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My My My....
I was explaining to caitlin about my third and sixth hour. I don't see it as a problem, that its bad or anything. I'm in class to do one thing-learn. And if one of my peeps are in the class.... then cool. But hey.. easier for me to get an A. But I thought about it. Ashley talks to me alot.. she's pretty cool. And Nicola set by me in 5th hour. So maybe they don't hate me. I don't know. Seems like I may be the closed one I guess....
I think I'm writing a song.... think is the keyword.
I love speech and impromptu so much.
I had to do an open response question in sixth hour. And just because the thing said "Prompt:" I was very excited and decided that I'd put my full effort into it. I had a whole introduction.. not just a topic sentence. Each pro or con (4) had their own paragraph and I had a conclusion. And some other paragraphs were in there. It was organized.... It was what an essay is supposed to be. I worked for 35 minutes on the darned thing. And what does the class do? make fun of me. Well not really. Jordan was. And it got around the room that I was on my third page. Jordan watched intently, maggie looked at me like I was crazy, sammy started her sentence with "Carroll wrote..." I heard from around the corner.. hillary was saying "Carroll wrote a freaking novel!" followed by much laughter. I didn't like the attention this time. I absolutely hated it. People just waiting to see when I would FINALLY get finished... how many pages I wrote....
It's just a freaking essay people. I felt bad for treating it like it was a speech event. I wanted to curl into a little ball and never be seen again. And the rest that weren't doing that acted like i didn't exist. When I came in their path they froze, took their hands in their pockets and looked down.
I felt like such a freak, and I don't know why. Hey.. at least they acknowledge that I'm alive.
I sat by wyatt today back in the lab. I didn't say hi. but he smiled at me. he knew I was there. adam looked at me. I felt alive again.
I swear I thought I was invisible for a while. Even seeing people in the hallway that i talk to regularly and consider to be my best friends would ignore me.. or maybe just not see me. It was mostly.. ariel and jim, i see petra alot, and charlotte, caitlin, and liz. Whenever I wave they don't see me. Its strange. I thought that I could be invisible.. seriously. and in choir when I wasn't singing and was chewing gum they didn't notice. They never not notice people!!! never! I'm kinda glad of it though... I can chew gum and be unnoticed as I always pleased.
But its nice that I'm coming out of the neverwhere again.
but, I still think that they're robots.
I was explaining to caitlin about my third and sixth hour. I don't see it as a problem, that its bad or anything. I'm in class to do one thing-learn. And if one of my peeps are in the class.... then cool. But hey.. easier for me to get an A. But I thought about it. Ashley talks to me alot.. she's pretty cool. And Nicola set by me in 5th hour. So maybe they don't hate me. I don't know. Seems like I may be the closed one I guess....
I think I'm writing a song.... think is the keyword.
I love speech and impromptu so much.
I had to do an open response question in sixth hour. And just because the thing said "Prompt:" I was very excited and decided that I'd put my full effort into it. I had a whole introduction.. not just a topic sentence. Each pro or con (4) had their own paragraph and I had a conclusion. And some other paragraphs were in there. It was organized.... It was what an essay is supposed to be. I worked for 35 minutes on the darned thing. And what does the class do? make fun of me. Well not really. Jordan was. And it got around the room that I was on my third page. Jordan watched intently, maggie looked at me like I was crazy, sammy started her sentence with "Carroll wrote..." I heard from around the corner.. hillary was saying "Carroll wrote a freaking novel!" followed by much laughter. I didn't like the attention this time. I absolutely hated it. People just waiting to see when I would FINALLY get finished... how many pages I wrote....
It's just a freaking essay people. I felt bad for treating it like it was a speech event. I wanted to curl into a little ball and never be seen again. And the rest that weren't doing that acted like i didn't exist. When I came in their path they froze, took their hands in their pockets and looked down.
I felt like such a freak, and I don't know why. Hey.. at least they acknowledge that I'm alive.
I sat by wyatt today back in the lab. I didn't say hi. but he smiled at me. he knew I was there. adam looked at me. I felt alive again.
I swear I thought I was invisible for a while. Even seeing people in the hallway that i talk to regularly and consider to be my best friends would ignore me.. or maybe just not see me. It was mostly.. ariel and jim, i see petra alot, and charlotte, caitlin, and liz. Whenever I wave they don't see me. Its strange. I thought that I could be invisible.. seriously. and in choir when I wasn't singing and was chewing gum they didn't notice. They never not notice people!!! never! I'm kinda glad of it though... I can chew gum and be unnoticed as I always pleased.
But its nice that I'm coming out of the neverwhere again.
but, I still think that they're robots.