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So hey im glad that i still have my friends. I hope they are happy and i guess im glad if they are. I just dont like being kept in the dark. Ive been stabbed in the back by many friends in the past and im glad i figured out what was going on before it happened again. I just dont want anything to change. Just a message to my friends please trust me as i trust you. There is absolutely no reason to ever fear me in anyway. Bad timing is my middle name i guess, but instead of getting all sad and depressed about everything i think ill try to tough it out. Ive been shown sooo much since i got to college and i am really glad to be alive. Im just sick of all the petty stuff that does not have to happen at all. So here i sit at the starting gate again. But at least i feel like i have people that care about me for a change. I want to understand life sooo bad. I dont know who i am or what im doing, or even what i want to be for that matter. Confusion is my motto and niceness is my life. I guess i take life day by day now and hope that lies, sadness and lonliness are no longer a factor. Please dont think im looking for attention from this i know that another close to me has had harder times than I, and im here for that person forever and always because my life has not been too much happier. I pray for you everyday and i hope that we always share this bond. I even hope that someday i will find someone that needs me like you. I know i will be ok but i still wish i was with my soulmate. Then my life would finally be complete. please lord let me find my soulmate soon. Until then watch over my friends, and bless me with the strength to give them all that they will ever need. I would give my life for them.