if he is going to turn you down." We both looked back and saw Chansung already made his way toward us,
"Well, that's the second reason." Nichkhun sighed, "I was confused. You know, I had this jealousy over Wooyoung when all those idol girls somehow made their way to Wooyoung, even Sulli. But... I don't know. I once said to him I liked Victoria but then he said casually, ‘Oh okay. Used me as your sex toy then, its not like I owned your heart or anything.’"
“Really? Wooyoung became that blunt??” I asked,
“I know right? And it was actually breaking my heart when I heard him said that.”
“Why?” the maknae asked,
“He wasn’t sex toy, you know. I mean, do you ever worry about your sex doll?” Both I and Chansung shook our head, “That’s what I’m talking about. I never thought of him as a total sex partner. He is Wooyoung. Jang Wooyoung. And the way he said that about himself was making me sad.”
"What about you, Taec hyung?" the maknae asked,
Now it was my turned to sigh, “To be honest, I hurt Junsu.” I continued, “In every time, every time we had sex, I know he enjoyed it, but then I saw that smiled and tears forming at the same time. Each time I asked ‘what’s going on?’ he only smiled and pulled me to his embrace." I was silenced; hurt piercing to my heart when I remembered Junsu’s face perfectly in that moment, “He wanted me. He wanted something more than just a sex partner. He doesn’t have to say it, I just knew. And in each time the rumor over me and other girls was on the surface, he had that same smiled.”
“And that smiled breaking your heart.” I looked at Nichkhun and nodded,
“Hyung..”,
“Junsu, he had me completely." I could sense 2 pairs of eyes were staring at me completely, “And I can’t keep make him sad, you know.”
“Seemed like we want to let go, but we don’t want to. We couldn’t.” I looked to Nichkhun again,
“God, Khun. What are you? Me?” Nichkhun just silenced.
But then Chansung chuckled.
"Jesus. This was so depressing!!!” He yelled, “Why don't you guys just say it to them??"
"What??" Nichkhun asked,
"What if..." I said,
"I place my bet. I bet both of Junsu and Wooyoung were in love with both of you."
"How do you know that?"
"Come on, man. You don't need to be so fucking smart to know it." Chansung laughed,
"What Junsu and Wooyoung need is both of you to make a first start. To make fucking boundaries, to fucking explain, to fucking CONFESS." Chansung said a little bit louder, while I remembered me and Nichkhun blinked at the way he cursed.
“Cha-Chan-Chans…”
"Why is it so fucking hard for you guys to do it??” Oh yeah, he motion the ‘Y U No’ looked, all frustrated. Great one, Chansung. Bravo. “Yeah, JYP banned us for dating any girls, but not with boys. So, why don't we just fucking enjoy it now, took advantage on it. Because you know, we finally had someone we can chat to at night, we can cuddle with, we can kiss, we can fuck or whatever. We finally had someone who willing to love us just as the same as what we did to them. I don't give a fuck if that was male, as long as he is my oasis." Chansung said frustrated like some kind of sales man.
“Don't you guys realized what you two did is more than just a sex buddy? I'm watching you guys, I’m no fucking blind. There is no sex buddy in this world who liked to cuddle, especially with the clothes on. Taecyeon hyung, you care a lot about Junsu hyung, more than you care about 4 of us. You fucking worried when Junsu hyung came back late at night, you couldn't sleep when you wait for Junsu's result on Immortal Song. Hyung, you even made Junsu fucking breakfast!! You even did this pillow talk after you had sex. You think I didn't hear any of it?? I’m no fucking deaf!!!” I blinked, Chansung’s words were hit me, like I was getting knocked off, by my grand mother. Chansung sighed then he turned his head to face Nichkhun, “And Khun hyung, did you ever remember how many times you fucking told Wooyoung hyung to at least eat something? You didn't remember, but I fucking counted, you said it almost fucking fifth times a day. Imagine if you multiply that to 30? And all of your pictures hyung.” Chansung motion as he opened his arms wide, “Your photography result, was all Jang Wooyoung, yeah, you maybe married to Vic but heck, I never find her picture in your personal camera, except in Minjae’s because I bet he was into Victoria, but the point is, have you take a look at to your photoshop? Photo that you edited? Or to your photo album on your ipad? To your DSLR? Toycam? Lomo? Everything is Jang Wooyoung. And Khun hyung, I probably fucking stupid, but I'm not fucking blind, all those caresses, touches, you did to Wooyoung, was because you need it. And I know you couldn't stand a day without it.” Chansung finally stopped, and then he stared to both of us,
“Come on, man. Be stupid like me, be blunt like me. It all there, the answered of ya'll miseries.” Now Chansung more sounded like desperate guy, “There is no harm to be strongly attached to your partner. There is no harm to be faithful. And definitely there is no harm to tell them the truth.” Chansung sighed as he looked down while I and Nichkhun were sat there, speechless.
“I’m leaving.” Chansung said as he walked inside the house. I was staring at Nichkhun and Nichkhun staring at me back,
“What the fuck was that??” Nichkhun asked and both of us laughed so hard until I remembered I was holding my stomach. Minutes laughing and we stopped, silenced, because we actually thinking what Chansung has just said.
