Reading Your Name in My Pages 2
Title: Reading your name in my pages (Oneshot)
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Taecyeon/Junsu
Summary: Two people with their own flaw, fall in love to each other.
A/N: Please excuse all the failed grammar and everything. *bows* I hope you all could enjoy it. Thank you and i love you!!
....Continuation
Taecyeon pacing around the waiting room, waiting as doctor said before that Junsu had overdose by his own insomnia medicine and now doctors are doing gastric irrigation, pumping his stomach to cleaning out the contents of his stomach.
"Insomnia?" Taecyeon thought, "Since when?" Then it hit him, Taecyeon wishing he can watch his boyfriend sleeping, but since their first day of their relationship, which is 5 months ago, until now, Taecyeon wouldn't be able to watch Junsu sleeping and in morning, Junsu was always the first one who woke up.
"Mr. Ok Taecyeon?" Taecyeon turned around and his eyes meet a woman, probably in her mid 30's.
"You with Kim Junsu?" Taecyeon silenced but then he answered,
"Yes. I'm with Kim Junsu." She smiled,
"My name is Rebekah Kim. I'm Junsu's psychiatrist." She gave her hand, and Taecyeon hesitantly shook their hands,
“Psychiatrist?”
"So, finally I am meeting you. Junsu told me a lot about you." She sat in the bench, and Taecyeon followed,
"When?"
"Every time when he had his session." She smiled,
"I'm sorry, but I still don't get it. Doctor said he was overdose by his insomnia meds? What was that?"
"Junsu, he's been visiting me for at least 6 years now to cure his acute insomnia."
"Insomnia? 6 years? What happened?"
"I don't think you wanna know that from me. You better know that from him." She smiled apologetically, "His insomnia, they come and go, it all depend in Junsu’s psychological problem, well, the truth is, we used to meet like 4 days a week, but since couple of months ago, I am seeing that he's so much better since he met you. More lighter, happier, and more accepted about the fact that his body is different from anybody else." She sighed, "But these days, there is something that bothered him, I guess it was the same problem he also had 3 or 4 years ago. Like I said, when he’s down, the entire grudge that he used to forget, back to haunt him, he hasn’t told me which problem he had that triggered his dark past. He keeps telling me he wants to get sleep. He wants to dream. So, I guess that's the reason why he overdosed all those drugs." Bekah silenced, thinking about something probably missing,
"Doctor?" One of the nurses called her, "Kim Junsu already in his room." She nodded and staring at Taecyeon.
"Give me couple of minutes. I need to talk to Junsu, because as his psychiatrist, I need to give a statement to police. Police and hospital consider it as a suicide attempted, while I believe that’s not what he wanted, considering he is an insomniac." Taecyeon nodded as he also stood up and followed her.
Junsu's hospital room is a bit small, but it was still beautiful, since it had huge window and the room were filled by sunshine. Taecyeon stood silently at the door, trying to listen their conversation, since he was sure Junsu didn't realize he was there.
"Junsu..." Bekah's voice was heard, "What's going on? What happened?" Junsu only silenced,
"Are you trying to kill yourself?" Taecyeon’s heartbeat race at the question. Silenced were heard before Junsu answered with his raspy voice,
"No."
"Then what's going on Junsu?" Junsu turned his head from the window to the women he knew from 6 years.
"I just want to sleep." Junsu said after it, "I'm tired, Bekah." Junsu's voice was cracking, so does Taecyeon's heart, "I'm tired."
"Junsu..."
"I..." Junsu slowly answered, "I don't know, Bekah. I just want to sleep." Bekah sighed, but she then looked aside to Taecyeon. “I really wish you could tell me the reason why you had those bad dreams again. I mean, you are fine couple of months ago. What happened now?”
“I don’t know, Bek.” Bekah sighed,
"Someone is here. He's been waiting. And I need to make statement, so police wouldn’t ask much about you. Go have rest." Bekah grabbed her bag and walked near Junsu, then held his hand, "I'll be outside." Bekah went out the room and Taecyeon walked slowly to Junsu's bed as Junsu staring at him.
"Taec..." Taecyeon showed him his disappointed face, at first Junsu thought Taecyeon will leave him after seeing him this way, but instead, Taecyeon sat on the bed and hugged his boyfriend tight. Taecyeon hugging Junsu tight, just like there’s no tomorrow. Taecyeon caressed Junsu’s head as his other hand pressing lightly to Junsu’s back.
“What kind of boyfriend I am for not knowing this?” Taecyeon whispered, “I’m sorry Junsu.” Junsu eyes widen, why did he apologize? It should be me the one who apologize. Junsu thought as he keep listening to Taecyeon’s heartbeat,
“I’m sorry for leaving you all alone at night while you couldn’t be able to sleep.” Junsu’s tears forming, “Sorry for the lonely nights. I’m sorry.” Junsu gripped on Taecyeon’s uniform as he silently cried in Taecyeon’s chest.
“Ssshhh…I’m here. I’m here.” Taecyeon whispered as he kissed Junsu’s forehead to his cheeks, then to his lips.
“Just tell me everything, Junsu. I want to know everything, Junsu.” Junsu shook his head and Taecyeon only sighed then hugging Junsu again,
“It’s okay. I’ll be here to listen when you ready.” Taecyeon cupped Junsu’s face, wiping his tears, “Just don’t do this to me again, Junsu. You almost killed me. Just…” Taecyeon breathed out, “Just don’t do that, okay. Ever again.” Junsu nodded and back put his body in Taecyeon’s embrace.
Taecyeon felt sad, remembering how Junsu used to help him with his dyslexic problem and now Taecyeon felt helpless knowing his lover been suffered for so long and he just knew it now. Taecyeon wished inside his heart, if only he met Junsu 6 years ago, he surely going to protect Junsu with everything he had.
--
Taecyeon counted. It’s been 3 days Junsu spend his time in the hospital, and Taecyeon noticed how the older only had 4 hours sleep in those 3 days.
“Taec…Why are you awake?” Junsu asked as he laid his body in Taecyeon’s chest. Taecyeon only silenced, watching the mute television, hugging Junsu by his waist in the hospital bed.
“Why you not go to sleep?”
“I’ll sleep when you asleep.” Taecyeon answered sternly. Junsu touched his cheek but received no response from Taecyeon.
“Taec?” Junsu now looked at Taecyeon’s eyes,
“Junsu…”
“Hmm?”
“You know I want to try to help you, right?”
“Yeah.”
“But how can I help you if you can’t help yourself.”
“Taec, what do you mean?”
Taecyeon grabbed Junsu by his hand and pulled him, “You said you want to feel how it feels to sleep beside me. You said you want to go to dreamland with me. You said you want to know how it feels like to feel drowsy but then wake up from a sleep and feeling better afterward.” Junsu silenced, “And I want to see you sleep so soundly, Junsu. Soundly without all those nightmares that I don’t even know what it was.” Taecyeon continued, saying it so desperately, “I love you, Junsu and it is breaking my heart seeing you this way.”
Junsu looked down, “You have it all here. You have it in your head, the reason why you couldn’t sleep, and the reason why you had this depression. The reasons why you need to drink all those damn medicine just to get you to sleep.” Taecyeon tone changed,
“You ruined yourself.” Taecyeon released his hands off Junsu, now touching his face, stared deeply to Junsu’s eyes, “You don’t let Bekah to map your mind for at least 6 years, and that’s fine. But I am someone to you, you love me and I want to map your mind, to change what inside your mind, to know things that bothered you, to know what kind of bad dreams that you had, to know everything. I am no Bekah, I am not your psychiatrist. I am someone that you love and I deserve to know you. To know what’s on your mind, to help you carry the entire burden that you had, to not let you walk all alone in that path. So, please, let me help you, Junsu. Let me get inside your mind, your heart, anywhere. Please, let me.” Junsu only looked down and silenced. He then just lay on his side, with his back facing Taecyeon. Watching his boyfriend’s action, Taecyeon only sighed. Every night he spend at Junsu’s hospital bed, but that moment Taecyeon decide to go back home. He stood up, wearing his jacket. “I’m going home.” Junsu silenced, “I love you.” No good night kiss and Taecyeon just left Junsu there alone.
