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Up until today, I believed I was dealing with the fact of a sudden loss of a girlfriend after 3 long years, the feeling of slowly drifting away from a best friend and no longer having that someone to really talk with, my entire family amotionally pressuring me to magically find out exactly what I want to do with the rest of my life, being threatened to be kicked out of my home every single day, my parents taking away my computer for good UNTIL I magically find out exactly what I want to do with the rest of my life, the rise and fall of Anti-Depressants, friends who can't be trusted, the feeling of being completely alone, absolutely hating the new department I have to work in almost every single day, and having the phrase "Why are you even taking classes anyways, you're just going to drop out" said to me by my very own mother...
Very Fucking Well.
Until it ended up being too much and having to completely break down today. And I keep trying. I really do. I keep trying to make something different of everything and stay positive and make an impact on my life but it never seems to help. Everything just keeps on coming back harder and harder.
I'm slowly being pushed and pushed to my limit by so many things at once and I don't know what to do.
Very Fucking Well.
Until it ended up being too much and having to completely break down today. And I keep trying. I really do. I keep trying to make something different of everything and stay positive and make an impact on my life but it never seems to help. Everything just keeps on coming back harder and harder.
I'm slowly being pushed and pushed to my limit by so many things at once and I don't know what to do.