“So…” Nichkhun started, “Relationship. With Jang Wooyoung.” He silenced, “That’s not bad.” He then looked at me. I immediately stood up,
“I need to talk to Junsu.” Nichkhun already made his way to the back door,
“Me too. Afraid Wooyoung might fall asleep.” He yelled and I followed behind.
--
Junsu was wearing his tee and pressing his back to the board when I came in, still with my iPhone in his hand. I sat at the edge of the bed, watching him as he yelled because of his stupidity in playing angry birds.
“Ah. Yoona just give you a message.” He threw my phone at me and yes with that heartbreaking smiled, “She asked when will be the time for you both to meet.” I just silenced, Junsu sighed as he laid his body on his side, facing the wall, “Sorry for reading it. I just happened to read.” I threw my phone somewhere, not even checked on it. There is something more important to do.
“Junsu…”
“Hmm….”
“Junsu, look at me.”
“No.” I sighed desperately, because I need to see his face. But probably what I don’t realize, Junsu was crying and trying his best to cover it.
“Junsu, its okay if you don’t want to look at me. But just listen, okay?” Taecyeon received silenced from Junsu. Taecyeon looked to the body in front of him, to that lonely back.
“I’m sorry.” I said but I immediately put other words after it, don’t want him to misunderstood, “I’m sorry for hurting you all these times. It’s just a stupidity of mine, for knowing what you want and took advantage of it without even caring your feeling.” There’s still silenced coming from Junsu. I was holding on my knees,
“I love you, Kim Junsu.” And those sacred words made Junsu turned around looked at me with those beautiful and confused dark orbs.
“W-what?” His eyes were all swollen and red. I crawled, making my way towards him and pulled him to my embrace.
“You better listen to it, because I’m going to say it again, slower.” I cleared my throat as Junsu looked at me from down,
“I love you, Kim Junsu.” I said slowly as Junsu eyes blinked. But then he pushed me away. Okay, not the exact reaction I want to see.
“You love me?” I nodded, “How come????” I sighed, “Do I really need to explain? Because I don’t know. I just love you.” I said and his mouth hanged wide open. I pulled his hands and locked it with my fingers.
“Junsu, I just, when people asked me about you, I don't want to just answer, ‘Oh he is the guy that I fuck occasionally.’ I want to be more than this. More than sex.” Junsu had taken a back at my answer.
“Did you realize what you just asked for Taec?” He asked and I nodded, “Are you sure? Because once I caught you, I'm not going to let you go. Do you realize with the consequences?” I smiled at him and pushed him to his back, definitely devouring his lips.
“I am forever your prisoner. Just throw the key away.” We kissed for like minutes, playing my tongue with him, and I found Junsu’s hands travel to my butt and gripped it. I stopped, “Yah, why are you gripping my butt? I thought you are tired.” Junsu smirked, “I blamed your confession, now I’m all horny. Beside, you smell cigarettes and smell like a bad boy.” I laughed at what my partner, wait, not partner, my lover has just said as he making his way to slide off both of my tees and sweat pants. While me, damn, I don’t need to slide off anything since Junsu didn’t wear anything underneath and he already threw his tee away. Damn, I was so horny. Our harden cock was touching before I grabbed a lube then spread it in my cock, without stretching him; I pushed my cock inside him. Junsu moaned hard, and I remembered the sound of my skin slapping against his skin was turning me on completely, and I pounded my cock inside him mercilessly. Junsu screamed my name loud as I found his spot, and begging me to go harder and faster and fuck yeah, I came inside him. Junsu was whispering my name as I ride my orgasm, milking him inside until the last drop. I caressed his stomach where his own cum stain was still there, spread it away, then my hand traveled back to his cock, caressed it and hear him moaned again. My lover pulled my head closer and savoring his lips to mine and I could hear him clearly after it,
“I love you too, Ok Taecyeon.” And nothing could beat the feeling when the one you love, loving you back.
--
Nichkhun opened the door to his room slowly, peeking that maybe Wooyoung already asleep, but instead he found the small boy were playing on his iPad. Nichkhun smiled to the other boy, as he sat beside him. Nichkhun silenced, waiting for the other boy to pay attention to his presence. Nichkhun was just staring at him.
“What’s with the staring?” Wooyoung asked nonchalantly as he stirred Nichkhun’s iPad to the left, then to the right.
“Wooyoung…”
“Hmmm…” the sound of car engine roaring from Nichkhun’s iPad,
“Woo….”
“What?” Nichkhun a bit frustrated by Wooyoung’s passivity, “Can you please turned that down??”
“Please? I’m begging?” Nichkhun begged as Wooyoung paused his game and put his attention to the guy that sat next to him,
“What?” Nichkhun sighed, but then he started,
“Wooyoung, what are we?” Wooyoung’s eye brows furrowed, definitely confused with the question, “What do you mean ‘what are we’?” Wooyoung silenced, “I thought the word ‘we’ only happened between you and Vic.”
“Wooyoung…”
“No really, I seriously had no idea why on earth you asked that question to me.”
“Woo…” Wooyoung sighed,
“You want to know what we are.” Wooyoung held on Nichkhun’s hand tight, “We are nothing. I am just the guy that you fuck occasionally.” What Wooyoung just said triggered something inside Nichkhun as the other boy about to stand up from the bed, but Nichkhun pulled him back to the bed and threw him harsh as he was on top of Wooyoung.
