relationships
I think it is the change from (as cliche as this sounds) friend to lovers that confuses me so much. I'm never been so dependant and out of control of a relationship ever! It is a real growing experience for me, to not feel like the dominate of the pair. I feel dependant in the sense that, I don't want to get hurt like I did with Bryan. I'm dependant on him showing his true self to me. Honestly I know he has because we were friends for a perfect amount of time before this. I'm just ranting like a little girl actually, trying to get it off my mind so I don't make a fool of myself directly to him. I just have a crush but that crush is combined with some real deep feelings of love...I know I said love, but I really care about him that much reguardless of our stupid labels. Blah blah blah I'm such a girl...if you read nothing but this last sentance it would be too much...honestly its so simple.