(no subject)
i want to rip my hair out. Things just seem to get more complicated every second. This situation suxs so bad. I dont know how all of this is going to play out, iv played it out in my mind several times, and i even saw part of this comming. I know my self all to well yet still know how to trick my self. I just know how i cycle through friends which is why i have very few close friends and alot of accuantinces. My best firned is on the run and my other best friend just so happens to be his ex roomate. Matt and aaron are really the only things i have at the moment, they are all i know. we have spent the last 5 months with each other day and night just able 24/7. inseperable, now all this drama happens and im stuck in the middle, big suprise.the next couple of months are goign to get so hard. Especailly after last night. Matt was soooooooo fucking cute i just wanted to give him and big kiss. Tho he was rolling, he talked about alot of things that i dont often get to talk about with other people. Things that were said i took to heart, very much so. I love them both dearly but i can see how this is going to kill me.