procrastinating queen
this has been a very strange weekend. it started with lydia finding out that a good friend from home was killed in a car accident. i dont even know the kid, but hearing her talk about him, i felt like i knew him. i was so sad to see her so sad. it was surreal.
then meredith came. it was good to see her, we hit all her favorite bloomington places to eat, saw a movie, hung out with old friends. shes changed alot i feel like, or maybe ive changed alot. its always hard to tell with those sorts of things, cause its usually my first inclination to blame the other person for it, instead of looking at yourself. i cant really expalin it i guess.
then i picked lyd back up from the airport and she is doing better. it was so incredible to hear how God is working through Jordan's death, i couldnt believe it. it was so cathartic for her to speak at the funeral, and i just cant believe it. its still hard, but what man intended for evil, god intended for good.
im so behind in school already and its one week into the new semester. im thinking about just setting up residence in the library because that will be more practical. its going to be a hard lonely semester. but it was absolutely beautiful outside today. i wish i had my frisbee friend here though.
i looked at a practice test for the GRE and i got REAL scared. i dont know if i want to go to grad school. i got to go for the right reasons. something inside of me tells me that there is the perfect thing for me after school jobwise, i dont know how i will find it or how soon i will know, but i think its out there for me waiting to be realized and obtained.
i miss my mom.
peace be with.
then meredith came. it was good to see her, we hit all her favorite bloomington places to eat, saw a movie, hung out with old friends. shes changed alot i feel like, or maybe ive changed alot. its always hard to tell with those sorts of things, cause its usually my first inclination to blame the other person for it, instead of looking at yourself. i cant really expalin it i guess.
then i picked lyd back up from the airport and she is doing better. it was so incredible to hear how God is working through Jordan's death, i couldnt believe it. it was so cathartic for her to speak at the funeral, and i just cant believe it. its still hard, but what man intended for evil, god intended for good.
im so behind in school already and its one week into the new semester. im thinking about just setting up residence in the library because that will be more practical. its going to be a hard lonely semester. but it was absolutely beautiful outside today. i wish i had my frisbee friend here though.
i looked at a practice test for the GRE and i got REAL scared. i dont know if i want to go to grad school. i got to go for the right reasons. something inside of me tells me that there is the perfect thing for me after school jobwise, i dont know how i will find it or how soon i will know, but i think its out there for me waiting to be realized and obtained.
i miss my mom.
peace be with.