--
It was been 15 hours Junsu hasn’t received any news from Taecyeon. No phone call, not even messages. Since what Taecyeon has said last night, Junsu kept his eyes wide open. Junsu closed his eyes, thinking about what Taecyeon said earlier.
You have it in your head. Really? Junsu thought. Again, Junsu tried to recollect all the pieces together, it was hard at first. Finding the entire missing puzzle, somehow Junsu made both of his heart and his mind working together. His mind, following what his heart told, and where to go, and slowly it lead him to a path, where he stood up in the dark alley that lead him to the middle of the stage with people cheering in front of him. Junsu looked aside, and his eyes met a younger boy, singing his heart out. Then it changed, where Junsu now stood up at the front door with the little boy before,
“Don’t open the front door if there is stranger, okay? Mommy is on the back and your sister is up stairs.” And what happened after that is quite fast, the little boy forgot what his mom said and he opened the door for three stranger guys. Junsu’s eyes widen at the view, seeing the mid 40’s lady screamed the little boy’s name and told him to hide, the boy hide under the chair, then a girl walked down the stair also screamed and Junsu sobbed with what happened next, blood were scattered and both of the mother and daughter were lifeless on the floor.
--
Junsu gasped as he opened his eyes, tears already falling, his heart beat racing. Junsu stood up from his bed, slide off his hospital door with his trembling hands. All Junsu had in mind been Taecyeon. Junsu walked passing the nurse station, Junsu looked around, feeling like his mind were playing tricks on him, he saw everything were frozen, even Bekah and nurses. Junsu walked out the hospital and everything outside were that way, frozen, unmoving. Junsu thought it must be because he hasn’t had enough sleep and all of these are just his imagination. But Junsu continued to walk, until he reached his and Taecyeon’s apartment.
Taecyeon was packing up, he felt guilty today for leaving Junsu all alone, so he wanted to apologize and stay at the hospital. Taecyeon sighed, thinking about how he should help Junsu, because it seemed like pushing him like yesterday didn’t worked out at all. Taecyeon silenced as he heard a knock in the door. Taecyeon walked slowly to the door and his mouth gaped as he saw Junsu was standing in the door, trembling with his hospital’s pajamas.
“Junsu….” Taecyeon’s hands reached out but Junsu stepped back,
“Taec…” It’s weird, Junsu thought, how come Taecyeon didn’t freeze like anybody else?
“Junsu! What are you doing????” Taecyeon pulled Junsu inside the house and when Taecyeon about to pull him to his chest, Junsu stepped back again.
“Junsu…” Taecyeon’s heart broken seeing Junsu that way.
“Taec..”
“Yes, Junsu..”
“You want to listen to me, right?”
“Junsu. Yes, of course, yes.” Junsu silenced, only stared at Taecyeon.
“Taecyeon….”
“Yes, baby. Yes?”
“I killed both of my sister and my mother.” Taecyeon’s jaw clenched, “I let them in.” Junsu’s voice trembling, “I let those murderer got inside my house, I let them killed my mom and my sister. I opened the door for them.” Junsu breathed out while Taecyeon only silenced, “I killed them, Taecyeon.” Taecyeon immediately pulled Junsu to his embrace as Junsu let out his cry and helplessness. Taecyeon whispering all the comforting words, minutes standing there, Junsu finally calming down, he pulled himself from Taecyeon.
“Junsu?” Junsu walked limply to their bed room as Taecyeon followed behind him, “Junsu?”
Junsu opened the bedroom door and made his way to the bed. Junsu laid his body slowly on the bed, then he stared at Taecyeon who looked at him confused, but then Junsu stretched out his hands and Taecyeon welcoming that by hovering on top of Junsu.
“Baby?” Junsu kissed Taecyeon, deep and meaningful.
“I love you.” And seconds later Taecyeon found Junsu drifted off to deep slumber. Taecyeon couldn’t held back his smiled as that day was the first time ever in his life he saw someone looked so beautiful when they sleep.
--
“Oh my God, Taec!!! We have been searching for him. I can’t believe why all those nurses didn’t recognize Junsu was walked down out from hospital.” Bekah spat as Taecyeon let her in but then Taecyeon motioned Bekah to be quiet.
“Why are we whispering??” Bekah asked as Taecyeon smiled, “There’s someone who’s now sleeping.”
“Who?” Taecyeon lead Bekah to his room and Bekah gasped. Junsu mouth was hanged wide open as he let out a soft snored.
“It’s been 6 hours and he didn’t wake up at all.” Bekah walked to Junsu, and watching him sleeping, then she back to Taecyeon.
“How come??” Bekah followed Taecyeon to the couch,
“He came by last night. Walking all alone and he told me about his mother and sister’s death.” Bekah nodded, “I’m about to tell you that. Junsu was the witnessed of his own mother and sister’s death. They were murdered by robber. The scene it self was pretty awful.” Bekah sighed,
“And what the police said?” Taecyeon asked,
“Well, not much. Its just Junsu’s sister is the one who opened the door for them.” Taecyeon then realized something.
“No. Junsu is the one who opened the door.” Bekah eyes widen, “He told me last night. While trembling, he was the one who opened the door; he was the one who let them in.” Bekah silenced.
“I guess, he kept that all these times.” She stared at Taecyeon.
“He bears the guilt all alone. No wonder, especially Junsu’s dad was committed suicide after the accident. Leaving him with another guilt.” Bekah looked around and something reminded her, “Ah, Taec. I guess I know why Junsu’s depression sometimes come and go.”
“Why?”
“They haunted Junsu, when he’s happy.” Bekah smiled, “I think I missed this part in Junsu’s medical record, but his old psychiatrist wrote that when he is happy, he thought that it wouldn’t last longer. So, that is the thing that triggered his depression. Because he thought he doesn’t deserve to be happy while he was so happy with you.”
“What are we going to do right now?” Bekah looked aside,
“Junsu probably going to sleep for a long time sleep. But I guess you still need to wake him up, telling him to eat and took a bath.” Taecyeon nodded.
“I will take care of him, don’t worry.” Taecyeon answered.
“Okay, I will finish the hospital matter.” Bekah stood up and went out the house.
Taecyeon watching Junsu sleeping so soundly and waking him up when he need to eat and help Junsu to wash. They were already on the bed as Junsu laid his head in Taecyeon’s thigh, with Taecyeon caressed his head, they telling stories and being great boyfriend as he was, Taecyeon didn’t mention anything about what Junsu’s said earlier. It was enough for him and all he wanted to do now is taking care of Junsu. Minutes later, Junsu back drifted to sleep. Taecyeon stared at his boyfriend, kissing him in his lips and cheeks.
“Good night, Junsu.” Taecyeon said before he wrapped his body around Junsu and catch up Junsu in his dream.
--
Junsu woke up with a certain weight on him. He slowly opened his eyes, and blinked as he saw Taecyeon’s face was close to his and the taller boy’s arms still wrapping around him. Junsu smiled, so this is how it feel to wake up from sleep to the next person you loved, Junsu thought. Taecyeon mumbled his name and Junsu giggled. Junsu put his arms in Taecyeon’s shoulder as his hand caressing Taecyeon’s hair and his other hand caressing his perfect cheek bone. Taecyeon move a little, feeling somewhat calm by the touch. Junsu played Taecyeon’s ear and then move forward, kissing Taecyeon’s nose.