“Khun!! What the hell? I need to go to bathroom.”
“What for?”
“Taking a goddamn leak. What else?”
“Really? Not crying?” Nichkhun whispered right in Wooyoung’s ears. Wooyoung turned his head aside, blushing as he ignoring Nichkhun.
“Just let me go.” Wooyoung said,
“Woo…” Wooyoung turned his head and glared at Nichkhun,
“Nichkhun. Not. Now.” Nichkhun taken a back at the eyes that staring at him, he looked closely to the eyes, and found himself there. Nichkhun smiled.
“Yah, Jang Wooyoung.”
“What?” Wooyoung spat.
“I love you.” Nichkhun answered as he sat up, putting Wooyoung’s waist between his knees and released Wooyoung. Wooyoung eyes widen at it.
“You’re not just a guy that I fucked occasionally. You are more than that, Jang Wooyoung.” Nichkhun cupped Wooyoung’s face as the small boy sat, facing Nichkhun.
“Not even a substitute?”
“If I want a substitution, you know there are a lot of women out there waiting for me.” Nichkhun hugged Wooyoung as Wooyoung buried himself in Nichkhun.
“Really? What about Vic?” Nichkhun smiled,
“I haven’t thinking about her these past of months. I considering her as a great friends, that’s it. Thanks to you.” Wooyoung finally gripped Nichkhun’s fabric as Nichkhun moved, pressing his body closer to Wooyoung.
“What took you so long to say that? You know I’ve been waiting.” Wooyoung whispered, wiping his tear drops to Nichkhun’s clothes.
“I know. I know. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” Nichkhun placed kisses to Wooyoung’s forehead, cheeks, nose, and eyes and to his lips. Then Nichkhun pressed his forehead to Wooyoung’s.
“So, are we lover right now?” Wooyoung asked innocently,
“Of course.” Nichkhun kissed Wooyoung as Wooyoung pulled the Thai male on top of him. Lust already filled their kisses and all of sudden Wooyoung stopped. He pushed Nichkhun aside and kissed him passionately.
“You horny, Khun?” Nichkhun smirked,
“I always horny, baby.” Wooyoung bent down and reached Nichkhun’s ears as he whispered, “Good. Because I want to ride you.” No need a second for both Wooyoung and Nichkhun to be naked as they kept grinding their harden cock. Wooyoung turned around, as his back now facing Nichkhun’s chest, Nichkhun laid down as he watched Wooyoung slowly down on top of his cock and Nichkhun hissed at Wooyoung’s heat. Wooyoung moved his hips up, as Nichkhun holding on his waist and watching those perfect globes in front of his eyes swallowed his cock completely, the scenes is perfect. Nichkhun moaned as Wooyoung moved his hips,
“Khun, faster.” And Nichkhun pulled his butt off the bed and rammed hard to Wooyoung and made the small boy whimpering and repeating Nichkhun’s name over and over. Nichkhun stopped as he pushed Wooyoung to his chest, and slammed his cock again inside Wooyoung. Wooyoung threw his head back as Nichkhun found his heavenly spot. And again, Wooyoung was begging to get pounded hard and fast just before the small boy released his cum to the bed sheet and his lover released it to his ass. Wooyoung reached for Nichkhun’s hand and kissed it as he whispered, “I love you too.” Nichkhun smiled, because he hasn’t come down from the cloud 9 but Wooyoung already send him far on top of the cloud 9.
--
“Did you hear them?” Chansung asked to his naked boyfriend beside him. Junho laughed as he nodded. Junho placed small circles to Chansung’s naked chest.
“I thought you are telling them about us. About our relationship.”
“I know, but seeing them just before, I was a bit sorry for them.” Junho smiled,
“And you changed their mind.”
“It’s good, huh?”
“Of course it was good, but they probably going to have sex more often.”
“So do we.” Chansung smirked just as before Junsu sat in top of him,
“And knowing how good my boyfriend is, for doing his job as a matchmaker, I have present.” Chansung smirked,
“What is that present?” Junho smiled as slide his hand up and down to Chansung’s cock and when it was hard, Junho pushed himself down. Making the maknae gasped at the sudden heat. When Chansung about to move his hips, Junho slapped his hand,
“Stop. I’m the one who move.” Junho grabbed his own cock and pumping it as his waist jumping up and down to Chansung’s cock and his other hand holding on to Chansung’s thigh. Chansung eyes glued to the porn scene in front of him. Watching Junho’s face twisted in pleasure as his mouth screaming his name, Chansung couldn’t hold back and cum inside Junho as his boyfriend released his cum to Chansung’s stomach.
“God damn it I love you Chansung.” Junho said before he collapsed in Chansung’s chest while the tall boy only laughed and whispered, “I love you too, Junho.”
--
We were at the table, I was watching at the way Junsu taking care of Wooyoung, sometimes I wondered why none of me and Nichkhun jealous over it, probably because we knew they were just likes mother and son. We were talking about how to cover our relationship, so that JYP wouldn’t find out, since he banned us dating girls, I really could imagine what he was going to do if he finds out we are dating to each other. Suddenly the bell was ringing, Chansung immediately make his way to the intercom and he pout when he knew our guest.
“Who is it?”
