how utterly disapointing

its my birthday!

so, i've just become an assistant stage manager for skidmore college's production of Blood Relative. It's all about the conflict of the main character, growing up in Israel with an israeli mother and a palestinian father. So yeah, should be kinda awesome. and everyone i know should come see it, two weekends in april...i'll put those dates up a bit ( Read more... )

i am at school. i've been here a week now and it's much better than i thought it would be. details should not be recorded on any online site, thus...they will have to be conveyed through me directly. let me just say its been quite the weekend. maybe a little self destructive, and i smoked like four ciggarettes, but it was all fun

i still feel awful. that hasn't really changed. the more i think about it, the more awful i feel. i mean, he fed me all this bullshit about caring about me, but he hasn't once called or sent me an email to see how i'm doing. he's just completely forgotten about me, which is exactly what i thought he would do ( Read more... )

its been a week and i am still so unhappy. i feel lost. and i'm sure everyone is just sick and tired of me being sad, but i can't help it. i talked to him a couple times, which makes me feel stupid and desperate, and then everything he says makes me feel ultimately worse. i thought i was with someone who cared about me, but he just gave up on me... ( Read more... )

For the past nine months I have kept telling people what a wonderful boyfriend i had. how we were open and honest with one another, took care of one another. i really didn't think i was wrong. he dumped me, in a long cruel process...and i'll be honest, i don't really know why. there was a problem, i wanted to fix it. that should've been simple. ( Read more... )

been to the hospital, thyroid has been scanned. now i just need to get the results back so i can take them to the doctor when i get home. i think theres more they have to do before i can get meds tho. i'm tired again

its very nice to know i have an amazing boy, and that also that i have a way of getting home that doesn't make me nervous or feel

thyroid scan begins tomorrow
wish i knew what the fuck i was doing, or what the fuck is wrong with me

after a whole week of pm fatigue i went to health services. the took my blood, those vampires. and my thyroid is kinda swollen. so it's maybe a virus, and maybe hypothyroidism...we'll know on sunday