GRRRRRRRRRR

[riott]

I hate being stuck in alabama. I know I shouldn't but I get so pissed off at my mom for getting cancer and dying. I know in some aspects she couldn't help it and there are chances she could have never smoke and still have gotten it but its also like... I wouldn't have come back here if she had been well. I would still be happy and in Boston. I'm just so unhappy here. On top of that I thought the school I'm now going to would at least be alright cuz I heard some good things about it. But no... this school is Bullshit... they are unrealistic and you pay way to much for crap. Most schools I've been to ( and god have I been to alot ) their libraries and computer labs are open around 6 or 7am so you can do stuff before your classes. Not to mention most teachers get that people have to work and have other classes but these teachers at VC think you have 24/7 to work on nothing but there stuff. I mean we had 5 boards due plus a huge notebook due... 2 papers all in like 3wks. 3wks because my teacher fucked around for the first month and a half. On top of that we have a final on some CD in the back of the text book, the text book that we have yet to even use or talk about. My book I find out today didn't have the god damn CD in it and they wanted me to go and pay $90 some dollars for a whole other book and I was like nuh huh.... I don't have that kind of money to buy yet another book. So I have to drop the fucking class because if I don't I will fail for not having a CD so it means all those damn boards I busted my ass on mean shit. UGH.... so I'm gonna try to just work and maybe have enough money to go back to boston. Though I know I'm gonna get a fucking lecture from my dad which I don't want... and I don't need when I'm doing it all on my on.... I have 2 loans for school and I work so I don't want to hear it.
I'm just so fucking tired of bad shit happening........