“Minjae hyung.” I walked my way to the intercom and asked,
“What hyung??”
“What do you mean, ‘what hyung’?” Minjae asked, “Open the door.” I stared at the 5 pairs of eyes that staring at me,
“Its our day off, hyung.” I answered,
“Oh come on!! Lets play outside.” I looked at Junsu and he smiled at me then my attention was back to Minjae hyung.
“Sorry, hyung. Just for today, let us rest. We need more sleep. We will play with you later.” I said as Minjae hyung yelled outside our villa. I smiled wide to them as I made my way to Junsu and pushed him to our room while the other, I guess they were following, to their own room of course, with their much owned partner. I pushed Junsu to the bed as I made my way to slide my jeans. I remembered back how this was started as Junsu released himself from his clothes. Me, Nichkhun, Wooyoung, Chansung, and Junho, we used to be lonely desperate boys who were on the highest rank in life but had done nothing to release our sexual frustration except jerking off.
Yeah, we are that desperate. But now, Nichkhun had Wooyoung, Chansung owned Junho and Junsu’s with me, who said we need girls.
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Taecyeon/Junsu, Nichkhun/Wooyoung, Chansung/Junho
Summary: Nichkhun had Wooyoung, Chansung owned Junho and Junsu’s with Taecyeon, who said they need girls?
A/N: Please excuse all the failed grammar and everything. *bows* I hope you all could enjoy it. Thank you!!!
We didn't date girls, we are not allowed to date one until 2PM were on their retirement day probably. JYP didn't allow us to have any close relationship to other girls, whether they were an idol or just ordinary girl. And that statement quite stressing me out, it’s been a very long time since the last time I touched/groped/gripped something called boobs. JYP thought the scandal we had with Jay Park was enough, and he didn't really want to create another one. I mean, screw him. Right now, Jay could date any girl he want while us? We stuck here in this new villa, jerking off.
I was jerking off. I said 'was' because, I remember the first time Junsu offered his body to me, not literally, its just a small talk that actually lead us to that, you know, what other people called as friends for benefit, sex buddy, no strings attached relation, yeah, you name it. It was started couple of months ago, when I confessed to Junsu about how lonely I am and how our new single Hands Up released the wild side of me. I remembered Junsu asked me, "You jerked off?" And I answered, "Yeah. So does everybody." Junsu chuckled and I lightly punched him in his shoulder, "You lonely?" He asked again and I'm like, "Yeah. What's the point of me telling you this? Of course I'm lonely." Junsu only smiled at me then patted my back, "I can help you."
"Help me what?"
"Jerk off?" I seriously had no idea that's what he was talking about,
"Junsu, you gay??" He shook his head and I remembered that was the day I hanged my mouth wide open for that long,
"No. We are both desperate. We can't create another scandal. I mean, we know each other, we are friends, and friends helping each other." I probably gave him my confused look, so then he said,
"You know what, let's try it once. If you don't like it, well, go ahead find a prostitute. They will solve your problem." I was pretty sure that I really considering Junsu's offer. I mean, I'm no virgin, I know how pussy felt in my cock, but a tight ass? I don't know, man.
"You're not thinking about fucking aren't you, Taec??" I was silenced,
"I'm not agree to have sex with you. Not yet, but as our first step, I guess jerking you off is enough." And those words reacted something in my head and of course, my cock, as I pulled Junsu's hand and brought him to my room. Unbuckled my belt, slide off both my pants and boxer as Junsu down on his knees and in a seconds, I had my orgasm. Yeah, lame, because I'm that horny and Junsu, I never thought he was so skillful with his tongue. Don't worry, with me cumming to Junsu's mouth was a bit turn on, I got hard again after it.
Weeks passed and I remembered clearly the first time I penetrated him. That day we finally agree to do more than make out and jerked off. And that was sex. To be honest, had sex with Junsu probably the best thing that I ever had in my life. It’s different when I'm doing it with him, because the way Junsu's reacted at it was so different to the usual Junsu you saw every day, the manly Junsu. That's a huge turn on as I remembered I never heard Junsu moaned my name out loud or screamed my name bazillion times while he panting beneath me. Never.
Nichkhun was always been a great bestfriend, so I don't mind telling him what had happened between me and Junsu. But surprisingly, he only laughed and said,
"I already done that with Wooyoung. Since, I don't know couple of months ago." And I'm doomed. Chansung who was eavesdropping before also said,
"Urm...me too. I’m with Junho." I just rolled my eyes and that made me say, "Oh hey. We are the 'TOP' gang."
That night both of them telling me about how the first time they started those sex buddy things. Nichkhun happened because he confessed to the small boy how horny he was with Victoria, but remembering their agreement with JYP and the other part, which is Victoria and her agency, Nichkhun had to restrain himself. But at that moment on, there was Wooyoung's offer; an offer to help Nichkhun with his lust and yes, just like me and Junsu, the relationship between them grew, to sex.
"Then what about you?" I asked Chansung. The maknae seemed to think about the answer, but then he smiled,
"It just happened."
"What do you mean 'it just happened'?" I asked,
"Yeah. It just happened, no heartbroken story, no offer, its just happened."
"What? What about all your ex?"
"What ex?"
"I thought you had problem with one of them."
"Oh that..~"
"Yeah, that."