“Good morning.” Junsu whispered and Taecyeon opened his eyes, smiled with the way Junsu woke him up.
“Good morning, heavy sleeper.”
“Who do you like best, a heavy sleeper boyfriend or an insomniac boyfriend?” Junsu adjusted his head to Taecyeon’s chest and caressing small circle in the tall boy’s chest by his index finger.
“Well, actually, when it talking about sex, I like it better when you sober.” Taecyeon sighed, brought up Junsu’s hand to his lips, “You’ve no idea how hard it was to wake you up, while I’m horny as hell.” Taecyeon sighed and Junsu only giggled.
“So with me is just sex?”
“Oh come on. With you is everything. But, yeah.” Junsu playfully smacked Taecyeon’s chest. Junsu silenced,
“No, baby. I’m joking. Anytime you ready.” Taecyeon said breaking the silenced as Junsu nodded, “I need to let you adjust to your new behavior. We can step aside the sex. Okay?”
“Okay. It won’t be long. I swear.” Junsu said tried to comfort Taecyeon. Taecyeon smiled,
“I love you, Junsu. And we had something more than that.” Taecyeon sighed, “Damn, why should I bring that topic?” Junsu laughed then he stood up from his bed.
“Where are you going?” Taecyeon yawned before he asked, “Bath. I need to see Bekah.” Taecyeon titled his head aside.
“Junsu. You know exactly that wasn’t your fault. What other proves you need to know? You still a kid. How can you even find out between robber and who wasn’t.” Taecyeon sat up from his bed, walked his way to Junsu as the older boy already in the bathroom and sliding off his tees and pants. Junsu looked at Taecyeon’s worried look; he walked to his topless boyfriend and putting his arms around his boyfriend’s waist.
“And you deserved to be happy.” Junsu sighed,
“I was so afraid. I am afraid that you will vanish in a minute and everything is just a dream.” Taecyeon rubbed Junsu’s back and hugged him tight,
“I am real. Than this isn’t a dream. You have me, inside and out.”
“How’s your Judo?” Taecyeon rolled his eyes and gripped Junsu’s naked shoulder, staring at his naked boyfriend.
“I hate it when you changing the subject.” Junsu laughed as he turned around and walked to the tub. Taecyeon closed the bath curtain and sat at the closet.
“Come on, baby. I guess I was missing a lot of things.” Junsu said before he turned on the shower.
“Well, urmm….”
“What?”
“I won at the nationals.” Junsu’s eyes widen as he turned off the shower.
“What???” he opened the curtain, staring at his boyfriend, “You won at the nationals????????” Junsu’s mouth hanged wide,
“Where was I that moment???” Junsu seriously asked Taecyeon while the tall boy only laughed,
“What are you laughing at?? I’m serious. Where was i??”
“You want to know??”
“Yeah.” Junsu had this disbelieved face because he knew, winning at the Nationals was all Taecyeon ever wanted and Junsu couldn’t believe he missed it. Taecyeon smiled as he stood up and put the bathrobe around Junsu.
“You were asleep.” Junsu gasped, “What?? Why you didn’t wake me up?”
“I can’t. You need sleep. The time, it wasn’t right to wake you up.” Junsu eyes watery, Taecyeon immediately cupped his boyfriend’s face but Junsu turned and now he was the one who sat in the closet. Taecyeon squatted, touching Junsu’s waist as he looked closely to the elder’s face.
“Junsu, its no big deal. I won.” Junsu tears dropped then he was staring at Taecyeon, “It wasn’t big deal for you, but it was for me. I wanted to see you.” Junsu said as he wiped his eyes,
“You’ve been waiting for the nationals, and when the day was come, I am not even watching it.” Taecyeon hugged Junsu and slowly caressing his back.
“Make it up to me later.” Junsu somehow laughed at it, knowing the meaning behind his boyfriend’s words.
“Later?” Junsu questioned him, while the other only stared at him, he knew what he want inside his head, but he shook his head, remembering Junsu was on his healing process. “Yes. Later.” Junsu smirked, “Really? Because I’m planning to do it now.” Junsu whispered to Taecyeon ears and Taecyeon stared at his boyfriend, blinked.
“Ok. Now.” Junsu giggled before Taecyeon lifted him off the ground, bridal style and walked to their bed. Taecyeon threw Junsu to the bed then hovering above the small boy who’s his bath robe already opened and Taecyeon smirked as he staring at Junsu’s inviting hard cock. Junsu admitted, he missed the tall boy inside him so much, he missed all the caresses, he missed all of his kisses, Junsu missed everything and although he knew he will be all worn out after it, but it was worth it, because he was Taecyeon, the man he loved so much. Taecyeon traveled his lips slowly from Junsu’s neck to his collarbone, then to his nipple as his hands sliding up and down to Junsu’s naked cock. Junsu moaned, pulling Taecyeon’s face and captured his lips. Junsu hands caressed Taecyeon hard abs and walked his way to the clothed cock, gripped it and slowly pulled down the tall boy’s sweat pants.
“Taec…” Junsu called between his moaned, and Taecyeon made his way to penetrated Junsu. It has been a very long time and both Taecyeon and Junsu couldn’t wait to feel it. Taecyeon aimed his cock to Junsu’s entrance, and Junsu whined as the tall boy’s cock making his way inside slowly. “Is it in?” Junsu asked between his whimpered,
“Not yet.” Taecyeon answered, “W-what?” Junsu moaned as Taecyeon pushing his cock slowly inside the tight heat,
“Oh God. Are you getting bigger or what?” Junsu panted as he tried to look down then his eyes caught Taecyeon’s smug face as the tall boy’s smirk, “I am getting bigger.” Junsu gasped and threw his head back when Taecyeon pushed his cock all the way in, since the tall boy couldn’t wait to pound hard to Junsu. It was so hot and tight when Taecyeon finally had his cock inside Junsu’s inner wall. And the feeling of being filled by Taecyeon’s thick cock was heaven for Junsu.
“Can I move?” Taecyeon asked still showing his smirked and feeling proud of himself as he stared at Junsu’s reaction over his cock,
“Wait. What are you doing to your cock?” Junsu asked, Taecyeon shrugged,
“Its secret.” He answered before he moved his hips as his arms lifted Junsu’s legs wider,
“Damn. You are so tight.” Junsu smiled, “Every thing seemed like the first time.” Taecyeon continued between his panted, but then he stopped and looked down to his whimpering boyfriend, “Its just, I am now getting bigger.” Junsu playfully smacked Taecyeon’s arm before Taecyeon continued doing his job. Taecyeon slide off, pounded to a different angle and Junsu screamed his name, he was begging for Taecyeon to do it hard and fast. Junsu thought he would get his orgasm together with Taecyeon, but instead, the tall boy, kept pounding hard inside him, made Junsu’s cock harden over and over again and reached his orgasm over and over again. Taecyeon looked around to his messy bed, he already came inside Junsu couple of times but Junsu keep begging for more. Finally both of them decided to stop, since Taecyeon knew him and Junsu need sometime to breathe. Taecyeon pulled out from Junsu then his cum sliding down from Junsu’s abused ass. Both of them panted.
“Oh Taec.” Junsu said between his panted as he touched his dry cum in his owned stomach then looked around, seeing his bed sheet on the ground.
“The bed is wet. You came a lot to the sheet before.” Junsu laughed at Taecyeon’s explanation,
“That’s your fault.” Junsu put his arm around Taecyeon’s waist and put his head on the tall boy’s chest.
