What I chase won't set me free...
Hmmm...so not too much is going on down here in the booming microcosm that is Hanover College-- go figure, right? I'm not too sure if I even have the right to complain about the lack of happenings here because I knew all about it from Steph and yet I still decided to come. I musta been on some strong herbs last year. I'm still in a very depressed state of mind about all of this like I was the other nite... like I have been for far too long since I've been here-- but it does get worse. Check this out.
Yesterday I went to the Business office so I could go change in some money for quarters to do laundry and on the way back to my dorm- which is like thisclose to the office- I definately tripped like in a mole hole I guess, and fell on my face. So that was embarassing, but THEN after I tried to get over the embarassment and finish my jaunt back to the dorm, I realied I couldn't jaunt...I couldn't even walk. My ankle was twiced the size of what it shoulda been because I apparently sprained the fuck out of it. So I hobbled back to my room, did my laundry, talked to Amanda and Michael- who I swear was on crack last nite- and then decided I wanted to curl up in a ball in my bed and try to escape. So I did...I couldn't fall asleep though, so I was like screw it, and while I was trying to get out of my bed i ROLLED my ankle. Do you know how bad that hurts? I'll give a hint: A LOT. So I'm a frickin gimp. AND then we (Amanda, Michael, and I) decided to watch Dirty Dancing Havana Nights so I was setting up the chairs for Michael and I to sit in and i definately dropped one of em on my foot. Yah, it sucked. Talk about adding insult to injury.
Here's a song that seems to do a good job of explaining everything as of rite now...well kind of. But I just really like the song also.
Sympathy: Goo Goo Dolls
Stranger than your sympathy,
And this is my apology
I'm killing myself from the inside out,
And all my fears have pushed you out.
And I wished for things that I don't need.
All I wanted
And what I chase won't set me free.
It's all I wanted
And I get scared but I'm not crawling on my knees.
Oh yeah, everything's all wrong, yeah.
Everything's all wrong, yeah.
Who the hell did I think I was?
Stranger than your sympathy.
I take these things so I don't feel.
I'm killing myself from the inside out,
And now my head's been filled with doubt.
And it's hard to lead the life you choose,
All I wanted
When all your lucks run out on you.
All I wanted
And you can't see when all your dreams are coming true.
Oh yeah, it's easy to forget, yeah.
And you choke on the regrets, yeah.
Who the hell did I think I was?
And stranger than your sympathy,
And all these thoughts you stole from me.
And I'm not sure where I belong.
Nowhere's home and I'm all wrong
And I wasn't all the things
I tried to make believe I was.
And I wouldn't be the one
To kneel before the dreams I wanted
And all the talk,
And all the lies
Were all the empty things disguised as me
Yeah.
Stranger than your sympathy.
Stranger than your sympathy.
Good Song. Good band. John Rzeznick (?) is hotter than hell. *Sigh*
Mk, here are my shout outs:
Amanda- You are now a Donner girl. Yay! Two words: Milky Milky *insert hand motions here* Haha. Hopefully things will get better on your end. BTW...when does the magic kick in? We're not tricking him. That's just mean.
Emily- Glad you're having fun and getting places with Andrew. That's cool for you.
Tia- You're coming tomorrow!!! We're gonna have to sit and reminisce (?) about the greates summer EVER. We might even have to break out the Nellyville CD. Haha! Yay. Love Tim, Love Tim...
Steph- Hey Tom..do u wanna like tuck your shirt in or something? Haha. Still laughin about it.
Michael- There's not much to say bc I think you're totally oblivious to how I feel about you. Either that or you just don't care. Either way, my wasted heart is still yours. *This belongs to you and always will* (That's referring to a secret kiss..Peter Pan For life.)
I'm not too sure why I give him shout outs...but oh well.
To all else I love ya or I hate ya, either way u know how I feel.
Welp, bye bye and buy bonds.
To know me is to love me, and you know you love me.
**Quotes**
"I wanna love my job, I wanna love my life, but most of all I wanna fall in love."
