Full Unslaughter-lol
This was the last weekend of the summer and I wanted to go out with a bang. Friday I got out of work at 1pm and did some shopping for lil Alejandro's b'day. That's my cousin Ryan and Johana baby- he was turning 2 and a lil heart breaker. I bought like the whole entire store for him- never send me shopping for kids. Friday night I hung out with Amber. I wanted to gte out for once and just do something and get my mind away from things on hand. We went out for dinner and went to board walk to hang out afterwards. I told her how scared I am and she was surprise to know that. I have given the image to everyone that I'm not scared and finally she saw how scared I am. Not scared of what going on but all the people around me. How it's going to affect them. People thing I'm crazy now because I'm going back for my PhD. Amber showed me couple things this weekend. She showed me couple e-mails, my promise ring note, and other things from my past. Not sure why she did but it was from someone name Kristen I used to date. She was a person I used to care deeply about until she did me wrong and hurt my like no other. Amber asked me if I still had anything towards Kristen and to my amazement- I don't- Not even hate. As crazy as that sounds. I feel no hate towards this person and at the same time I have no love. Honestly, it's just a distant memory now that I look at it. I don't feel well, got to take my medicine. Night