“Damn. This is the best sex ever with you.” Junsu said before kissing Taecyeon’s lips.
“Well, two weeks without it. I was starving.” Taecyeon caressed Junsu’s back with his fingers, “And oh, I’ll clean up.”
“What? The room??”
“No. Your ass.” Taecyeon said before he made his way down to Junsu’s cock as Junsu gasped, feeling Taecyeon’s mouth around his softening cock and easily put it hard again. Junsu then moaned when he felt Taecyeon’s soft muscle in his entrance.
Damn, I need to tell Bekah that I’m gonna be late. Junsu thought before he gasped as he was penetrated again by Taecyeon’s hardened cock.
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“Wait. I thought our appointment were on 8 in the morning. And now,” Bekah looked at her watch, “Now is 3 in the afternoon.” Junsu smiled wide,
“Oh come on, its not like you never late before, Bek.” Bekah smiled awkwardly to the two guys in front of her. She then opened her note,
“How are you, Junsu?” Junsu looked at Taecyeon then to Bekah,
“I guess I am fine, Bek. I mean, at first i get sleepy so easily and could sleep for like 20 hours a day, but these days I’m having it around 8 to 9 hours a day.” Bekah stared at Taecyeon and Taecyeon answered the same as his boyfriend,
“Did he drink his meds, Taec?”
“Not everything. He’s having trouble with the yellow pills? I forgot the name. But every time he drank that med, Junsu became more sweaty and nervous. His heartbeats accelerate.” Bekah nodded and took the yellow pills from Taecyeon.
“You know, these pills are the one that supposed to help you to sleep. But I guess you don’t need it any longer, Junsu, because the pills showed different symptoms from your body.”
“Bekah, actually what happened to me?” Bekah sighed,
“It’s guilt. You used to feel guilty over your family’s accident but you keep it to yourself. You didn’t tell anyone about it like it was some kind of dark secret of yours. Although the truth is, that wasn’t your fault at all, Junsu. Whether you opened the door or not, you will still have your mother and sister killed.” Bekah silenced but then she continued, “You bear the guilt all alone, Kim Junsu. Without knowing it if that was true or not.” Junsu held on Taecyeon’s hand.
“I am so happy that you’re feeling so fine, Junsu. But there is couple of meds you need to drink and we still had couple of session to finish.” Junsu nodded, “And you can go back to school.” Junsu smiled.
“I miss school. So I can go to school tomorrow?” Bekah smiled, showing her white teeth, “Sure. You’ve been absence for long. I guess, it is okay for you to go to school, as long as you had Taecyeon with you.” Junsu smiled wide to the girl in front of him.
“I never thought it could be that easy Bek.”
“Well, because you had someone you trust next to you.” Bekah explained, “Even if you tell me everything, it doesn’t mean you will get your sleep back. It all depends to your comfort over people. And it seemed like, you are comfort with Taecyeon. You trust him.”
“That doesn’t mean I don’t trust you.”
“No. You trust me. But I can’t give you the love the way Taecyeon gave to you and all Taecyeon’s comfort.” Junsu nodded.
“I will see you tomorrow.” Bekah silenced,
“No, I will see you next week, Junsu.” She said before Junsu closed the door behind him.
Two of them walked outside the hospital, but then Junsu stopped.
“Taec.” Junsu looked to his lover, “Yes.”
“Let’s go see my family.” Taecyeon smiled and put his arms around Junsu’s shoulder.
“Let’s go. Let’s meet your family.”
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Junsu walked slowly to the empty hallway. His hand touching on the locker and he smiled. He couldn’t believe he missed school this much. Junsu just had done talk with the principal, he welcoming Junsu back to school after his long absence. Kids already in their class room when he finished including his lover, Taecyeon. Junsu staring at the board where his name used to be the number one but his name now down to 30th just because his long absence. Because he was no longer top 10 students, Junsu need to change his class. He wondered if Taecyeon knew about this or not, because this morning Taecyeon was in hurry, smiling all happy as he left Junsu behind. Junsu walked slowly to his new class. He stood in front of the door and he knocked. When he heard a voiced that telling him to get inside, Junsu opened the door and Taecyeon’s history teacher welcoming him.
“Ah. Welcome back, Kim Junsu. I bet you know my name as a history teacher but now I am your homeroom teacher.” He said as he motion Junsu to get inside. Junsu stood in the front, not really paying attention to the student inside,
“Okay. I guess you all know Kim Junsu. So, Junsu, just go to your seat. Next to Mr. Ok Taecyeon.”
Eh? Junsu turned back staring at his teacher and he winked. “He was right there at back near the window.” Junsu looked to the direction he motion and his eyes captured a tall well build male with extraordinary smiled waving at him. Junsu chuckled, he knew. Junsu made his way to Taecyeon without even breaking his stared to the tall boy. Taecyeon smiled so wide at him and Junsu blushed feeling like he wanted to whack off that greasy smiled. Junsu then sat next to Taecyeon as Taecyeon rested his head in his elbow and staring at Junsu. Junsu looked down blushing as he smiled. Soon as the student put their attention back to the teacher, Junsu then braved himself to look at his boyfriend,
“Why you didn’t tell me?” Junsu whispered, “It was surprised.” Taecyeon answered also whispering. Junsu then put his head back as he wanted to take a look at to his lover. Taecyeon were resting on his elbow, sun illuminated his face and his smiled. Junsu chuckled, “You pick a great spot.” Junsu’s eyes wandered, “We really sit in the back, corner, and near the window.”
“So I can do sin here with you.” Taecyeon back whispered.
“Yah!!” Junsu said but then he noticed Taecyeon’s hand writing in the desk, Junsu - Taecyeon.
“You named our desks???”
“Well, that’s the reason why I left early this morning.” Junsu smiled at his lover, he really wanted to kiss him there because his lover just made his heart thumped fast and all giddy inside. Taecyeon straighten up his body and reached Junsu’s hand under the table, holding it tight. Junsu blushed as he looked down.
“Don’t be number one. Be 30 forever.” Taecyeon whispered to Junsu’s ear as the small boy just smiled happily to Taecyeon.
“ah. I already prepared your book.” Taecyeon showed a book to Junsu and Junsu opened the book with his free hand and he gasped, seeing his name at the top of every page. Junsu opened the last page of the 369 pages and Taecyeon’s messy hand writing were there, Kim Junsu, I love you.
Junsu let out a small laugh. “I wrote that when you asleep at home.” Taecyeon pressed his lips closer to Junsu’s ear, “Because I miss you that much.” He looked at Junsu then he continued, “And I finally made reading improvement, I know how to differentiate between Junsu and Lunzu. Junsu is the one who love me and I don’t know who the hell Lunzu is.” Junsu playfully smacked Taecyeon’s thigh. Taecyeon smirked and pecked Junsu’s lips when everybody wouldn’t notice anything and again received pinched in his thigh by Junsu. Taecyeon mouthed hanged wide open feeling slightly hurt in his thigh.
“Ok ok. Let’s study.” Taecyeon said but still laid his arm around Junsu’s waist, moving Junsu’s body closed to him and paying attention to his teacher. Junsu only sighed, feeling somewhat being in the same class with Taecyeon will be a hell lot of trouble. Junsu stared at his lover, who’s now busy paying attention to the writing in the black board. Junsu looked around, feeling no one will notice, he looked to his boyfriend’s face that closed to his.
“I love you too.”Junsu whispered to the other’s ear before kissed his cheek.
“And I’ll be 30 forever if you wish for it.” Junsu said before he pay attention to the front and Taecyeon couldn’t help but staring at him and laid his head on the desk happily as now Junsu held on his hand tight.
There was another word under their names in their desks.