~MXPX, "First Day of The Rest of Our Lives"
"In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing."
~Mignon McLaughlin
"You've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong."
"Yes, it was a kiss. A powerful thing indeed"
~Peter Pan 2003
Yesterday I went to the Business office so I could go change in some money for quarters to do laundry and on the way back to my dorm- which is like thisclose to the office- I definately tripped like in a mole hole I guess, and fell on my face. So that was embarassing, but THEN after I tried to get over the embarassment and finish my jaunt back to the dorm, I realied I couldn't jaunt...I couldn't even walk. My ankle was twiced the size of what it shoulda been because I apparently sprained the fuck out of it. So I hobbled back to my room, did my laundry, talked to Amanda and Michael- who I swear was on crack last nite- and then decided I wanted to curl up in a ball in my bed and try to escape. So I did...I couldn't fall asleep though, so I was like screw it, and while I was trying to get out of my bed i ROLLED my ankle. Do you know how bad that hurts? I'll give a hint: A LOT. So I'm a frickin gimp. AND then we (Amanda, Michael, and I) decided to watch Dirty Dancing Havana Nights so I was setting up the chairs for Michael and I to sit in and i definately dropped one of em on my foot. Yah, it sucked. Talk about adding insult to injury.
Here's a song that seems to do a good job of explaining everything as of rite now...well kind of. But I just really like the song also.
Sympathy: Goo Goo Dolls
Stranger than your sympathy,
And this is my apology
I'm killing myself from the inside out,
And all my fears have pushed you out.
And I wished for things that I don't need.
All I wanted
And what I chase won't set me free.
It's all I wanted
And I get scared but I'm not crawling on my knees.
Oh yeah, everything's all wrong, yeah.
Everything's all wrong, yeah.
Who the hell did I think I was?
Stranger than your sympathy.
I take these things so I don't feel.
I'm killing myself from the inside out,
And now my head's been filled with doubt.
And it's hard to lead the life you choose,
All I wanted
When all your lucks run out on you.
All I wanted
And you can't see when all your dreams are coming true.
Oh yeah, it's easy to forget, yeah.
And you choke on the regrets, yeah.
Who the hell did I think I was?
And stranger than your sympathy,
And all these thoughts you stole from me.
And I'm not sure where I belong.
Nowhere's home and I'm all wrong
And I wasn't all the things
I tried to make believe I was.
And I wouldn't be the one
To kneel before the dreams I wanted
And all the talk,
And all the lies
Were all the empty things disguised as me
Yeah.
Stranger than your sympathy.
Stranger than your sympathy.
Good Song. Good band. John Rzeznick (?) is hotter than hell. *Sigh*
Mk, here are my shout outs:
Amanda- You are now a Donner girl. Yay! Two words: Milky Milky *insert hand motions here* Haha. Hopefully things will get better on your end. BTW...when does the magic kick in? We're not tricking him. That's just mean.
Emily- Glad you're having fun and getting places with Andrew. That's cool for you.
Tia- You're coming tomorrow!!! We're gonna have to sit and reminisce (?) about the greates summer EVER. We might even have to break out the Nellyville CD. Haha! Yay. Love Tim, Love Tim...
Steph- Hey Tom..do u wanna like tuck your shirt in or something? Haha. Still laughin about it.
Michael- There's not much to say bc I think you're totally oblivious to how I feel about you. Either that or you just don't care. Either way, my wasted heart is still yours. *This belongs to you and always will* (That's referring to a secret kiss..Peter Pan For life.)
I'm not too sure why I give him shout outs...but oh well.
To all else I love ya or I hate ya, either way u know how I feel.
Welp, bye bye and buy bonds.
To know me is to love me, and you know you love me.
**Quotes**
"I wanna love my job, I wanna love my life, but most of all I wanna fall in love."
~MXPX, "First Day of The Rest of Our Lives"
"In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing."
~Mignon McLaughlin
"You've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong."
"Yes, it was a kiss. A powerful thing indeed"
~Peter Pan 2003