Life Endeavors
The past few weeks have been somewhat good, bad and crazy. My little neice Ria was born and she is a cutie pie. My parents were glad to finally have a grand child. My sister and I just got back froma cruise. We went to 6 countries in 7 days. Loads of fun. I started my PHD at Princeton and it hard as hell. I have also started to volunteer again for Contact. It's an organization that helps people is desperate need. Feels good helping someone again since I been getting it for the past year from a lot of people. It feels good to help people again. I'm not the strongest person in the worl any more, I used to be but I'm still the same old person. A lot has happen to me in the past year and especiall in the past few months. I just grateful I'm still breathing. I was down and out and I know I'm on my way back up. A lot people believe in me and look up to me because they say I have so much strength, not sure exactly where it comes from but it feels good at times to know I have it. Today I feel sad and scared, not sure why- ok I know why but unfortunately their nothing I can do because it's out of my hand. I caught myself saying a pray or two at times for help. I hopes it is answer before it's to late. I'm don't have much time for time is my main enemy right now. I mean I can start all over but no one does if they don't have to. I've staying away from a lot of people lately, trying to solve things on my own. 762 is the number I will be avoiding. If I can beat this and move back to my goal of 1050-1, I can walk away happlily.