My thought
This week was like any other week except for the fact that I did something I really never wanted to do but I had to. It's hard when you know someone or at least thought you did and have to move on without them finally. I wrote and e-mail or rather a long good bye to someone who once meant the world to me. It was really hard to write honestly, took me two months to kinda get my thoughts together but I didn't write everything I wanted to- just got some anger and remorse out. I broke so many promise I never wanted to when I wrote that e-mail. Even my best friend told me she not that bad of a person and she a hard person to convince once your on her bad side. I gave her everything and yet she hurt me so bad. It's funny, after writing all that, saying everything I needed to say, I realize that she will always be something to me regardless of where life leads us but just don't see us salvaging anything any time soon because of all the hurt that came with that. Maybe we will cross paths one day again in life, maybe, only this time I will not rely on faith but rather my instincts. There are alot of things I need to confront before I truely confront a situation like that ever again and not sure I even want to. Having true faith in the person believing they could ever stand on their own but I know now they can and I know they will be ok because they will start believing in themselves like you do- to everyone around me- someone gave me this line and I want you all to know Dessine-moi un mouton (French I think- I got to look it up and see the meaning of that phrase is and the only good thing I got out of it- a phrase-lol). Until we meet again people, whoever that may be, stay strong, stay who you are and most importantly Dessine-moi un mouton to everyone in my life!