So... its been a long time. So many things have changed. No fairy tale love ever happened for me. Nothing happened the way I planned. I'm 18, lively, pretty, smart and yet... here I sit. Alone. Everyday alone. Where I live is nothingness and despair. Friends all a memory and a written word. Love, aw how I yern for it. And this is what I am, here, ( Read more... )

Everywhere I look theres a void, nothing more than a wall blocking me from getting on with my life. I've been taken away from my world. From all I knew. Why is it that everything happens for a reason, yet none can be an enjoyable one? I need to get out. Out of my own head even. The more I think the more it hurts. Just a month ago I had turned into ( Read more... )

Diamonds sparkle in the sky
Like the tears that stream from your lovers eye
And as you leave
I wonder why
Was it something I said
Or something I typed
Somehow this just doesn't seem right
After all these wonderful nights
Why should my eyes be the ones to cry

I'm in love with the most wonderful man I've ever met. I'm engaged and I'm genuinely happy. It's a new beginning.

hallo. today was aweful, and good too i guess. i finally informed someone of my secret. well in 2nd hour justin and roach were talking about some things that reminded me of the past and i started to feel bad then. and then all in all they were pretty mean and rude to me today, which reminded me of my mother and made me hurt worse. and i just had a ( Read more... )

My God, My Tourniquet
Return to me Salvation

hallo! i think its been awhile since i last updated. yea well school is great i love my new classes, except algebra 2 but whatever. and i have like the hottest teacher to end the day with lol. me and trevor broke up so i'm single now. and ryens moving i think :(. but he gave me a mean look the other day anyway so it doesnt matter. and umm i want to ( Read more... )

i didnt bring a pad to write lyrics on like usual, so i'll put them on here. some of the words may be wrong. i didnt just copy them from a site ( Read more... )

I just need to write rite now, i have no one to talk to rite now. i want to talk to trevor, but he doesnt and i respect that since i ran out of sn's to follow him on. jlia said something to him and put my name in it and he thought that i had said it to her. i never even talked to her about anything on that subject. something about that i said he ( Read more... )

hallo. I went to the aqaurium today after having about4 hours of sleep i think. sounds about rite. i'm not really tired now tho, believe it or not. my days been pretty good actually. the sea lions were so cute in their show. and I got a new stuffed animal to sleep with, since i miss Sticht so much. its soft and green and blue and yellown and it has ( Read more... )