"No, Junho already took care of it."
"Ahh..."
"So you guys just happened? Just like that? Staring at each other and had sex?"
"Urm..no. Yes, we do stared at each other, and then we kissed, then.."
"Stop." Yeah, maknae, that's so typical, and little bit naïve. I remembered three of us were stood there, staring at each other. Thinking about what are we going to do next, while Chansung decided him still going to continue that kind of relationship with Junho. Sometimes I was so confused with Chansung, I mean, how come he easily decided what he want with Junho? I looked at the way Nichkhun staring at me, while I know our minds were connected to each other, and Nichkhun's mind told me, "Love?"
I only shrugged but then the Thai prince looked at me again, I'm telling you, he doesn’t need to say anything, it was his eyebrows that talking to me, "Continue what we doing?"
I asked a bit loudly, "What?"
"Sex buddy." I only shrugged while the maknae shook his head while smirking.
"Wipe that smile off your face." Nichkhun said as he pushed Chansung aside.
Since then, we decided to continue what we doing to our partner. Every time we finished our schedule, every time we had free time, you will hear grunted from Chansung's room, screamed from Nichkhun's room and moaned from my room. Yes, that would be the moment when me, Nichkhun, and Chansung fucking our partners. Well, an hour later, we sometimes changed places, Chansung and Junho in the kitchen, Nichkhun and Wooyoung in front of the tv, me and Junsu at the bathroom floor. I swear to God, that the day when we had our villa for our own and when we had free time, it would the time we had wild sex. With our own partner of course, we probably changed places, but not with changing partner.
--
I was staring at my partner; he lay down on his stomach, naked beside me as he playing my iPhone. I run my fingers to his back, feeling it so soft under my touch. I slowly kiss his back making my lips down to his waist. Junsu moaned before he giggled.
"I'm tired. You had worn me out." I was smiling at his reaction because it was true, I worn him out. I can't remember how many times I came inside him, I lost track. But yeah, we just had this wild sex for the thousands times. I slapped his butt and laughed then I wore back my tee and sweatpants. I sat up at the edge of the bed; Junsu turned his head towards me then caressing his hand to my stomach.
"Where are you going? I thought we want to sleep naked." I smirked. Damn that naughty voice, never failed to turn me on.
"Wait for awhile. I need to smoke." He nodded, "Don't take too long."
"I know. Don't sleep without me, okay?" I said as I made my way to the door,
"Yeah. Like I could do that without you." He yelled just before I closed the door.
I pulled out my cigarette. Yes, no one knew about my habit in smoking except my other member. I mean, yeah, I know we are not allowed to smoking, but heck, I'm a grown up male, I need smoking just as much I need sex. Did I say grown up male before? Yes. Grown up because I know when, where, and how much I can do smoke. And believe me, smoking after having a very hard wild sex was heaven. I was glad I had partner who loved me best in my cigar's scent and not being all whiny and wanting me to stop smoking. Junsu, he never demanded, as long as I know how to maintain it, and not excessive.
I slide the door to our villa's backyard then I sat to the bench there, I was inhaling the night's weather. I turned on my cigarette, slowly sucking on the cigarette, feeling it inside my lungs and I let it out slowly.
"Do you have another one?" I looked aside and Nichkhun sat beside me, it was pretty rare to see the Thai Prince asking for a cigarette. This was Nichkhun. Buck. Horvejkul.
"What's going on?" I asked as I offered him the cigarettes. Nichkhun sighed, inhaling his cigarette a little bit deeper,
"How's Junsu hyung?"
"In my room. All worn out. How's Wooyoung?"
"As usual. Rest." Me and Nichkhun then laughed,
"Damn, what have we done to them?" And I remembered both of us sighing after it.
"Do you think I'm doing the right thing, Taec?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, I looked at Wooyoung and damn. He's so beautiful. You know."
“No, I don’t.”
“I mean, everything that Wooyoung does was so amazing. I…” He sighed,
"Somehow you want it more?"
"I don't know, I mean, don’t you think is it weird that I am the one who want to know where our relationship may end up. Is it going to be a lover? Or friends for benefit forever?"
"Everything is up to you, man."
"I know, but,"
"You afraid if he is going to turn you down." We both looked back and saw Chansung already made his way toward us,
"Well, that's the second reason." Nichkhun sighed, "I was confused. You know, I had this jealousy over Wooyoung when all those idol girls somehow made their way to Wooyoung, even Sulli. But... I don't know. I once said to him I liked Victoria but then he said casually, ‘Oh okay. Used me as your sex toy then, its not like I owned your heart or anything.’"
“Really? Wooyoung became that blunt??” I asked,
“I know right? And it was actually breaking my heart when I heard him said that.”
“Why?” the maknae asked,
“He wasn’t sex toy, you know. I mean, do you ever worry about your sex doll?” Both I and Chansung shook our head, “That’s what I’m talking about. I never thought of him as a total sex partner. He is Wooyoung. Jang Wooyoung. And the way he said that about himself was making me sad.”
