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It sucks so hard when a loved one is hurting and you can do nothing to fix it. My poor mom called me yesterday and was just sobbing. I swear I don't know how she has held it together this long with every thing that has been going on. When she drove home from the hospital with my dad he had no idea where they were when they got off the freeway. He was so confused. And my mom said even simple questions like do you want milk in your tea? he couldn't answer. She said he would say he was thinking. And then not say anything else. It's like his brain is just disconnected again. So apparently they fused his spine together, but his brain is broken. And that was just one of like a billion things that happened in the last two days that pretty much just pushed her to the edge.
My brain is all kinds of mush right now, so I'm just trucking a long doing what I can to manage things. I told B this afternoon that I felt like we didn't have time anymore to spend together, because most of the time I'm either mentally not coping or physically not coping. He told me that Friday night he's taking me how to dinner. And to a real sit down dinner, not fast food like last time. I figure I'll just take antinausea meds and pain meds before we leave the house and hopefully we can get through a meal without me getting sick.
It's 4:30 am and 80F degrees in the house. I am so fucking over this heat that seems like it's just getting worse. I guess I should take a glass of ice water and go lay on my bed for a while and pretend to sleep.
My brain is all kinds of mush right now, so I'm just trucking a long doing what I can to manage things. I told B this afternoon that I felt like we didn't have time anymore to spend together, because most of the time I'm either mentally not coping or physically not coping. He told me that Friday night he's taking me how to dinner. And to a real sit down dinner, not fast food like last time. I figure I'll just take antinausea meds and pain meds before we leave the house and hopefully we can get through a meal without me getting sick.
It's 4:30 am and 80F degrees in the house. I am so fucking over this heat that seems like it's just getting worse. I guess I should take a glass of ice water and go lay on my bed for a while and pretend to sleep.