my love.. and sorry..
Losing your best friend , can you think of anything worse then that? I'm losing mine.
I'm losing you.. I'm losing us. I'll never have the guts to say it to your face, and so I write this on a crappy cowardly LJ. Sad , I know.. but that's just me.
How did I end up losing you? What have I done to you that maid you shine me out of your life like that? How could you replace me so easily ?
It's been 3 days since we talked.. to many to count since we last seen each other..
Are you not seeing this? Do you not care? It's a Friday today.. when do you noe want to see me on a Friday?
How badly did I hurt you? Why wont you talk to me? It's me.. I'll stop the world for you.. give you all that I have.. you should know that!! How can you not?
This has been building for long? I wouldn't know.. you never said a word.. you cant talk to me.. How is that possible?
Like always, I'm to blame.. I pushed one to far.. one to long of being distant.
I cant stop the tears now,, do you have any? I'm not sure you have ..
I have to know what I did wrong.. and how is it that you didn’t tell me? Aren’t we different? We're us! We're honest! It's our thing.. you said it yourself - I have no point of hiding things from you.. was that not the same for you?
You have completely shined me out of your life! Do you even know how hurtful that is?! You're like air to me... biggest love of my life! My first and only..
When have I stopped being that for you? When did she take my place?
How did it .. we .. come to this? How did I make you feel so not important and insignificant to me that you think I will not listen to your every word? And do all I can to help you?
I want my best friend back.. do you want me back?
I'm sorry for being the hard and horrible person that I am.. I'm sorry I'm killing us.. I'm sorry to bomb you with this *like this* with no warning... I'm sorry for a lot of things.. but what I'm most sorry about is you hurting because of me. Because I'm not worth it.. not when you're hurting..
I love you.. always.. because you're my mistress..
I'm losing you.. I'm losing us. I'll never have the guts to say it to your face, and so I write this on a crappy cowardly LJ. Sad , I know.. but that's just me.
How did I end up losing you? What have I done to you that maid you shine me out of your life like that? How could you replace me so easily ?
It's been 3 days since we talked.. to many to count since we last seen each other..
Are you not seeing this? Do you not care? It's a Friday today.. when do you noe want to see me on a Friday?
How badly did I hurt you? Why wont you talk to me? It's me.. I'll stop the world for you.. give you all that I have.. you should know that!! How can you not?
This has been building for long? I wouldn't know.. you never said a word.. you cant talk to me.. How is that possible?
Like always, I'm to blame.. I pushed one to far.. one to long of being distant.
I cant stop the tears now,, do you have any? I'm not sure you have ..
I have to know what I did wrong.. and how is it that you didn’t tell me? Aren’t we different? We're us! We're honest! It's our thing.. you said it yourself - I have no point of hiding things from you.. was that not the same for you?
You have completely shined me out of your life! Do you even know how hurtful that is?! You're like air to me... biggest love of my life! My first and only..
When have I stopped being that for you? When did she take my place?
How did it .. we .. come to this? How did I make you feel so not important and insignificant to me that you think I will not listen to your every word? And do all I can to help you?
I want my best friend back.. do you want me back?
I'm sorry for being the hard and horrible person that I am.. I'm sorry I'm killing us.. I'm sorry to bomb you with this *like this* with no warning... I'm sorry for a lot of things.. but what I'm most sorry about is you hurting because of me. Because I'm not worth it.. not when you're hurting..
I love you.. always.. because you're my mistress..