THE BONES OF THE SHIP CAPTAIN'S GHOST
DEATH IS THE GREATEST, unsurpassed revenge of all.
Not of the individual who the grudge is held against with, as is the usual occurrence in this world; but rather of the one who actually holds the grudge.
There is no real satisfaction in existence with just plainly cutting the flow of life through the veins of the person who has inflicted you pain. Personally, if I am to execute an act of vengeance to my hurter, I prefer to do it through sparing his life..but will make him desire I HAVE RATHER NOT.
In one immense, sweeping action is not the way to go. In the course of not permitting him forget what he has done is of high preference. Ever as slowly, but perpetual..that is how it should be done. Killing him softly, in ETERNAL DAMNATION.
If I end his life in a single impact, as I continue to live..then a daily reminder of how he has suffered in payment to my own pain will not really be in my inspection, in my possession. So on this grounds, rather will I choose to end the life of my own..as he may go on with his life, and go on with it forever blaming himself.
Before I proceed, however, I ask you not to tell me to discontinue for I am talking shit.
Other people, even in their right minds, talk shit all the time; but no one dares to place dishonor to their names. So have me not advised that YOU DO NOT LIKE THIS KIND OF TALK, for I will absolutely slap in your face my account THAT I ALSO DO NOT LIKE THIS KIND OF PAIN. So nobody step forward to condemn my sinister thoughts, for this is my current state because I HAVE BEEN HURT. I have loved significantly..AND PAIN IS HOW THE WORLD REPAY ME?
So pardon me if I speak of dying..for if you must be informed, that is exactly how I feel.
LIKE I AM DYING.
I have tried to use my heart..poured it out and asked for consideration, a little bit more of patience and understanding..a little extra ounce more of care, of love..just until I regain even a little bit of strength sufficient enough so that I can give even a shaky attempt to stand up again.
BUT I HAVE NOT BEEN REALLY HEARD OUT.
Salvation, this is just what I have been asking for. Salvation!
Why am I not being listened to? I just need the care to be extended a bit further..just so I will be strong enough to save myself.
I try and try to ask for help, numerous times have I cried before you, trembling and cowering..but your post to come to my aid remains ever vacant.
So may I take my own life with you being aware of how much you have hurt me..so THAT EVEN IN MY DEATH, I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU.
May I be once and for all gone; but let my words leave their marks...
I WILL FOREVER HAUNT YOU.
Once I die..let me see you try and live your life, knowing that you are the reason I have taken mine.
Because anger is a curved blade, I have directed the searing sharpness of it to myself...but let me also bear witness to you tearing your soul apart. For failing to be my salvation, may you never be able to forgive yourself.
May it torment you, like it has done me.
You have hurt me deeply; I HATE YOU.
What part of this pain do you not understand?