so the followup tidbit was that after I had that intense rollercoaster evening of psychedness and fairly pointless stupid insecure deflation, I had a dream the only part of which I remember was kissing this girl I like a lot and am friends with [yes, in real life, OK?] It was really nice; the next day I was cheered up & wondering "woah, I'll bet ( Read more... )

first, some dreams:

I woke up in the middle of this long very lucid articulate apology/ explanation, as far as i can remember my brain was making to me. That is somewhat of a constructed interpretation- but I knew at the time that it was both to and from me. It was like an apology for everything, literally but also more specifically everything I ( Read more... )