"What about you, Taec hyung?" the maknae asked,
Now it was my turned to sigh, “To be honest, I hurt Junsu.” I continued, “In every time, every time we had sex, I know he enjoyed it, but then I saw that smiled and tears forming at the same time. Each time I asked ‘what’s going on?’ he only smiled and pulled me to his embrace." I was silenced; hurt piercing to my heart when I remembered Junsu’s face perfectly in that moment, “He wanted me. He wanted something more than just a sex partner. He doesn’t have to say it, I just knew. And in each time the rumor over me and other girls was on the surface, he had that same smiled.”
“And that smiled breaking your heart.” I looked at Nichkhun and nodded,
“Hyung..”,
“Junsu, he had me completely." I could sense 2 pairs of eyes were staring at me completely, “And I can’t keep make him sad, you know.”
“Seemed like we want to let go, but we don’t want to. We couldn’t.” I looked to Nichkhun again,
“God, Khun. What are you? Me?” Nichkhun just silenced.
But then Chansung chuckled.
"Jesus. This was so depressing!!!” He yelled, “Why don't you guys just say it to them??"
"What??" Nichkhun asked,
"What if..." I said,
"I place my bet. I bet both of Junsu and Wooyoung were in love with both of you."
"How do you know that?"
"Come on, man. You don't need to be so fucking smart to know it." Chansung laughed,
"What Junsu and Wooyoung need is both of you to make a first start. To make fucking boundaries, to fucking explain, to fucking CONFESS." Chansung said a little bit louder, while I remembered me and Nichkhun blinked at the way he cursed.
“Cha-Chan-Chans…”
"Why is it so fucking hard for you guys to do it??” Oh yeah, he motion the ‘Y U No’ looked, all frustrated. Great one, Chansung. Bravo. “Yeah, JYP banned us for dating any girls, but not with boys. So, why don't we just fucking enjoy it now, took advantage on it. Because you know, we finally had someone we can chat to at night, we can cuddle with, we can kiss, we can fuck or whatever. We finally had someone who willing to love us just as the same as what we did to them. I don't give a fuck if that was male, as long as he is my oasis." Chansung said frustrated like some kind of sales man.
“Don't you guys realized what you two did is more than just a sex buddy? I'm watching you guys, I’m no fucking blind. There is no sex buddy in this world who liked to cuddle, especially with the clothes on. Taecyeon hyung, you care a lot about Junsu hyung, more than you care about 4 of us. You fucking worried when Junsu hyung came back late at night, you couldn't sleep when you wait for Junsu's result on Immortal Song. Hyung, you even made Junsu fucking breakfast!! You even did this pillow talk after you had sex. You think I didn't hear any of it?? I’m no fucking deaf!!!” I blinked, Chansung’s words were hit me, like I was getting knocked off, by my grand mother. Chansung sighed then he turned his head to face Nichkhun, “And Khun hyung, did you ever remember how many times you fucking told Wooyoung hyung to at least eat something? You didn't remember, but I fucking counted, you said it almost fucking fifth times a day. Imagine if you multiply that to 30? And all of your pictures hyung.” Chansung motion as he opened his arms wide, “Your photography result, was all Jang Wooyoung, yeah, you maybe married to Vic but heck, I never find her picture in your personal camera, except in Minjae’s because I bet he was into Victoria, but the point is, have you take a look at to your photoshop? Photo that you edited? Or to your photo album on your ipad? To your DSLR? Toycam? Lomo? Everything is Jang Wooyoung. And Khun hyung, I probably fucking stupid, but I'm not fucking blind, all those caresses, touches, you did to Wooyoung, was because you need it. And I know you couldn't stand a day without it.” Chansung finally stopped, and then he stared to both of us,
“Come on, man. Be stupid like me, be blunt like me. It all there, the answered of ya'll miseries.” Now Chansung more sounded like desperate guy, “There is no harm to be strongly attached to your partner. There is no harm to be faithful. And definitely there is no harm to tell them the truth.” Chansung sighed as he looked down while I and Nichkhun were sat there, speechless.
“I’m leaving.” Chansung said as he walked inside the house. I was staring at Nichkhun and Nichkhun staring at me back,
“What the fuck was that??” Nichkhun asked and both of us laughed so hard until I remembered I was holding my stomach. Minutes laughing and we stopped, silenced, because we actually thinking what Chansung has just said.
“So…” Nichkhun started, “Relationship. With Jang Wooyoung.” He silenced, “That’s not bad.” He then looked at me. I immediately stood up,
“I need to talk to Junsu.” Nichkhun already made his way to the back door,
“Me too. Afraid Wooyoung might fall asleep.” He yelled and I followed behind.
--
Junsu was wearing his tee and pressing his back to the board when I came in, still with my iPhone in his hand. I sat at the edge of the bed, watching him as he yelled because of his stupidity in playing angry birds.
“Ah. Yoona just give you a message.” He threw my phone at me and yes with that heartbreaking smiled, “She asked when will be the time for you both to meet.” I just silenced, Junsu sighed as he laid his body on his side, facing the wall, “Sorry for reading it. I just happened to read.” I threw my phone somewhere, not even checked on it. There is something more important to do.
“Junsu…”
“Hmm….”
“Junsu, look at me.”
“No.” I sighed desperately, because I need to see his face. But probably what I don’t realize, Junsu was crying and trying his best to cover it.
“Junsu, its okay if you don’t want to look at me. But just listen, okay?” Taecyeon received silenced from Junsu. Taecyeon looked to the body in front of him, to that lonely back.
