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Today was my first day of school. I don't think I can do it. I know people say things like that all the time, me in particular, but I am serious as a heart attack this time. There is so much work to do. As I've said, the program really discourages students from working. While I was talking to a few women today, they were absolutely shocked that I planned on having a job. What in the fuck?! How do people realistically expect folk to get through school without having a job? It's fine if you have a rich husband or father to pay for everything, but otherwise, how is it really possible? I mean it's not only the workload I'm afraid of, it's also my complete lack of motivation, alcoholism, chronic depression, poverty, and seeming inability to remember anything related to speech pathology. Seriously, I generally only need to hear or read a definition once or twice to remember if verbatim for years, but I'm still unclear on what all of the most basic SLP terms mean that I've been hearing for months now, and in bits and pieces before that. Every single quiz and test I've taken I've been completely clueless on, and I've wound up relying on intuition for pretty much everything. You know how I had such a hard time in anatomy over the summer? I was looking through my neuroscience book today, and the entire class is basically a very in-depth anatomy class surrounding the brain and ears. Awesome.
I have Brittany and Amy with me in three of my classes, and Mohamed is in the other one. I love this guy, but he depresses me. (Imagine.) I think it's just that I compare myself to him and see a lot of things that I'll never have or never be able to be.
And another thing. I just opened one of those explanation of benefits things from Blue Cross, and the motherfuckers have decided not to pay for my physical, which cost $102. There was a little note that said "Services for administrative reasons not covered" or something. Well, Dr. Vincent Granowicz's office is going to have to resubmit that claim in such a way that it will be paid, or they will not be getting that money from me. So, I think that means that if I had gone to get a physical, it would have been covered. BUT, since I went to have a physical and had the doctor write on a form for my program at school, it was not. Bullshit. It's pretty damn ironic that I'm about to start working with trying to bill people's insurances, when I hate the healthcare industry so much.
I have Brittany and Amy with me in three of my classes, and Mohamed is in the other one. I love this guy, but he depresses me. (Imagine.) I think it's just that I compare myself to him and see a lot of things that I'll never have or never be able to be.
And another thing. I just opened one of those explanation of benefits things from Blue Cross, and the motherfuckers have decided not to pay for my physical, which cost $102. There was a little note that said "Services for administrative reasons not covered" or something. Well, Dr. Vincent Granowicz's office is going to have to resubmit that claim in such a way that it will be paid, or they will not be getting that money from me. So, I think that means that if I had gone to get a physical, it would have been covered. BUT, since I went to have a physical and had the doctor write on a form for my program at school, it was not. Bullshit. It's pretty damn ironic that I'm about to start working with trying to bill people's insurances, when I hate the healthcare industry so much.