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[sadpenguin]

Hm. I recently found that i must pass all four of my classes to pass high school. This puts allot of pressure on me. I just want to hurry up and pass so I can get out of this goddamn school. I still haven't had much luck finding a job. Too bad a job can't just be handed to me. But I go out and look anyway. I am trying really hard to hang in there. I feel so alone though, I really do. I mean... I can say things (to friends or family) like "blar, I need a job". I know i shouldnt expect much, but recieving a "yeah, you do" or"I know" doesnt help. I mean... Obviously what can i expect. I guess i just wish I can say that and havesomeone say "hey, I can get you a job". It doesn't quite work like that though, I know. And then their are people who act as if I am not trying or soemthing. Besides having to geta ride to look for a job, the chances of finding a place that is hiring is slim. Nobody for some fucking reason seems to understand that. The only people I have alked to that understand, are the people that are in my shoes. You can fucking talk to me about how i am not trying when you already have a job and have no idea what it is like. In the past 2 months, I have applied to ... 11 places. ELEVEN FUCKING PLACES! and yes i DRESSED UP! and yes I TRIED TO SET UP A MEETING WITH THE MANAGER and yes I HAVE CALLED!

I went over Heather's hpouse yeterday. That was funn. February vacation is coming up. Blar. Hm. My room is a mess. I think I may clean it tonight or somorrow. "found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing...". I wonder where everyone is tonight... i guess by everyone, I mean christ. I dont hang out with anyone else. Maybe Wayde when he isn't working. We all went to the Kingston mall last night actually. Wayde, christ, Nic C, and I. Christ and I would have beaten time crisis two but it glitched or soemthing. it wouldnt let us advance even though we killed everyone. :(

I need to go now, byes