I'm scared that my own stupidity finally got me into a mess luck can't get me out of. I'm scared that every plot, plan and scheme I've concocted will fall down around me because I've tried to balance too many things at once. I'm scared that time and luck are both running out to the point I'm about to learn a very hard lesson in a reality I'm too ( Read more... )

for those of you who have followed my journal for the ten+ years of it's existance, you know I have a problem with...existing ( Read more... )

I haven't really visited the forum since the one year anniversary of my mother's death, because I haven't needed to, I've been too focused on live and returning to it ( Read more... )

I'm going home Sunday, finally paying $500 I don't have for the tickets. I feel very broken inside and wish it was Monday already so it would be over ( Read more... )

I miss long summer days, Yuki Eiri and Valley...and spending hours trying to write something that isn't utter garbage that will get the juices flowing on both sides ( Read more... )

I've been feeling severely depressed lately and have no clue why...just feels like I'm treading molasses and trying not to break down sobbing (or stare into nothingness for hours at a time).

1. I had to surrender Snowball (the formerly new kitten) to an animal shelter for reasons I'm not getting into ( Read more... )

as though everything I had worth holding onto in the past year is gone and I'm back in the pain and misery I had when I lost mom.

I feel no reason to keep moving forward, when everything I was moving towards is gone again.

The excitement I had a at having an empty house ( Read more... )

I posed the last chapter of Conjour's Masqurade, finishing up a series I've spent almost five years writing ( Read more... )