“I’m sorry.” I said but I immediately put other words after it, don’t want him to misunderstood, “I’m sorry for hurting you all these times. It’s just a stupidity of mine, for knowing what you want and took advantage of it without even caring your feeling.” There’s still silenced coming from Junsu. I was holding on my knees,
“I love you, Kim Junsu.” And those sacred words made Junsu turned around looked at me with those beautiful and confused dark orbs.
“W-what?” His eyes were all swollen and red. I crawled, making my way towards him and pulled him to my embrace.
“You better listen to it, because I’m going to say it again, slower.” I cleared my throat as Junsu looked at me from down,
“I love you, Kim Junsu.” I said slowly as Junsu eyes blinked. But then he pushed me away. Okay, not the exact reaction I want to see.
“You love me?” I nodded, “How come????” I sighed, “Do I really need to explain? Because I don’t know. I just love you.” I said and his mouth hanged wide open. I pulled his hands and locked it with my fingers.
“Junsu, I just, when people asked me about you, I don't want to just answer, ‘Oh he is the guy that I fuck occasionally.’ I want to be more than this. More than sex.” Junsu had taken a back at my answer.
“Did you realize what you just asked for Taec?” He asked and I nodded, “Are you sure? Because once I caught you, I'm not going to let you go. Do you realize with the consequences?” I smiled at him and pushed him to his back, definitely devouring his lips.
“I am forever your prisoner. Just throw the key away.” We kissed for like minutes, playing my tongue with him, and I found Junsu’s hands travel to my butt and gripped it. I stopped, “Yah, why are you gripping my butt? I thought you are tired.” Junsu smirked, “I blamed your confession, now I’m all horny. Beside, you smell cigarettes and smell like a bad boy.” I laughed at what my partner, wait, not partner, my lover has just said as he making his way to slide off both of my tees and sweat pants. While me, damn, I don’t need to slide off anything since Junsu didn’t wear anything underneath and he already threw his tee away. Damn, I was so horny. Our harden cock was touching before I grabbed a lube then spread it in my cock, without stretching him; I pushed my cock inside him. Junsu moaned hard, and I remembered the sound of my skin slapping against his skin was turning me on completely, and I pounded my cock inside him mercilessly. Junsu screamed my name loud as I found his spot, and begging me to go harder and faster and fuck yeah, I came inside him. Junsu was whispering my name as I ride my orgasm, milking him inside until the last drop. I caressed his stomach where his own cum stain was still there, spread it away, then my hand traveled back to his cock, caressed it and hear him moaned again. My lover pulled my head closer and savoring his lips to mine and I could hear him clearly after it,
“I love you too, Ok Taecyeon.” And nothing could beat the feeling when the one you love, loving you back.
--
Nichkhun opened the door to his room slowly, peeking that maybe Wooyoung already asleep, but instead he found the small boy were playing on his iPad. Nichkhun smiled to the other boy, as he sat beside him. Nichkhun silenced, waiting for the other boy to pay attention to his presence. Nichkhun was just staring at him.
“What’s with the staring?” Wooyoung asked nonchalantly as he stirred Nichkhun’s iPad to the left, then to the right.
“Wooyoung…”
“Hmmm…” the sound of car engine roaring from Nichkhun’s iPad,
“Woo….”
“What?” Nichkhun a bit frustrated by Wooyoung’s passivity, “Can you please turned that down??”
“Please? I’m begging?” Nichkhun begged as Wooyoung paused his game and put his attention to the guy that sat next to him,
“What?” Nichkhun sighed, but then he started,
“Wooyoung, what are we?” Wooyoung’s eye brows furrowed, definitely confused with the question, “What do you mean ‘what are we’?” Wooyoung silenced, “I thought the word ‘we’ only happened between you and Vic.”
“Wooyoung…”
“No really, I seriously had no idea why on earth you asked that question to me.”
“Woo…” Wooyoung sighed,
“You want to know what we are.” Wooyoung held on Nichkhun’s hand tight, “We are nothing. I am just the guy that you fuck occasionally.” What Wooyoung just said triggered something inside Nichkhun as the other boy about to stand up from the bed, but Nichkhun pulled him back to the bed and threw him harsh as he was on top of Wooyoung.
“Khun!! What the hell? I need to go to bathroom.”
“What for?”
“Taking a goddamn leak. What else?”
“Really? Not crying?” Nichkhun whispered right in Wooyoung’s ears. Wooyoung turned his head aside, blushing as he ignoring Nichkhun.
“Just let me go.” Wooyoung said,
“Woo…” Wooyoung turned his head and glared at Nichkhun,
“Nichkhun. Not. Now.” Nichkhun taken a back at the eyes that staring at him, he looked closely to the eyes, and found himself there. Nichkhun smiled.
“Yah, Jang Wooyoung.”
“What?” Wooyoung spat.
“I love you.” Nichkhun answered as he sat up, putting Wooyoung’s waist between his knees and released Wooyoung. Wooyoung eyes widen at it.
“You’re not just a guy that I fucked occasionally. You are more than that, Jang Wooyoung.” Nichkhun cupped Wooyoung’s face as the small boy sat, facing Nichkhun.
“Not even a substitute?”
