Jun 04, 2005 04:49
*Sighs*... I'm going insane. This shit eats at me daily. I am trying so hard to put it behind me. However, I just want to talk to you so badly and see if your doing ok or if you really don't give a fuck if I die or live. My world seems like it is passing me by quickly and I am on pause. I am loosing my drive. Most days have not been so bad, but the last few days I have just wanted to explode. I fear I may crack. What will I do if I loose it? Go back and cry like I used to? I think I have few tears left. And this abscense within me seems to grow. I don't know what's going on. I hope this feeling stops soon. And you know what? It's not even all about you. This stemed from you and now everything spins out of control. I am overwhlemed. Man, I can't wait to start scool! Cough, sarcasm, cough... More shit to worry about. Hmm... I dunno... I always overcome, but this is different. I am in an odd mood. I dunno if I am shitty or sad, or blank. So whatever... I'll try to update when I am in a good mood?...