...fuck me
As if my life needs more confusion and more opposision(sp) Why can i never spell anything right? anyhow, i am so fucked in the mind right now. Am i another canidate for my parental units best interest? I don't know. I am sitting here, with really bad insomnia, because i don't want to take my meds. Why? I feel guilty. I think I have yet another victem to add to the list of possible significant others. Why? Though i want it, i dont want so much of it. just one. I want to just like ONE person alot, and go for it. But nope. Wow. Why do i feel the need to mock someone? I am obviously controling my urges. I don't know what to do anymore. Shit. I have so mcuh homework :(. Fuck, not again... not another weekend like before. I am sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick. *un-needed picture of me* I am sooo ugly *un-needed picture of me* gosh, how *un-needed picture of me* ugly can *un-needed picture of me* i be! WHY AM *un-needed picture of me* I SO *un-needed picture of me* UGLY. Ugly UGLY *un-needed picture of me* UGLY *un-needed picture of me*. *cough* anyways... At least i want the whole thing i guess, and not suck the wanted juices out of an innocent unstable victem... then spit them out as if they are nothing. I TAKE THE WHOLE THING! I USE THEM FOR FUCKING GOOD!!!! Shit... wow. Just like that! I AM FUCKING GANGSTA NOW! *woot woot* Got my pimp stick dogg. peace, love, and happiness. Fuck. I guess my urges could not be controlled. Well, I WILL control the urge of revealing who the victem of my self-loathing caused mockery(sp) is.
Where the fuck is KayBerry. I havn't talked to her for like 6 days. Well, I can't complain... I would be being a hypocrite. Well, I just hope she is okay. She probably works alot. Speaking of work... Guess who got a job?* ME!
*speaking in terms of "opposite day", the fantacy day that makes everything the opposite. Needless to say, I do not have a job and i never got one.
Well, I have a raging headache... still and it is 4:00a... I am going to drink ALCOHOL...not(i just drink when i dont like the taste of it ;)...and try to sleep. (I will fcuk you tomorrow, just not today)
p.s. R.U.G.: You know what else is good frozen? Grapes. Frozen grapes... in the summer time, they taste great...
ME: Oh, I will have to try that some time...