Through the looking glass...
And after months of absence, here I am. Its halfway through April and a month until I walk across that stage in my mothafuckin cap and gown and am DONE with DePauw University for good!!!!
Don't get too excited yet...
Standing in my way are a Senior recital, two band concerts and one orchestra concert, two exams, a paper on an opera that i haven't chosen, a talk on censorship in children's literature, a project on homosexuality in classical music, and lots of class to go to and other trifles that I am likely to blow off. Lets be honest.... I really just want to get through my recital on the 29th so that I can enjoy my last days here as a senior should, drunk and running around in the spring night time with friends that I'm not likely to see again until we are middle aged and back for a reunion or something. I know that sounds bleak, but that is what college has done to me, I'm just so tired that I can't wait to get away from here... doesn't help that the day after I graduate I have to show up in NYC to play Carnegie Hall? ummm how is that going to work again?
I'm at the point where I kind of want to empty the entire contents of my room at Delta Gamma, with the exception of anything expensive or heirloom and drop it all of at goodwill and skip town come May 20. I want to take a road trip and not know where I am going, I want to have time for things like showers and laundry. I want to just enjoy a little time without the worries of credits, and performances, and papers and projects and stupid things that don't matter. I want to sleep for an entire week.
No, I don't know where I am going next year or what I am doing. Grad schools apparently like to keep you guessing on your life and what will happen to your entire future. Chances are, I will be at some type of institution playing the oboe and going to some music classes, teaching lessons and hopefully having a SOMEWHAT more peaceful type of existence, (not likely)... but we will see. San Francisco or Michigan I guess they are two opposite sides of the country.... road less traveled and one close to home... and no I don't have a first choice or whatever people keep asking me. I just don't know, and I guess I won't until I hear more from these places... Frustrating, Stressful?
I've seen worse :)