Who: Everyone in the Breeding Centre House!
Where: ...The Breeding Centre House; Assorted areas of Goldenrod City
When: Evening of October 29th into early morning October 30th, beginning about a half hour after
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Summary: Souji and Yosuke have a fight! All over the house! In front of everyone! And then things happen and Yosuke wanders
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[It's eating him alive though. He has nothing -- no Pokémon, no music. Absolutely nothing to give him any semblance of normalcy. Sunlight is beginning to peek through the spaces between Goldenrod's skyscrapers, and Yosuke thinks now is the time.]
[Everyone - Souji included - should be asleep now. But it doesn't matter; if anyone is awake, he's going to have to deal with him. It's bad enough any of them came running after him when he stormed out earlier. He doesn't feel he deserves it, not a single thing. But going back to the house also meant seeing Souji... and that's the absolute last thing he wants right now. The guilt is crushing his chest, but fear of the truth is driving him more ( ... )
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[ He too lowers his head and finds his Espeon rather interesting. She hasn't moved from her spot, but rather looks back up at her trainer, asking on what it should do. Should she go help or do nothing? Well, if Souji can't decide on what to for himself, how can he decide for his Pokemon. It's just completely awkward, but at the very least, he owes an apology and like hell is he going to make it half-assed. ]
[ It takes him half a minute to do so, but he looks back down at Yosuke and speaks up to break the awkward silence; ] Sorry about last night... about everything.
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It's my fault. [He starts, but then falls silent again. He needs to find the words, to find some of that tact he'd developed. Saying the right thing now is the most crucial thing -- they've had their spats before, but it's never been like this. Never so venomous, so resentful. Not to mention some of the things that were said that other people never needed to hear. But finally, he manages to choke out a few words.] I... I seriously overreacted. You don't have to tell me that kind of stuff, it's not like-- ["We're married or something," but that turn of phrase is the last one that needs to be used in this situation.] ...you're obligated to.
[He falls quiet again, chewing on his lower lip. Yosuke thought he'd cried himself out well and good amidst the panic attack he had last night, but he can still feel his eyes welling up. Everyone -- Merlin, Rise ( ... )
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[ He stays at the top of the stairs until a few seconds after Yosuke has finished speaking, he slowly walks down the stairs, deciding to sit two steps above him. Sitting right beside him is probably not a great idea, especially with proving that the crush is not one-sided. The last thing that Souji needs is to give off the wrong impression or anything. ]
[ With the other having his back turned, Souji doesn't have a clue that Yosuke is starting to tear up, at least for now. ] No, you were right.
I should have told you weeks ago about the trip and-- [ He takes a deep breath here. It's always hard admitting that part of him, the part where he feels like he should be the strong leader, the one that everyone turns to. It's been hard to admit to Merlin, it ( ... )
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[Souji, the one who refused any help when he was alone with no resources in a freezing cave. He was admitting this. He was acknowledging that Yosuke said something that was right, that was true. Yosuke knew this, and he's not the only one who's noticed. But... they say admitting the problem is the first step to fixing it, right?]
[It doesn't stop his eyes from being wide, and it doesn't stop a few silent tears from spilling over. It's much more subdued than before. Though his pulse is racing and he feels like his heart is in his stomach - and that his stomach is in his throat - he doesn't feel as if he's going to break down. He can't right now, it wouldn't be good for either of them.] It's just... you can lean on us. I mean, shit, Souji. We're supposed to be equals.
[He pauses again, ( ... )
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[ Souji shifts on the step of the stair, the wood beneath him creaking loudly in the awkward silence. Falling into that other topic, the one that has put the most tension between them right now, it's not something that he wants to bring up right now. Of course, it does need to be addressed sooner or later, but he wants to get everything else out of the way first. ]
...Do you remember the event with the Shedinjas stealing souls? [ This may seem completely irrelevant to their topic at hand, but Souji will connect it shortly. ]
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Yeah... [His expressions falls slightly though. It's something he can't forget, not with what he failed to do before it, or what he was forced to realize in that... coma.] What about it? That's... got nothing to do with this.
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That's the reason why I'm heading to Cianwood. Being all the way in the Ice Path while you and Rise have been knocked out, not able to do anything; having everyone call me and panicking because we didn't know what to do. [ He pauses, recalling the details of that moment. Back when he has to put on his Leader persona and try to be the calm one of the group, even if he has become to feel sick with worry. ] I don't want that to happen again and the faster I get the badges, the better prepared I am.
[ Then there's that thing that Souji has been hiding; one that Yosuke probably knows all too well by now, just what Souji has been hiding away for six whole months behind little coffee cups. ]
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Y-you... you idiot...
[But when he says it, there's something almost wry about his tone, a stifled, mocking chuckle to it. Stupid. He may be the leader, and he may be the glue that holds the team together... but sometimes he is just so stupid. Not that Yosuke is any less stupid, and he knows that, but...]
[It takes him a minute to find the words, or rather, to find his voice to say the words.] Why -- why didn't you just say that?
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Heat of the moment, I guess. Also-- [ Another pause, looming over the thoughts that have been on his mind for the past few months, all the way back to his Shadow encounters, his biggest flaws. ] I guess that means I have to admit my... weakness, never wanting to be the imperfect leader...
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Aren't... aren't you the one who accepted everyone despite their weaknesses? We'd do the same for you. You can't be perfect, and it pisses me off that you try to be.
[It definitely makes him feel not good enough sometimes, and with all these other feelings circulating in him, it's only brought him down some when it's come up in thought.]
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Yeah... Sorry. I suppose I just need a good punch to keep that in mind. [ Because he does this so many times, always pushing himself until he falls ill. It's not an easy habit for him to break and he knows this. He will really have to have a reminder about this now and then. ]
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We're equals. Don't forget that.
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