“If I want a substitution, you know there are a lot of women out there waiting for me.” Nichkhun hugged Wooyoung as Wooyoung buried himself in Nichkhun.
“Really? What about Vic?” Nichkhun smiled,
“I haven’t thinking about her these past of months. I considering her as a great friends, that’s it. Thanks to you.” Wooyoung finally gripped Nichkhun’s fabric as Nichkhun moved, pressing his body closer to Wooyoung.
“What took you so long to say that? You know I’ve been waiting.” Wooyoung whispered, wiping his tear drops to Nichkhun’s clothes.
“I know. I know. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” Nichkhun placed kisses to Wooyoung’s forehead, cheeks, nose, and eyes and to his lips. Then Nichkhun pressed his forehead to Wooyoung’s.
“So, are we lover right now?” Wooyoung asked innocently,
“Of course.” Nichkhun kissed Wooyoung as Wooyoung pulled the Thai male on top of him. Lust already filled their kisses and all of sudden Wooyoung stopped. He pushed Nichkhun aside and kissed him passionately.
“You horny, Khun?” Nichkhun smirked,
“I always horny, baby.” Wooyoung bent down and reached Nichkhun’s ears as he whispered, “Good. Because I want to ride you.” No need a second for both Wooyoung and Nichkhun to be naked as they kept grinding their harden cock. Wooyoung turned around, as his back now facing Nichkhun’s chest, Nichkhun laid down as he watched Wooyoung slowly down on top of his cock and Nichkhun hissed at Wooyoung’s heat. Wooyoung moved his hips up, as Nichkhun holding on his waist and watching those perfect globes in front of his eyes swallowed his cock completely, the scenes is perfect. Nichkhun moaned as Wooyoung moved his hips,
“Khun, faster.” And Nichkhun pulled his butt off the bed and rammed hard to Wooyoung and made the small boy whimpering and repeating Nichkhun’s name over and over. Nichkhun stopped as he pushed Wooyoung to his chest, and slammed his cock again inside Wooyoung. Wooyoung threw his head back as Nichkhun found his heavenly spot. And again, Wooyoung was begging to get pounded hard and fast just before the small boy released his cum to the bed sheet and his lover released it to his ass. Wooyoung reached for Nichkhun’s hand and kissed it as he whispered, “I love you too.” Nichkhun smiled, because he hasn’t come down from the cloud 9 but Wooyoung already send him far on top of the cloud 9.
--
“Did you hear them?” Chansung asked to his naked boyfriend beside him. Junho laughed as he nodded. Junho placed small circles to Chansung’s naked chest.
“I thought you are telling them about us. About our relationship.”
“I know, but seeing them just before, I was a bit sorry for them.” Junho smiled,
“And you changed their mind.”
“It’s good, huh?”
“Of course it was good, but they probably going to have sex more often.”
“So do we.” Chansung smirked just as before Junsu sat in top of him,
“And knowing how good my boyfriend is, for doing his job as a matchmaker, I have present.” Chansung smirked,
“What is that present?” Junho smiled as slide his hand up and down to Chansung’s cock and when it was hard, Junho pushed himself down. Making the maknae gasped at the sudden heat. When Chansung about to move his hips, Junho slapped his hand,
“Stop. I’m the one who move.” Junho grabbed his own cock and pumping it as his waist jumping up and down to Chansung’s cock and his other hand holding on to Chansung’s thigh. Chansung eyes glued to the porn scene in front of him. Watching Junho’s face twisted in pleasure as his mouth screaming his name, Chansung couldn’t hold back and cum inside Junho as his boyfriend released his cum to Chansung’s stomach.
“God damn it I love you Chansung.” Junho said before he collapsed in Chansung’s chest while the tall boy only laughed and whispered, “I love you too, Junho.”
--
We were at the table, I was watching at the way Junsu taking care of Wooyoung, sometimes I wondered why none of me and Nichkhun jealous over it, probably because we knew they were just likes mother and son. We were talking about how to cover our relationship, so that JYP wouldn’t find out, since he banned us dating girls, I really could imagine what he was going to do if he finds out we are dating to each other. Suddenly the bell was ringing, Chansung immediately make his way to the intercom and he pout when he knew our guest.
“Who is it?”
“Minjae hyung.” I walked my way to the intercom and asked,
“What hyung??”
“What do you mean, ‘what hyung’?” Minjae asked, “Open the door.” I stared at the 5 pairs of eyes that staring at me,
“Its our day off, hyung.” I answered,
“Oh come on!! Lets play outside.” I looked at Junsu and he smiled at me then my attention was back to Minjae hyung.
“Sorry, hyung. Just for today, let us rest. We need more sleep. We will play with you later.” I said as Minjae hyung yelled outside our villa. I smiled wide to them as I made my way to Junsu and pushed him to our room while the other, I guess they were following, to their own room of course, with their much owned partner. I pushed Junsu to the bed as I made my way to slide my jeans. I remembered back how this was started as Junsu released himself from his clothes. Me, Nichkhun, Wooyoung, Chansung, and Junho, we used to be lonely desperate boys who were on the highest rank in life but had done nothing to release our sexual frustration except jerking off.
Yeah, we are that desperate. But now, Nichkhun had Wooyoung, Chansung owned Junho and Junsu’s with me, who said we need girls.