do you ever feel like breaking down? do you ever feel out of place?
[Just a warning: this is a very long post, with a crapload of different topics. I usually try to make a new paragraph for each new topic, so if you find that you don't want to read about one thing, just skip down to the next one...alright then, continue on to the actual post]
So yeah. I have discovered Charmed fan fiction in all its wonderful glory. I have tried to get into it a couple of other times, but it just never worked for me. I like Chris stories. I like seeing the brother relationship between him and Wyatt at any age, especially ones in the new future with good!Wyatt, though seeing evil!Wyatt turn Chris evil can be fun, too. But really, it doesn't usually matter what they are about, as long as Chris is in them. I like others as well, though I don't see the point in no magic AUs. It doesn't make sense to my brain. I can understand writing about before they discovered they were witches, but to just do away with the magic all together...*shrugs* to each his or her own I guess. *shrugs* I haven't been able to locate any archives dedicated solely to Charmed fic, so for now I am stuck going through the stories at fanfiction.net, which is always an...adventure. Really, people need to learn how to write...allusion is a reference, illusion is something not real...get them straight...and writing your stories in script format is often annoying, unless it serves some purpose. It also makes it look like you ripped it from the transcripts. And holy hell!!! Don't rewrite episodes and just change names or something. I started readingthis one story about Wyatt, Chris, and two of their cousins in the changed future. Their parents had (all six of them) died in a car crash (which is an overused plot device in any fandom) and the youngest one )gasp( goes up to the attic and reads an inscription in the front of this old book, and downstairs a photograph of the four of them mysteriously changes...and the next day they have strange powers! (And that is where I stopped, because I didn't think I could handle it anymore...the only reason I stuck out that long is because I am an eternal optimist when it comes to fic...I hope and pray that someone will get better...especially if I think that it is a good idea, but they usually don't.) So really. It is just stupid. If you have a cool idea, which making four Haliwell cousins become the next "charmed" ones, go for it, but if you can't come up with a decent plot...don't write anyway, save the idea for later when you do have a plot.
So...missing two weeks of choir isn't really cool, because when you get back you have no idea what is going on. The opera dinner is this Saturday, so I don't know if I will be able to go and see my parents while they are in Grangeville. My mom mentioned that they might drive down here and take the freeway across Oregon instead of going down through Washington so they can come and see me, if I couldn't get up there, but I don't know if that will actually be possible. It also sounded like we have a church concert next weekend, but I am not completely sure about that, because no one ever said anything specific, just some things that Dr. M alluded to made it sound that way. And we sang "At the Name" today!!! I was so happy. And we have our processional. It is a round. It amazes me that we haven't had a church concert all year. It is b/c Dr. M wants to make Cru Choir more of a campus choir, with the New Northwesterners being the touring choir. Which is okay, but I like going to church concerts. But anyway, we were going to have both a church concert and a campus concert last semester, but they were right around thanksgiving and the beginning of December, so they were cancelled because of all the other crap that was going on (homecoming, and beethoven, and all the rehearsals that those entailed).
I need a job. I feel really stupid right now. I should have gone out today. I just felt...weird. I have been feeling like this for the past couple of days. It is kinda like a hollow feeling, and emptiness, but it is different than normal. Almost like I am waiting for something, but I have no idea what I am waiting for, and it drives me insane. I just don't want to do anything...I feel like I am tired all the time. And I hate it. I want a home.
My parents are putting our house up for sale. The agent that did the stuff with my grandparents' in Weiser is going to do it. They are going to give it a while, and if it doesn't sell then my mom said that it must mean that they aren't supposed to sell it. I am not sure how I feel about all of this. I mean, it really isn't my home anymore, even though it feels like it. I miss it. A lot. I think I just realized how much I miss it. My mom is considering moving back to Grangeville. She wants to be able to help my grandma, and there is a job offer waiting for her. And she LOVES Grangeville, she misses it so much. And really, she needs Grangeville. But she doesn't want to leave my dad in Hood River. My dad needs to get out of Hood River, and I think he misses Grangeville, too, but I don't know where he would work. I doubt very much that he would want to go back to work at militech (he was a machinist), and I don't know where else his skill set would allow him to do something he enjoyed. I was surprised to hear that my parents are considering moving to Nampa. I am not sure how that makes me feel. It could be good, I guess. I would honestly rather live with them than here, if it came down to that, but at the same time, I don't know if I could go back to living with my parents at this point. Especially my dad. I love him...I just can't handle being around him for long periods of time.
