Take 3 over recommended dosage and call me when you come out of the coma
Friday, Jeordie and I got back together. The dinner she prepared and the wine we drank and the time we spent together was just what we needed to relieve the tension. We tried watching "The Punisher: War Zone" but it sucked.
The night was messy and so was the morning. And sometimes she scares me. But that's alright. I love her too much.
Sunday, I got with Ashley and we went to Lovin' Spoonfuls and I spilled her the news. She was off-put by it I could tell. We continued to spend the rest of the day with each other though. We went to the 4th Avenue Street Fair, met up with Theresa and their friend Matthew. The more time I spent with Ashley, the more I couldn't keep my eyes off her. And likewise with her. Even still, the more time I spent with her, the more I come to find out how much more we have in common and at the same time, what her and Jeordie have in common. And her spending time with me, she finds out how similar I am to her ex boyfriend Mac, who she had to leave when she moved from Illinois. It is way too freaky. Full circle.
I split to go with Alan, Rodrigo and Jeordie for the evening at 7.
I met up with them at the Super K Mart and Jeordie purchased some condoms.
Later in the evening, we got to Alan's place and watched "I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry." It was a lot better than I thought it would be.
Rod and Alan went to the closet to sleep. Hahaha, no pun intended. Alan left Jeordie and I his bed.
I don't know if her and I can have sex now that she has HPV. Even with the condoms. She doesn't want to give it to me, and I don't want it. The night was spent doing different things and I could tell that it's always on her mind. I'm giving her blueballs and we're not sure what to do.
I can't keep my eyes off Jeordie either. She has a beauty that is unmatched. Supremely.
Yesterday, my phone could text anyone but Jeordie for some reason. And when I got home, the CDs Ashley gave me wouldn't play on my CD player for some reason. I'm talking cosmic shit.
I know I have a knack to read into things.
I wonder if Jeordie and Ashley were to be within the same proximity of each other, if their ears would ring. (I'm making a Highlander reference. "There can be only one!")
Part of me wants Ashley. To see what can spring. But if things don't work out, could I be able to go back with Jeordie. I have not seen Jeordie so in love with me since we first went out. She came to the realization that without me, she'd be stuck. The breakup was a wake-up call for her. And truthfully, was part of the reason why I did it. It scares her to lose me. But we're back to what we first had, which was perfection, practically. And at the same time, I don't want to tug at Ashley's emotions. There is the variable that she wants something temporary. She says she's independent, doesn't like clingy relationships.
Another part of me feels lustful. Like Ashley is a Jeordie without HPV. And that really is fucking low for me to think like that. I'm just stuck. I'm allowing myself to be stuck.
Ashley is Ashley and Ashley is awesome.
Jeordie is Jeordie and Jeordie is jubilant.
The night was messy and so was the morning. And sometimes she scares me. But that's alright. I love her too much.
Sunday, I got with Ashley and we went to Lovin' Spoonfuls and I spilled her the news. She was off-put by it I could tell. We continued to spend the rest of the day with each other though. We went to the 4th Avenue Street Fair, met up with Theresa and their friend Matthew. The more time I spent with Ashley, the more I couldn't keep my eyes off her. And likewise with her. Even still, the more time I spent with her, the more I come to find out how much more we have in common and at the same time, what her and Jeordie have in common. And her spending time with me, she finds out how similar I am to her ex boyfriend Mac, who she had to leave when she moved from Illinois. It is way too freaky. Full circle.
I split to go with Alan, Rodrigo and Jeordie for the evening at 7.
I met up with them at the Super K Mart and Jeordie purchased some condoms.
Later in the evening, we got to Alan's place and watched "I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry." It was a lot better than I thought it would be.
Rod and Alan went to the closet to sleep. Hahaha, no pun intended. Alan left Jeordie and I his bed.
I don't know if her and I can have sex now that she has HPV. Even with the condoms. She doesn't want to give it to me, and I don't want it. The night was spent doing different things and I could tell that it's always on her mind. I'm giving her blueballs and we're not sure what to do.
I can't keep my eyes off Jeordie either. She has a beauty that is unmatched. Supremely.
Yesterday, my phone could text anyone but Jeordie for some reason. And when I got home, the CDs Ashley gave me wouldn't play on my CD player for some reason. I'm talking cosmic shit.
I know I have a knack to read into things.
I wonder if Jeordie and Ashley were to be within the same proximity of each other, if their ears would ring. (I'm making a Highlander reference. "There can be only one!")
Part of me wants Ashley. To see what can spring. But if things don't work out, could I be able to go back with Jeordie. I have not seen Jeordie so in love with me since we first went out. She came to the realization that without me, she'd be stuck. The breakup was a wake-up call for her. And truthfully, was part of the reason why I did it. It scares her to lose me. But we're back to what we first had, which was perfection, practically. And at the same time, I don't want to tug at Ashley's emotions. There is the variable that she wants something temporary. She says she's independent, doesn't like clingy relationships.
Another part of me feels lustful. Like Ashley is a Jeordie without HPV. And that really is fucking low for me to think like that. I'm just stuck. I'm allowing myself to be stuck.
Ashley is Ashley and Ashley is awesome.
Jeordie is Jeordie and Jeordie is jubilant.