Junsu Taecyeon
Was an Insomniac Still a Dyslexic
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Taecyeon/Junsu
Summary: Two people with their own flaw, fall in love to each other.
A/N: Please excuse all the failed grammar and everything. *bows* I hope you all could enjoy it. Thank you and i love you!!
....Continuation
Taecyeon pacing around the waiting room, waiting as doctor said before that Junsu had overdose by his own insomnia medicine and now doctors are doing gastric irrigation, pumping his stomach to cleaning out the contents of his stomach.
"Insomnia?" Taecyeon thought, "Since when?" Then it hit him, Taecyeon wishing he can watch his boyfriend sleeping, but since their first day of their relationship, which is 5 months ago, until now, Taecyeon wouldn't be able to watch Junsu sleeping and in morning, Junsu was always the first one who woke up.
"Mr. Ok Taecyeon?" Taecyeon turned around and his eyes meet a woman, probably in her mid 30's.
"You with Kim Junsu?" Taecyeon silenced but then he answered,
"Yes. I'm with Kim Junsu." She smiled,
"My name is Rebekah Kim. I'm Junsu's psychiatrist." She gave her hand, and Taecyeon hesitantly shook their hands,
“Psychiatrist?”
"So, finally I am meeting you. Junsu told me a lot about you." She sat in the bench, and Taecyeon followed,
"When?"
"Every time when he had his session." She smiled,
"I'm sorry, but I still don't get it. Doctor said he was overdose by his insomnia meds? What was that?"
"Junsu, he's been visiting me for at least 6 years now to cure his acute insomnia."
"Insomnia? 6 years? What happened?"
"I don't think you wanna know that from me. You better know that from him." She smiled apologetically, "His insomnia, they come and go, it all depend in Junsu’s psychological problem, well, the truth is, we used to meet like 4 days a week, but since couple of months ago, I am seeing that he's so much better since he met you. More lighter, happier, and more accepted about the fact that his body is different from anybody else." She sighed, "But these days, there is something that bothered him, I guess it was the same problem he also had 3 or 4 years ago. Like I said, when he’s down, the entire grudge that he used to forget, back to haunt him, he hasn’t told me which problem he had that triggered his dark past. He keeps telling me he wants to get sleep. He wants to dream. So, I guess that's the reason why he overdosed all those drugs." Bekah silenced, thinking about something probably missing,
"Doctor?" One of the nurses called her, "Kim Junsu already in his room." She nodded and staring at Taecyeon.
"Give me couple of minutes. I need to talk to Junsu, because as his psychiatrist, I need to give a statement to police. Police and hospital consider it as a suicide attempted, while I believe that’s not what he wanted, considering he is an insomniac." Taecyeon nodded as he also stood up and followed her.
Junsu's hospital room is a bit small, but it was still beautiful, since it had huge window and the room were filled by sunshine. Taecyeon stood silently at the door, trying to listen their conversation, since he was sure Junsu didn't realize he was there.
"Junsu..." Bekah's voice was heard, "What's going on? What happened?" Junsu only silenced,
"Are you trying to kill yourself?" Taecyeon’s heartbeat race at the question. Silenced were heard before Junsu answered with his raspy voice,
"No."
"Then what's going on Junsu?" Junsu turned his head from the window to the women he knew from 6 years.
"I just want to sleep." Junsu said after it, "I'm tired, Bekah." Junsu's voice was cracking, so does Taecyeon's heart, "I'm tired."
"Junsu..."
"I..." Junsu slowly answered, "I don't know, Bekah. I just want to sleep." Bekah sighed, but she then looked aside to Taecyeon. “I really wish you could tell me the reason why you had those bad dreams again. I mean, you are fine couple of months ago. What happened now?”
“I don’t know, Bek.” Bekah sighed,
"Someone is here. He's been waiting. And I need to make statement, so police wouldn’t ask much about you. Go have rest." Bekah grabbed her bag and walked near Junsu, then held his hand, "I'll be outside." Bekah went out the room and Taecyeon walked slowly to Junsu's bed as Junsu staring at him.
"Taec..." Taecyeon showed him his disappointed face, at first Junsu thought Taecyeon will leave him after seeing him this way, but instead, Taecyeon sat on the bed and hugged his boyfriend tight. Taecyeon hugging Junsu tight, just like there’s no tomorrow. Taecyeon caressed Junsu’s head as his other hand pressing lightly to Junsu’s back.
“What kind of boyfriend I am for not knowing this?” Taecyeon whispered, “I’m sorry Junsu.” Junsu eyes widen, why did he apologize? It should be me the one who apologize. Junsu thought as he keep listening to Taecyeon’s heartbeat,
“I’m sorry for leaving you all alone at night while you couldn’t be able to sleep.” Junsu’s tears forming, “Sorry for the lonely nights. I’m sorry.” Junsu gripped on Taecyeon’s uniform as he silently cried in Taecyeon’s chest.
“Ssshhh…I’m here. I’m here.” Taecyeon whispered as he kissed Junsu’s forehead to his cheeks, then to his lips.
“Just tell me everything, Junsu. I want to know everything, Junsu.” Junsu shook his head and Taecyeon only sighed then hugging Junsu again,
“It’s okay. I’ll be here to listen when you ready.” Taecyeon cupped Junsu’s face, wiping his tears, “Just don’t do this to me again, Junsu. You almost killed me. Just…” Taecyeon breathed out, “Just don’t do that, okay. Ever again.” Junsu nodded and back put his body in Taecyeon’s embrace.
Taecyeon felt sad, remembering how Junsu used to help him with his dyslexic problem and now Taecyeon felt helpless knowing his lover been suffered for so long and he just knew it now. Taecyeon wished inside his heart, if only he met Junsu 6 years ago, he surely going to protect Junsu with everything he had.
--
Taecyeon counted. It’s been 3 days Junsu spend his time in the hospital, and Taecyeon noticed how the older only had 4 hours sleep in those 3 days.
“Taec…Why are you awake?” Junsu asked as he laid his body in Taecyeon’s chest. Taecyeon only silenced, watching the mute television, hugging Junsu by his waist in the hospital bed.
“Why you not go to sleep?”
“I’ll sleep when you asleep.” Taecyeon answered sternly. Junsu touched his cheek but received no response from Taecyeon.
“Taec?” Junsu now looked at Taecyeon’s eyes,
“Junsu…”
“Hmm?”
“You know I want to try to help you, right?”
“Yeah.”
“But how can I help you if you can’t help yourself.”
“Taec, what do you mean?”
Taecyeon grabbed Junsu by his hand and pulled him, “You said you want to feel how it feels to sleep beside me. You said you want to go to dreamland with me. You said you want to know how it feels like to feel drowsy but then wake up from a sleep and feeling better afterward.” Junsu silenced, “And I want to see you sleep so soundly, Junsu. Soundly without all those nightmares that I don’t even know what it was.” Taecyeon continued, saying it so desperately, “I love you, Junsu and it is breaking my heart seeing you this way.”
Junsu looked down, “You have it all here. You have it in your head, the reason why you couldn’t sleep, and the reason why you had this depression. The reasons why you need to drink all those damn medicine just to get you to sleep.” Taecyeon tone changed,
“You ruined yourself.” Taecyeon released his hands off Junsu, now touching his face, stared deeply to Junsu’s eyes, “You don’t let Bekah to map your mind for at least 6 years, and that’s fine. But I am someone to you, you love me and I want to map your mind, to change what inside your mind, to know things that bothered you, to know what kind of bad dreams that you had, to know everything. I am no Bekah, I am not your psychiatrist. I am someone that you love and I deserve to know you. To know what’s on your mind, to help you carry the entire burden that you had, to not let you walk all alone in that path. So, please, let me help you, Junsu. Let me get inside your mind, your heart, anywhere. Please, let me.” Junsu only looked down and silenced. He then just lay on his side, with his back facing Taecyeon. Watching his boyfriend’s action, Taecyeon only sighed. Every night he spend at Junsu’s hospital bed, but that moment Taecyeon decide to go back home. He stood up, wearing his jacket. “I’m going home.” Junsu silenced, “I love you.” No good night kiss and Taecyeon just left Junsu there alone.
