waiting for one hour and a half
dumb title i know, but its what im doing: im cooking :) i cook well, at least i hope lol... im making a shrimp and crab gumbo right now for new years and im having a few friends over for new years :)...missing a few people tho, which sucks, but not much one can do right now... i have an hour left before the gumbo is almost ready (then another hour of simmering and then addition of shrimp and crab and then into refridge) ill be done around 1230/ 1am.. then off to bed because i have work tomorrow.. whoops, ya, i have work lol, and ill be doing it on very very little sleep as usual.
anyway, onto other things as i balance writing here and my gumbo lol... i went to the orthopedist again today, there was an issue with my previous appointment... anyway, after the first two x-rays, the doc comes in and he does a battery of tests on my shoulder, ok small back story so u can understand why i went: my shoulder is a little messed up, been that way for a while, but back in july it got worse, heres why, my ex contacted me and wanted to know the last time i was tested for HIV/AIDs and if i was positive. it was a bs call and it was more about her rubbing in that she had a new bf she was sexually active with and that i was more into my job then i was in a relationship, total bs, i mean, yea i put work first, but i need the job.. anyway, i went home afer counseling and took my baseball and went to the wall on my block, its exactly sixty feet and threw the hardest i could, i was so angry and well, i hurt my shoulder, i had numbness and tingling etc... ok fast forward to now, ihave major weakness and pain in my right arm, like seriously, at points,i cant even use it, so im in my doc office. he does these tests, and im in pain lol, and he tests my neck, and it causes pain. he has me get 2 more xrays, and well, get this, my neck is in spasm, which means?? i dunno, all it means now is that i need to see a neurologist and get some sorta test with electricity... ooo yay.. so more time off from work, well, ill work a half day and then go to the test. he also said i needed to physical therapy for my shoulder, so i need to find a place near where i work, and go during my lunch hour :(, i like PT but i kinda wanna do it near my house, but i know at work allows the whole hour and i can do it no problem.. its just im soo angry at myself for all this, i know i hurt myself in the dumbest way and it was cause i was angry at someone who means nothing to me nw because of the way she hurt me.
i wonder what the options are for these injuries... i really do... i wanan be a surfer for my life and i want to be able to surf come early this new year beause my surfer buddy is gonna have a new wetsuit, and we can go earlier. right now ithink surfing is in doubt... who knows, maybe all this can be solved by physical therapy and im just complaining for nothing...
ok other things i wanna write.. hmm.. i finished my first novel, i think ill post some chapters from it on here and see what people think. ive realized, (well for a while now ive realized it) that u cant force the need for relationships, they will happen as they happen. i think i was in such a need for it that i kinda pushed things a little harder then normal and have kinda stepped into a friends zone with some people, and it was a bad idea.. just kinda let things happen and it will be ok... i guess my new philosophy now... lol...did i have an old one? i dunno.
anyway, onto other things as i balance writing here and my gumbo lol... i went to the orthopedist again today, there was an issue with my previous appointment... anyway, after the first two x-rays, the doc comes in and he does a battery of tests on my shoulder, ok small back story so u can understand why i went: my shoulder is a little messed up, been that way for a while, but back in july it got worse, heres why, my ex contacted me and wanted to know the last time i was tested for HIV/AIDs and if i was positive. it was a bs call and it was more about her rubbing in that she had a new bf she was sexually active with and that i was more into my job then i was in a relationship, total bs, i mean, yea i put work first, but i need the job.. anyway, i went home afer counseling and took my baseball and went to the wall on my block, its exactly sixty feet and threw the hardest i could, i was so angry and well, i hurt my shoulder, i had numbness and tingling etc... ok fast forward to now, ihave major weakness and pain in my right arm, like seriously, at points,i cant even use it, so im in my doc office. he does these tests, and im in pain lol, and he tests my neck, and it causes pain. he has me get 2 more xrays, and well, get this, my neck is in spasm, which means?? i dunno, all it means now is that i need to see a neurologist and get some sorta test with electricity... ooo yay.. so more time off from work, well, ill work a half day and then go to the test. he also said i needed to physical therapy for my shoulder, so i need to find a place near where i work, and go during my lunch hour :(, i like PT but i kinda wanna do it near my house, but i know at work allows the whole hour and i can do it no problem.. its just im soo angry at myself for all this, i know i hurt myself in the dumbest way and it was cause i was angry at someone who means nothing to me nw because of the way she hurt me.
i wonder what the options are for these injuries... i really do... i wanan be a surfer for my life and i want to be able to surf come early this new year beause my surfer buddy is gonna have a new wetsuit, and we can go earlier. right now ithink surfing is in doubt... who knows, maybe all this can be solved by physical therapy and im just complaining for nothing...
ok other things i wanna write.. hmm.. i finished my first novel, i think ill post some chapters from it on here and see what people think. ive realized, (well for a while now ive realized it) that u cant force the need for relationships, they will happen as they happen. i think i was in such a need for it that i kinda pushed things a little harder then normal and have kinda stepped into a friends zone with some people, and it was a bad idea.. just kinda let things happen and it will be ok... i guess my new philosophy now... lol...did i have an old one? i dunno.