the scarlet letter
with some trepidation, i feel ready to go back out into the world. ive been living in the friend cocoon for quite sometime now and feel its about time to go out and explore. i kinda wish i didnt feel so sick, cause i kinda really want to go out somewhere tonight. im kinda over the whole fear of being called a slut and a whore out in public places. and yes, those fears are justified cause it has happened, more than once.
i think over the next month or so i have to show alot of discipline. this means not going out to eat as much and the such so that i can do other fun things that i want. like work on my art, save up money, etc. ive been just floating by for awhile now and im getting really sick of it. i end up spending my money on stupid shit and then when it comes to shit i really want to do, i cant afford it.
speaking of which, i really want to go to some shows. between the buried and me is coming up soon but that would require skipping school. and then theres bane coming up and shai hulud in albany. i need a hardcore show to pump some blood into me, its been months.
i think my next big purchase, if i can save up the money, is a new bad ass laptop and eventually a hard drive. im thinking about seing if i can get some kind of credit card through apple or something so i can get a new comp. i dont like this whole borrowing other peoples shit thing.
so im off to go plan some shit and hopefully get some things done and then hopefully snuggling, xmen, and bed time. way to go interesting saturday night.
i think over the next month or so i have to show alot of discipline. this means not going out to eat as much and the such so that i can do other fun things that i want. like work on my art, save up money, etc. ive been just floating by for awhile now and im getting really sick of it. i end up spending my money on stupid shit and then when it comes to shit i really want to do, i cant afford it.
speaking of which, i really want to go to some shows. between the buried and me is coming up soon but that would require skipping school. and then theres bane coming up and shai hulud in albany. i need a hardcore show to pump some blood into me, its been months.
i think my next big purchase, if i can save up the money, is a new bad ass laptop and eventually a hard drive. im thinking about seing if i can get some kind of credit card through apple or something so i can get a new comp. i dont like this whole borrowing other peoples shit thing.
so im off to go plan some shit and hopefully get some things done and then hopefully snuggling, xmen, and bed time. way to go interesting saturday night.