--
It was been 15 hours Junsu hasn’t received any news from Taecyeon. No phone call, not even messages. Since what Taecyeon has said last night, Junsu kept his eyes wide open. Junsu closed his eyes, thinking about what Taecyeon said earlier.
You have it in your head. Really? Junsu thought. Again, Junsu tried to recollect all the pieces together, it was hard at first. Finding the entire missing puzzle, somehow Junsu made both of his heart and his mind working together. His mind, following what his heart told, and where to go, and slowly it lead him to a path, where he stood up in the dark alley that lead him to the middle of the stage with people cheering in front of him. Junsu looked aside, and his eyes met a younger boy, singing his heart out. Then it changed, where Junsu now stood up at the front door with the little boy before,
“Don’t open the front door if there is stranger, okay? Mommy is on the back and your sister is up stairs.” And what happened after that is quite fast, the little boy forgot what his mom said and he opened the door for three stranger guys. Junsu’s eyes widen at the view, seeing the mid 40’s lady screamed the little boy’s name and told him to hide, the boy hide under the chair, then a girl walked down the stair also screamed and Junsu sobbed with what happened next, blood were scattered and both of the mother and daughter were lifeless on the floor.
--
Junsu gasped as he opened his eyes, tears already falling, his heart beat racing. Junsu stood up from his bed, slide off his hospital door with his trembling hands. All Junsu had in mind been Taecyeon. Junsu walked passing the nurse station, Junsu looked around, feeling like his mind were playing tricks on him, he saw everything were frozen, even Bekah and nurses. Junsu walked out the hospital and everything outside were that way, frozen, unmoving. Junsu thought it must be because he hasn’t had enough sleep and all of these are just his imagination. But Junsu continued to walk, until he reached his and Taecyeon’s apartment.
Taecyeon was packing up, he felt guilty today for leaving Junsu all alone, so he wanted to apologize and stay at the hospital. Taecyeon sighed, thinking about how he should help Junsu, because it seemed like pushing him like yesterday didn’t worked out at all. Taecyeon silenced as he heard a knock in the door. Taecyeon walked slowly to the door and his mouth gaped as he saw Junsu was standing in the door, trembling with his hospital’s pajamas.
“Junsu….” Taecyeon’s hands reached out but Junsu stepped back,
“Taec…” It’s weird, Junsu thought, how come Taecyeon didn’t freeze like anybody else?
“Junsu! What are you doing????” Taecyeon pulled Junsu inside the house and when Taecyeon about to pull him to his chest, Junsu stepped back again.
“Junsu…” Taecyeon’s heart broken seeing Junsu that way.
“Taec..”
“Yes, Junsu..”
“You want to listen to me, right?”
“Junsu. Yes, of course, yes.” Junsu silenced, only stared at Taecyeon.
“Taecyeon….”
“Yes, baby. Yes?”
“I killed both of my sister and my mother.” Taecyeon’s jaw clenched, “I let them in.” Junsu’s voice trembling, “I let those murderer got inside my house, I let them killed my mom and my sister. I opened the door for them.” Junsu breathed out while Taecyeon only silenced, “I killed them, Taecyeon.” Taecyeon immediately pulled Junsu to his embrace as Junsu let out his cry and helplessness. Taecyeon whispering all the comforting words, minutes standing there, Junsu finally calming down, he pulled himself from Taecyeon.
“Junsu?” Junsu walked limply to their bed room as Taecyeon followed behind him, “Junsu?”
Junsu opened the bedroom door and made his way to the bed. Junsu laid his body slowly on the bed, then he stared at Taecyeon who looked at him confused, but then Junsu stretched out his hands and Taecyeon welcoming that by hovering on top of Junsu.
“Baby?” Junsu kissed Taecyeon, deep and meaningful.
“I love you.” And seconds later Taecyeon found Junsu drifted off to deep slumber. Taecyeon couldn’t held back his smiled as that day was the first time ever in his life he saw someone looked so beautiful when they sleep.
--
“Oh my God, Taec!!! We have been searching for him. I can’t believe why all those nurses didn’t recognize Junsu was walked down out from hospital.” Bekah spat as Taecyeon let her in but then Taecyeon motioned Bekah to be quiet.
“Why are we whispering??” Bekah asked as Taecyeon smiled, “There’s someone who’s now sleeping.”
“Who?” Taecyeon lead Bekah to his room and Bekah gasped. Junsu mouth was hanged wide open as he let out a soft snored.
“It’s been 6 hours and he didn’t wake up at all.” Bekah walked to Junsu, and watching him sleeping, then she back to Taecyeon.
“How come??” Bekah followed Taecyeon to the couch,
“He came by last night. Walking all alone and he told me about his mother and sister’s death.” Bekah nodded, “I’m about to tell you that. Junsu was the witnessed of his own mother and sister’s death. They were murdered by robber. The scene it self was pretty awful.” Bekah sighed,
“And what the police said?” Taecyeon asked,
“Well, not much. Its just Junsu’s sister is the one who opened the door for them.” Taecyeon then realized something.
“No. Junsu is the one who opened the door.” Bekah eyes widen, “He told me last night. While trembling, he was the one who opened the door; he was the one who let them in.” Bekah silenced.
“I guess, he kept that all these times.” She stared at Taecyeon.
“He bears the guilt all alone. No wonder, especially Junsu’s dad was committed suicide after the accident. Leaving him with another guilt.” Bekah looked around and something reminded her, “Ah, Taec. I guess I know why Junsu’s depression sometimes come and go.”
“Why?”
“They haunted Junsu, when he’s happy.” Bekah smiled, “I think I missed this part in Junsu’s medical record, but his old psychiatrist wrote that when he is happy, he thought that it wouldn’t last longer. So, that is the thing that triggered his depression. Because he thought he doesn’t deserve to be happy while he was so happy with you.”
“What are we going to do right now?” Bekah looked aside,
“Junsu probably going to sleep for a long time sleep. But I guess you still need to wake him up, telling him to eat and took a bath.” Taecyeon nodded.
“I will take care of him, don’t worry.” Taecyeon answered.
“Okay, I will finish the hospital matter.” Bekah stood up and went out the house.
Taecyeon watching Junsu sleeping so soundly and waking him up when he need to eat and help Junsu to wash. They were already on the bed as Junsu laid his head in Taecyeon’s thigh, with Taecyeon caressed his head, they telling stories and being great boyfriend as he was, Taecyeon didn’t mention anything about what Junsu’s said earlier. It was enough for him and all he wanted to do now is taking care of Junsu. Minutes later, Junsu back drifted to sleep. Taecyeon stared at his boyfriend, kissing him in his lips and cheeks.
“Good night, Junsu.” Taecyeon said before he wrapped his body around Junsu and catch up Junsu in his dream.
--
Junsu woke up with a certain weight on him. He slowly opened his eyes, and blinked as he saw Taecyeon’s face was close to his and the taller boy’s arms still wrapping around him. Junsu smiled, so this is how it feel to wake up from sleep to the next person you loved, Junsu thought. Taecyeon mumbled his name and Junsu giggled. Junsu put his arms in Taecyeon’s shoulder as his hand caressing Taecyeon’s hair and his other hand caressing his perfect cheek bone. Taecyeon move a little, feeling somewhat calm by the touch. Junsu played Taecyeon’s ear and then move forward, kissing Taecyeon’s nose.
