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With optimism and relief and after much thought, I am going back to Phoenix. Part of me feels really silly for moving here to begin with, but AIDS Walk has had a huge impact on my life and I'm super grateful.
I am heading back because AIDS Walk is over, I have almost no friends, and Ian is a dead end. Most of his friends have no expectations of him and they are able to get along just fine with him. The ones who do have expectations find their phone calls being ignored. I am planning to fall in to the latter half. He's a great guy in a lot of ways. He's gorgeous, fun, adventurous, politically aware, and has a huge heart for the masses, just not for me.
I also want to head back because RENT is going to be st the start of Nearly Naked's season. It's always been a dream and I would love to do the show with my friends. I miss having a community and being cast would certainly help my esteem. I don't need free time right now.
I am going in to it knowing that a lot has changed. Natalie, Emily, and Ryan all live in other states. I don't have a best friend. Alex has a girlfriend. I am just going to do my best and try to work through this.
Onward if not upward.
I am heading back because AIDS Walk is over, I have almost no friends, and Ian is a dead end. Most of his friends have no expectations of him and they are able to get along just fine with him. The ones who do have expectations find their phone calls being ignored. I am planning to fall in to the latter half. He's a great guy in a lot of ways. He's gorgeous, fun, adventurous, politically aware, and has a huge heart for the masses, just not for me.
I also want to head back because RENT is going to be st the start of Nearly Naked's season. It's always been a dream and I would love to do the show with my friends. I miss having a community and being cast would certainly help my esteem. I don't need free time right now.
I am going in to it knowing that a lot has changed. Natalie, Emily, and Ryan all live in other states. I don't have a best friend. Alex has a girlfriend. I am just going to do my best and try to work through this.
Onward if not upward.