thoughts about ritual
So I never did get to do that full moon solitary ritual. I decided I needed to think about exactly what I was doing the ritual for, plus, I wanted to think about what I was offering to what deities. There are so many gods and goddesses for so many different things that I didn’t want to piss any of them off, or royally screw something up by doing the wrong thing. I’ve started reading up on what god or goddess to call upon for what things, and there is just so much to remember.
So I decided to do a new moon ritual, as this whole solitary ritual thing is new for me, and I’m trying to figure out what I should do. There are things I need help with, but I don’t want to take up my first ritual just asking for things. I want to also show appreciation for the fact that the deities are there to call upon for these things, and I want to show my respect for them. I’ve never been good at communicating exactly what I want to get across, so this should be interesting. I guess the only thing I can do is to just open my mind and go with the flow. The other thing that scares me is that most of my prayers I do with my mind. I don’t voice them. One of the things Heather told us was that the voice is important in rituals, because voice enables the thoughts to get to where they need to go. So I’m going to have to work on that. I don’t know why I’m so squeamish about it, it’s not like there will be anyone else there to laugh at me or anything. I guess maybe I’m afraid I might laugh at myself. But this is no laughing matter, and if I want to do this, I need to suck it up, grow up and deal with it.
I have found that I am more drawn to the Celtic gods and goddesses, but there’s an Egyptian god that I seem to be drawn to as well. After all, my taro deck is named after him. So looks like I need to do more research on that as well.
So I digress. Looks like I have some questions for Heather, and more reading and research to do. I think at this point, all I can do is call on the deity for whatever I’m looking for and go that root at this point. There are some things I need help with; communication, guidance, wisdom, ECT, and for the first time, I’m going to think about those things, and call upon the appropriate deities.
I think I’m going to do it sometime this week, as the new moon is this week. I’m not sure what day yet, but I’m going to look that up. I also need to meditate on something I saw during circle last week. So there are things I need to work on. I’ve got my work cut out for me this week.
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