“Good morning.” Junsu whispered and Taecyeon opened his eyes, smiled with the way Junsu woke him up.
“Good morning, heavy sleeper.”
“Who do you like best, a heavy sleeper boyfriend or an insomniac boyfriend?” Junsu adjusted his head to Taecyeon’s chest and caressing small circle in the tall boy’s chest by his index finger.
“Well, actually, when it talking about sex, I like it better when you sober.” Taecyeon sighed, brought up Junsu’s hand to his lips, “You’ve no idea how hard it was to wake you up, while I’m horny as hell.” Taecyeon sighed and Junsu only giggled.
“So with me is just sex?”
“Oh come on. With you is everything. But, yeah.” Junsu playfully smacked Taecyeon’s chest. Junsu silenced,
“No, baby. I’m joking. Anytime you ready.” Taecyeon said breaking the silenced as Junsu nodded, “I need to let you adjust to your new behavior. We can step aside the sex. Okay?”
“Okay. It won’t be long. I swear.” Junsu said tried to comfort Taecyeon. Taecyeon smiled,
“I love you, Junsu. And we had something more than that.” Taecyeon sighed, “Damn, why should I bring that topic?” Junsu laughed then he stood up from his bed.
“Where are you going?” Taecyeon yawned before he asked, “Bath. I need to see Bekah.” Taecyeon titled his head aside.
“Junsu. You know exactly that wasn’t your fault. What other proves you need to know? You still a kid. How can you even find out between robber and who wasn’t.” Taecyeon sat up from his bed, walked his way to Junsu as the older boy already in the bathroom and sliding off his tees and pants. Junsu looked at Taecyeon’s worried look; he walked to his topless boyfriend and putting his arms around his boyfriend’s waist.
“And you deserved to be happy.” Junsu sighed,
“I was so afraid. I am afraid that you will vanish in a minute and everything is just a dream.” Taecyeon rubbed Junsu’s back and hugged him tight,
“I am real. Than this isn’t a dream. You have me, inside and out.”
“How’s your Judo?” Taecyeon rolled his eyes and gripped Junsu’s naked shoulder, staring at his naked boyfriend.
“I hate it when you changing the subject.” Junsu laughed as he turned around and walked to the tub. Taecyeon closed the bath curtain and sat at the closet.
“Come on, baby. I guess I was missing a lot of things.” Junsu said before he turned on the shower.
“Well, urmm….”
“What?”
“I won at the nationals.” Junsu’s eyes widen as he turned off the shower.
“What???” he opened the curtain, staring at his boyfriend, “You won at the nationals????????” Junsu’s mouth hanged wide,
“Where was I that moment???” Junsu seriously asked Taecyeon while the tall boy only laughed,
“What are you laughing at?? I’m serious. Where was i??”
“You want to know??”
“Yeah.” Junsu had this disbelieved face because he knew, winning at the Nationals was all Taecyeon ever wanted and Junsu couldn’t believe he missed it. Taecyeon smiled as he stood up and put the bathrobe around Junsu.
“You were asleep.” Junsu gasped, “What?? Why you didn’t wake me up?”
“I can’t. You need sleep. The time, it wasn’t right to wake you up.” Junsu eyes watery, Taecyeon immediately cupped his boyfriend’s face but Junsu turned and now he was the one who sat in the closet. Taecyeon squatted, touching Junsu’s waist as he looked closely to the elder’s face.
“Junsu, its no big deal. I won.” Junsu tears dropped then he was staring at Taecyeon, “It wasn’t big deal for you, but it was for me. I wanted to see you.” Junsu said as he wiped his eyes,
“You’ve been waiting for the nationals, and when the day was come, I am not even watching it.” Taecyeon hugged Junsu and slowly caressing his back.
“Make it up to me later.” Junsu somehow laughed at it, knowing the meaning behind his boyfriend’s words.
“Later?” Junsu questioned him, while the other only stared at him, he knew what he want inside his head, but he shook his head, remembering Junsu was on his healing process. “Yes. Later.” Junsu smirked, “Really? Because I’m planning to do it now.” Junsu whispered to Taecyeon ears and Taecyeon stared at his boyfriend, blinked.
“Ok. Now.” Junsu giggled before Taecyeon lifted him off the ground, bridal style and walked to their bed. Taecyeon threw Junsu to the bed then hovering above the small boy who’s his bath robe already opened and Taecyeon smirked as he staring at Junsu’s inviting hard cock. Junsu admitted, he missed the tall boy inside him so much, he missed all the caresses, he missed all of his kisses, Junsu missed everything and although he knew he will be all worn out after it, but it was worth it, because he was Taecyeon, the man he loved so much. Taecyeon traveled his lips slowly from Junsu’s neck to his collarbone, then to his nipple as his hands sliding up and down to Junsu’s naked cock. Junsu moaned, pulling Taecyeon’s face and captured his lips. Junsu hands caressed Taecyeon hard abs and walked his way to the clothed cock, gripped it and slowly pulled down the tall boy’s sweat pants.
“Taec…” Junsu called between his moaned, and Taecyeon made his way to penetrated Junsu. It has been a very long time and both Taecyeon and Junsu couldn’t wait to feel it. Taecyeon aimed his cock to Junsu’s entrance, and Junsu whined as the tall boy’s cock making his way inside slowly. “Is it in?” Junsu asked between his whimpered,
“Not yet.” Taecyeon answered, “W-what?” Junsu moaned as Taecyeon pushing his cock slowly inside the tight heat,
“Oh God. Are you getting bigger or what?” Junsu panted as he tried to look down then his eyes caught Taecyeon’s smug face as the tall boy’s smirk, “I am getting bigger.” Junsu gasped and threw his head back when Taecyeon pushed his cock all the way in, since the tall boy couldn’t wait to pound hard to Junsu. It was so hot and tight when Taecyeon finally had his cock inside Junsu’s inner wall. And the feeling of being filled by Taecyeon’s thick cock was heaven for Junsu.
“Can I move?” Taecyeon asked still showing his smirked and feeling proud of himself as he stared at Junsu’s reaction over his cock,
“Wait. What are you doing to your cock?” Junsu asked, Taecyeon shrugged,
“Its secret.” He answered before he moved his hips as his arms lifted Junsu’s legs wider,
“Damn. You are so tight.” Junsu smiled, “Every thing seemed like the first time.” Taecyeon continued between his panted, but then he stopped and looked down to his whimpering boyfriend, “Its just, I am now getting bigger.” Junsu playfully smacked Taecyeon’s arm before Taecyeon continued doing his job. Taecyeon slide off, pounded to a different angle and Junsu screamed his name, he was begging for Taecyeon to do it hard and fast. Junsu thought he would get his orgasm together with Taecyeon, but instead, the tall boy, kept pounding hard inside him, made Junsu’s cock harden over and over again and reached his orgasm over and over again. Taecyeon looked around to his messy bed, he already came inside Junsu couple of times but Junsu keep begging for more. Finally both of them decided to stop, since Taecyeon knew him and Junsu need sometime to breathe. Taecyeon pulled out from Junsu then his cum sliding down from Junsu’s abused ass. Both of them panted.
“Oh Taec.” Junsu said between his panted as he touched his dry cum in his owned stomach then looked around, seeing his bed sheet on the ground.
“The bed is wet. You came a lot to the sheet before.” Junsu laughed at Taecyeon’s explanation,
“That’s your fault.” Junsu put his arm around Taecyeon’s waist and put his head on the tall boy’s chest.
