Meditation
So I added meditation to my morning routine about two weeks ago. I was introduced to mindful meditation by my therapist years ago when I was having huge issues with my family. I sat down and tried it a few times, but nothing seemed to stick. Now in my "Summer of Spirituality", I figured I'd give it another shot. This time around, it's making a world of difference. Here are some of the observations I've made sofar:
One odd note: no matter what position I try, sitting indian, lotus, half-lotus, etc, My left foot always seems to fall asleep after a while. Has anyone encountered this before?
- The best way I can describe it to someone is it's like tidying up a house. You clean house, but never dwell on one area too long. You clean up messes, throw away things that aren't needed anymore, and put aside important things to be organized later. The same goes for the mind. You reflect and become aware of feelings in the moment. You acknowledge thoughts and decide to move on or set aside for later. You discover things that you never knew before. Once you're done there's feeling of clarity that lets you tackle whatever comes next.
- I've become more emotional. I've been told by friends that i can be very hard to read, or that I seem disconnected. Over the years I've gotten very good at hiding how I really feel, or keeping it bottled up until it bursts out an an awkward moment. This barrier I've put up seems to be falling down, slowly. I've cried more in the past two weeks than I have in the past two years. This past weekend I rode a natural high for two straight days. All of it has seemingly come from nowhere.
- I do alot of journaling, both online and on paper. For a while I thought I didn't need meditation since journaling helped me work through my thoughts. Now I find that both practices complement each other very well. The meditation helps identify my feelings, while the journal helps me work through them. Think of it as writing out the main points/outline, then fleshing it out at a later time.
- My mind doesn't freeze up as often anymore. The other day I was figuring out what to do on my day off. Rather than get stuck in my thought process and think of how to proceed next, things ran smoothly and I was able to find something enjoyable to do. On the flipside.. trying to come up with concrete information, like a word I'm want to use to describe something, takes longer.
One odd note: no matter what position I try, sitting indian, lotus, half-lotus, etc, My left foot always seems to fall asleep after a while. Has anyone encountered this before?