to merrill
Hey i tried really hard to not let this happen but you need to know that our friendship is over. I will not be walked on anymore, or stabbed in the back again. You say that you know "the way of the man", but if that is true then you would know that a real man would never do what you did. Impulse, instinct i dont give a shit what you are having inside. I did care and that was my downfall because in the end you dont give a fuck about anything or anyone but your fuckin self. I wish that ashley could see that because in the end your gonna hurt her just as bad if not worst than me. But just keep looking out for number 1 that seems to be working for you thus far. Regardless if she was hitting on you or not you just dont let it happen when you know that your friends feels deeply for her. If it were me i would have told her in a heartbeat that i couldnt fuck my best friend over like that. So if it has happened to you in the past then why do you think that that makes it ok for you to do it to me when i thought we were tighter than anything. I wouldve givin my fuckin life for you. You always said bros before hos, but obviously you are the biggest fuckin hypocrit i have ever known. I remember when you and her had that big fight and you werent hangin with them. I remember that i was by your side thats where i was when you needed me, but when i need you oops your down "doin what you gotta do because youve been waiting so long". I cant forgive you and i know that i doesnt matter to you anyway because you werent about to let me get in between you and what you want. And even if i did forgive you im sure that the first time i got in the way again you would do the same fuckin thing again. And still after i am sitting next to you fallin to fuckin pieces you shrug it off and think that i will get over it. Well your dead wrong and i need to let you know that. I mean how can you get up and look at yourself and be satisfied with what you have done to me. You may say that you arent but if that was true you wouldnt be writing her all kinds of sweet messages and love quotes and shit right in front of my fuckin face. Thats no remorse for what you did, sorry just doesnt fuckin cut it. I always asked you if you were alright with what i wrote to her and you fucking lied, you havent once asked me if it is bothering me, which it fuckin is because your only out for self benefit and she needs someone that she can depend on. Feelins and devotion are not a fuckin on/off thing and what you think your feelin you know is BS. Because if she told you she didnt want you you would tell her right where to go and not care about her anymore. And i cant believe i have to sit back and watch you fuck her over like this. Right now you are the worst human being that I have ever known and if your happy with that then whatever im done trying to help a person that doesnt give a shit about other people in any way shape or form. I wish i could tell this all to your face but i am so disgusted with you that i cant look you in the face because it makes me feel sick.