“Damn. This is the best sex ever with you.” Junsu said before kissing Taecyeon’s lips.
“Well, two weeks without it. I was starving.” Taecyeon caressed Junsu’s back with his fingers, “And oh, I’ll clean up.”
“What? The room??”
“No. Your ass.” Taecyeon said before he made his way down to Junsu’s cock as Junsu gasped, feeling Taecyeon’s mouth around his softening cock and easily put it hard again. Junsu then moaned when he felt Taecyeon’s soft muscle in his entrance.
Damn, I need to tell Bekah that I’m gonna be late. Junsu thought before he gasped as he was penetrated again by Taecyeon’s hardened cock.
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“Wait. I thought our appointment were on 8 in the morning. And now,” Bekah looked at her watch, “Now is 3 in the afternoon.” Junsu smiled wide,
“Oh come on, its not like you never late before, Bek.” Bekah smiled awkwardly to the two guys in front of her. She then opened her note,
“How are you, Junsu?” Junsu looked at Taecyeon then to Bekah,
“I guess I am fine, Bek. I mean, at first i get sleepy so easily and could sleep for like 20 hours a day, but these days I’m having it around 8 to 9 hours a day.” Bekah stared at Taecyeon and Taecyeon answered the same as his boyfriend,
“Did he drink his meds, Taec?”
“Not everything. He’s having trouble with the yellow pills? I forgot the name. But every time he drank that med, Junsu became more sweaty and nervous. His heartbeats accelerate.” Bekah nodded and took the yellow pills from Taecyeon.
“You know, these pills are the one that supposed to help you to sleep. But I guess you don’t need it any longer, Junsu, because the pills showed different symptoms from your body.”
“Bekah, actually what happened to me?” Bekah sighed,
“It’s guilt. You used to feel guilty over your family’s accident but you keep it to yourself. You didn’t tell anyone about it like it was some kind of dark secret of yours. Although the truth is, that wasn’t your fault at all, Junsu. Whether you opened the door or not, you will still have your mother and sister killed.” Bekah silenced but then she continued, “You bear the guilt all alone, Kim Junsu. Without knowing it if that was true or not.” Junsu held on Taecyeon’s hand.
“I am so happy that you’re feeling so fine, Junsu. But there is couple of meds you need to drink and we still had couple of session to finish.” Junsu nodded, “And you can go back to school.” Junsu smiled.
“I miss school. So I can go to school tomorrow?” Bekah smiled, showing her white teeth, “Sure. You’ve been absence for long. I guess, it is okay for you to go to school, as long as you had Taecyeon with you.” Junsu smiled wide to the girl in front of him.
“I never thought it could be that easy Bek.”
“Well, because you had someone you trust next to you.” Bekah explained, “Even if you tell me everything, it doesn’t mean you will get your sleep back. It all depends to your comfort over people. And it seemed like, you are comfort with Taecyeon. You trust him.”
“That doesn’t mean I don’t trust you.”
“No. You trust me. But I can’t give you the love the way Taecyeon gave to you and all Taecyeon’s comfort.” Junsu nodded.
“I will see you tomorrow.” Bekah silenced,
“No, I will see you next week, Junsu.” She said before Junsu closed the door behind him.
Two of them walked outside the hospital, but then Junsu stopped.
“Taec.” Junsu looked to his lover, “Yes.”
“Let’s go see my family.” Taecyeon smiled and put his arms around Junsu’s shoulder.
“Let’s go. Let’s meet your family.”
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Junsu walked slowly to the empty hallway. His hand touching on the locker and he smiled. He couldn’t believe he missed school this much. Junsu just had done talk with the principal, he welcoming Junsu back to school after his long absence. Kids already in their class room when he finished including his lover, Taecyeon. Junsu staring at the board where his name used to be the number one but his name now down to 30th just because his long absence. Because he was no longer top 10 students, Junsu need to change his class. He wondered if Taecyeon knew about this or not, because this morning Taecyeon was in hurry, smiling all happy as he left Junsu behind. Junsu walked slowly to his new class. He stood in front of the door and he knocked. When he heard a voiced that telling him to get inside, Junsu opened the door and Taecyeon’s history teacher welcoming him.
“Ah. Welcome back, Kim Junsu. I bet you know my name as a history teacher but now I am your homeroom teacher.” He said as he motion Junsu to get inside. Junsu stood in the front, not really paying attention to the student inside,
“Okay. I guess you all know Kim Junsu. So, Junsu, just go to your seat. Next to Mr. Ok Taecyeon.”
Eh? Junsu turned back staring at his teacher and he winked. “He was right there at back near the window.” Junsu looked to the direction he motion and his eyes captured a tall well build male with extraordinary smiled waving at him. Junsu chuckled, he knew. Junsu made his way to Taecyeon without even breaking his stared to the tall boy. Taecyeon smiled so wide at him and Junsu blushed feeling like he wanted to whack off that greasy smiled. Junsu then sat next to Taecyeon as Taecyeon rested his head in his elbow and staring at Junsu. Junsu looked down blushing as he smiled. Soon as the student put their attention back to the teacher, Junsu then braved himself to look at his boyfriend,
“Why you didn’t tell me?” Junsu whispered, “It was surprised.” Taecyeon answered also whispering. Junsu then put his head back as he wanted to take a look at to his lover. Taecyeon were resting on his elbow, sun illuminated his face and his smiled. Junsu chuckled, “You pick a great spot.” Junsu’s eyes wandered, “We really sit in the back, corner, and near the window.”
“So I can do sin here with you.” Taecyeon back whispered.
“Yah!!” Junsu said but then he noticed Taecyeon’s hand writing in the desk, Junsu - Taecyeon.
“You named our desks???”
“Well, that’s the reason why I left early this morning.” Junsu smiled at his lover, he really wanted to kiss him there because his lover just made his heart thumped fast and all giddy inside. Taecyeon straighten up his body and reached Junsu’s hand under the table, holding it tight. Junsu blushed as he looked down.
“Don’t be number one. Be 30 forever.” Taecyeon whispered to Junsu’s ear as the small boy just smiled happily to Taecyeon.
“ah. I already prepared your book.” Taecyeon showed a book to Junsu and Junsu opened the book with his free hand and he gasped, seeing his name at the top of every page. Junsu opened the last page of the 369 pages and Taecyeon’s messy hand writing were there, Kim Junsu, I love you.
Junsu let out a small laugh. “I wrote that when you asleep at home.” Taecyeon pressed his lips closer to Junsu’s ear, “Because I miss you that much.” He looked at Junsu then he continued, “And I finally made reading improvement, I know how to differentiate between Junsu and Lunzu. Junsu is the one who love me and I don’t know who the hell Lunzu is.” Junsu playfully smacked Taecyeon’s thigh. Taecyeon smirked and pecked Junsu’s lips when everybody wouldn’t notice anything and again received pinched in his thigh by Junsu. Taecyeon mouthed hanged wide open feeling slightly hurt in his thigh.
“Ok ok. Let’s study.” Taecyeon said but still laid his arm around Junsu’s waist, moving Junsu’s body closed to him and paying attention to his teacher. Junsu only sighed, feeling somewhat being in the same class with Taecyeon will be a hell lot of trouble. Junsu stared at his lover, who’s now busy paying attention to the writing in the black board. Junsu looked around, feeling no one will notice, he looked to his boyfriend’s face that closed to his.
“I love you too.”Junsu whispered to the other’s ear before kissed his cheek.
“And I’ll be 30 forever if you wish for it.” Junsu said before he pay attention to the front and Taecyeon couldn’t help but staring at him and laid his head on the desk happily as now Junsu held on his hand tight.
There was another word under their names in their desks.
Junsu Taecyeon
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