Ooo...so we went to the Antique Mall in Boise the other day, and it was really great. I like it a lot, and when I have more money I am totally going back and buying lots of stuff (Aaron, you have to see the swords we saw). But anyway, I did buy one thing...it was only four dollars, because really, it isn't antique, it is just used. One of my absolute favorite books ever (and also one of my mom's, which is why I bought it, but I will come to that later) is actually a trilogy called Riddle of Stars by Patricia McKillip (the individual books are called The Riddle-Master of Hed, Heir of Sea and Fire, and Harpist in the Wind). If you haven't read them, you should. They are fantasy, which is probably obvious, seeing as I am the one recommending them, and the titles kinda give it away as well. Anyway, I bought the book for my mom. She owns the trilogy in a single volume book, but it is so old, and she has reread it so many times that the first dust cover (it is a hard back) wore out, and she made a new one, and now that one is wearing out and the binding is falling apart. She keeps saying that she needs a new one, so when I saw it, I was like "I have to get that!" I already own a copy of the trilogy as three individual paperbacks, which are currently in the possession of one Kate Russell soon to be Stark. So, yeah...I am rereading the book, and then I am going to give it to my mom...she is going to be happy...*sighs*
I have said a lot of very pointless stuff in this extremely long post. I hope you don't mind that I took up so much space...but yeah...Okay...I really should go to bed...but I don't want to...this is going to get in me in trouble...I want to write, but I don't know what to write, I guess that I could transcribe...I have some stuff in a notebook somewhere that needs to get put into word documents...maybe that will get some gears moving...I shall talk to you all later...
*points at Presea on his icon* What she said...
So yeah. I have discovered Charmed fan fiction in all its wonderful glory. I have tried to get into it a couple of other times, but it just never worked for me. I like Chris stories. I like seeing the brother relationship between him and Wyatt at any age, especially ones in the new future with good!Wyatt, though seeing evil!Wyatt turn Chris evil can be fun, too. But really, it doesn't usually matter what they are about, as long as Chris is in them. I like others as well, though I don't see the point in no magic AUs. It doesn't make sense to my brain. I can understand writing about before they discovered they were witches, but to just do away with the magic all together...*shrugs* to each his or her own I guess. *shrugs* I haven't been able to locate any archives dedicated solely to Charmed fic, so for now I am stuck going through the stories at fanfiction.net, which is always an...adventure. Really, people need to learn how to write...allusion is a reference, illusion is something not real...get them straight...and writing your stories in script format is often annoying, unless it serves some purpose. It also makes it look like you ripped it from the transcripts. And holy hell!!! Don't rewrite episodes and just change names or something. I started readingthis one story about Wyatt, Chris, and two of their cousins in the changed future. Their parents had (all six of them) died in a car crash (which is an overused plot device in any fandom) and the youngest one )gasp( goes up to the attic and reads an inscription in the front of this old book, and downstairs a photograph of the four of them mysteriously changes...and the next day they have strange powers! (And that is where I stopped, because I didn't think I could handle it anymore...the only reason I stuck out that long is because I am an eternal optimist when it comes to fic...I hope and pray that someone will get better...especially if I think that it is a good idea, but they usually don't.) So really. It is just stupid. If you have a cool idea, which making four Haliwell cousins become the next "charmed" ones, go for it, but if you can't come up with a decent plot...don't write anyway, save the idea for later when you do have a plot.
