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gahhhhhhhh, things always seem to find a way of being increadibly difficult. I cant even start to explain all of it because it just gets too complicated. Amitst dealing with my own drama, which any of you who know me know im not very good at it because its usually the most rediculous shit that never happens (which makes it somewhat bearable just for the humor factor, "that never really happens, it just did" haha anyways my best friend is in some trouble and i can see how much its tearing him apart inside just by looking at his face. I look at him and i just wan to start bawling for him. I wish there was someway i could help but i cannot figure anything out. Basicly the only wya to fix things would be to come up with 2000 dollars like NOW. Otherwise im afraid he is going to leave, i do think he will not come back for a while if he does, i know hes loves it in cali but its just a hard place to get a start in. Usually once you finally get settled here its alright, but getting settled is the hard part. There are other factorsd that make it even harder on him. I wont go far into detail for several reasons, 1 being respect for him and 2 being his safty. I just dont know whats going to happen, if he leaves i will be lost and alone. Its really hard to explain the connection himand i have. We are the EXACT same person. Hes just the straight version of me fromt eh east coast and i am the gay version of him form the west coast. I have serously given thoguht to just up and leaving with him, but i dont think id be able to do it. Im too much of a cali kid, and i think i would die of anxiety. i just dont know what to do. and that kills me.