The skinny.

[rubyseesall]

I feel as though my time is already up.
All that was really, truly good, is over.
I feel that I am wasting my time, and I might as well give up.

These feelings conflict with my desire to better myself.
I wish I could learn.
I wish I still had an interest in.....anything.
I wish I could lose weight.

But I have no motivation, because I see no real point.
There just isn't a reason to make it work.
Not to me.

I wish my heart would beat at a normal speed.
I wish I wasn't always afraid, desperate, and lonely.
I wish I could have a good night's sleep.

I made an appointment today.

Cool!  I bummed you out!

I hope this will change.
What if it doesn't?