So...missing two weeks of choir isn't really cool, because when you get back you have no idea what is going on. The opera dinner is this Saturday, so I don't know if I will be able to go and see my parents while they are in Grangeville. My mom mentioned that they might drive down here and take the freeway across Oregon instead of going down through Washington so they can come and see me, if I couldn't get up there, but I don't know if that will actually be possible. It also sounded like we have a church concert next weekend, but I am not completely sure about that, because no one ever said anything specific, just some things that Dr. M alluded to made it sound that way. And we sang "At the Name" today!!! I was so happy. And we have our processional. It is a round. It amazes me that we haven't had a church concert all year. It is b/c Dr. M wants to make Cru Choir more of a campus choir, with the New Northwesterners being the touring choir. Which is okay, but I like going to church concerts. But anyway, we were going to have both a church concert and a campus concert last semester, but they were right around thanksgiving and the beginning of December, so they were cancelled because of all the other crap that was going on (homecoming, and beethoven, and all the rehearsals that those entailed).
I need a job. I feel really stupid right now. I should have gone out today. I just felt...weird. I have been feeling like this for the past couple of days. It is kinda like a hollow feeling, and emptiness, but it is different than normal. Almost like I am waiting for something, but I have no idea what I am waiting for, and it drives me insane. I just don't want to do anything...I feel like I am tired all the time. And I hate it. I want a home.
My parents are putting our house up for sale. The agent that did the stuff with my grandparents' in Weiser is going to do it. They are going to give it a while, and if it doesn't sell then my mom said that it must mean that they aren't supposed to sell it. I am not sure how I feel about all of this. I mean, it really isn't my home anymore, even though it feels like it. I miss it. A lot. I think I just realized how much I miss it. My mom is considering moving back to Grangeville. She wants to be able to help my grandma, and there is a job offer waiting for her. And she LOVES Grangeville, she misses it so much. And really, she needs Grangeville. But she doesn't want to leave my dad in Hood River. My dad needs to get out of Hood River, and I think he misses Grangeville, too, but I don't know where he would work. I doubt very much that he would want to go back to work at militech (he was a machinist), and I don't know where else his skill set would allow him to do something he enjoyed. I was surprised to hear that my parents are considering moving to Nampa. I am not sure how that makes me feel. It could be good, I guess. I would honestly rather live with them than here, if it came down to that, but at the same time, I don't know if I could go back to living with my parents at this point. Especially my dad. I love him...I just can't handle being around him for long periods of time.
Ooo...so we went to the Antique Mall in Boise the other day, and it was really great. I like it a lot, and when I have more money I am totally going back and buying lots of stuff (Aaron, you have to see the swords we saw). But anyway, I did buy one thing...it was only four dollars, because really, it isn't antique, it is just used. One of my absolute favorite books ever (and also one of my mom's, which is why I bought it, but I will come to that later) is actually a trilogy called Riddle of Stars by Patricia McKillip (the individual books are called The Riddle-Master of Hed, Heir of Sea and Fire, and Harpist in the Wind). If you haven't read them, you should. They are fantasy, which is probably obvious, seeing as I am the one recommending them, and the titles kinda give it away as well. Anyway, I bought the book for my mom. She owns the trilogy in a single volume book, but it is so old, and she has reread it so many times that the first dust cover (it is a hard back) wore out, and she made a new one, and now that one is wearing out and the binding is falling apart. She keeps saying that she needs a new one, so when I saw it, I was like "I have to get that!" I already own a copy of the trilogy as three individual paperbacks, which are currently in the possession of one Kate Russell soon to be Stark. So, yeah...I am rereading the book, and then I am going to give it to my mom...she is going to be happy...*sighs*
I have said a lot of very pointless stuff in this extremely long post. I hope you don't mind that I took up so much space...but yeah...Okay...I really should go to bed...but I don't want to...this is going to get in me in trouble...I want to write, but I don't know what to write, I guess that I could transcribe...I have some stuff in a notebook somewhere that needs to get put into word documents...maybe that will get some gears moving...I shall talk to you all later...
*points at Presea on his icon* What she said...