a week
Nov, 7th
Been a while since I wrote. Partly because I’ve gotten a good del beyond where I stated I think and partly because I didn’t have a car, moved, still don’t have internet and im rarely home due to that.
So lets see what all has happened? The day before Halloween my car didn’t start I think I wrote then. I got it towed on Halloween to sean’s dads shop and he worked on it Saturday and finished Monday in time for me to get to work. It was the distributor and cost me 550 total. Joy.
Michael and well everyone I know ditched me on Halloween. Matt and everyone went downtown and never invited me, Michael told me if I needed something to do he’d grab me and we’d chill but he found other plans. Well that covered everyone I know but ironically enough Melissa texted me at like 8 all upset because bobby had broken up with her a couple days ago. I’d always thought she was pretty hot, mostly just due to her size I think (shes a 00. What the fuck kind of size is 00?). So when she got off work she came over and we watched a couple movies, got late, went upstairs but on a great documentary I found (which bored her but I liked it) called “a complete history of my sexual failures.” After that it was probably 7 am and went to sleep, she had to have SILENCE no tv no music no nothing. Then complained that it was getting light and she couldn’t sleep. She wasn’t lying I barely got any sleep with her tossing and turning and doing whatever. Got up, killed time, she went to work I still didn’t have a car so I stayed where I was. Still a nice coincidence because I was going to have to sit home alone on Halloween and she was going to be home crying for third night in a row. I actually realized writing this brittny and I were with her and bobby last Halloween at tech for He Is Legend show.
Not a lot since then, officially moved to fincastle in new house. Its about 25 miles each was to downtown Roanoke from here and im told if it snows forget about trying to go anywhere. Jess, the 26 year old attractive kindergarten teacher, seems very nice though I’ve never been home while she was awake to have any conversations. Since its so far from here to town I don’t come back at all unless I know im in for night and with no tv or internet in my room yet I cant really be here for the night. Usually I’ve gotten form between 1-3am and she goes to bed before 12 usually and I get up from 9-11 and she leaves around 7:30 I think. Its still a gorgeous house and nice but goddamn its so far away. I may have to stay in town some when its going to snow so I can get to work.
Brittny has been suspiciously absent during this catch up, actually shes been around a lot we’ve talked quite often when I had internet access on aim and we’ve texted and I’ve even seen her a couple times. Over all it’s been well. Of course there are always arguments or what not with any people but sometimes they can be stickier with us because we each have separate feelings that can be hurt or stepped on due to the break up. Im trying for once to handle those things properly and apologize of needed or whatever would take to make things okay. Even if it never helps with brittny its something I need to be able to do later. Brittny is still special to me, I miss her, I like to hug/hold her. But I think dealing with keith thing helped me back off a lot more than I normally would have because I know no chance now. I know the feelings we had existed im sure could bring them back if wanted but I don’t think that would be a good idea, at least at the moment. I’ll always be there for her regardless of anything else if she decided she wanted to try again one day im sure it’s a possibility. I don’t think im going anywhere and Melissa is not girlfriend material, just a trophy of tinyness. Shes actually a lousy person, she is republican. Well really that’s all I can think of that’s bad but that’s pretty bad. Shes just immature and doesn’t have the kind of drive brittny had to improve herself to the point that she’d need to. I would never sit around for the time it would take to help someone else “grow up.” Especially when shes just not intelligent enough to understand what she’d have to do.
So anyway back to brittny. It was Nice to see her and lay around. I was there for five hours the other night, I didn’t plan to be there so long just turned out prior to that days argument we had each wanted to see the other so seemed like maybe we should make up and hang out. Seems like long time, because never did anything except when I got there I watch coupling with Andrew and sean and brittny came out and watched too. Then laptoping and then some laying around and then it was 12:30 in the morning. Apparently keith was supposed to be there but decided not to show up. I believe he’s there now also unless he left super early to drive the wrong direction to shower. I’ll find out anyway because now driving past brittny’s is on my way to work. My long long drive to work every fuck day.
Speaking of work I need to leave in a few. So I guess this is done.
Been a while since I wrote. Partly because I’ve gotten a good del beyond where I stated I think and partly because I didn’t have a car, moved, still don’t have internet and im rarely home due to that.
So lets see what all has happened? The day before Halloween my car didn’t start I think I wrote then. I got it towed on Halloween to sean’s dads shop and he worked on it Saturday and finished Monday in time for me to get to work. It was the distributor and cost me 550 total. Joy.
Michael and well everyone I know ditched me on Halloween. Matt and everyone went downtown and never invited me, Michael told me if I needed something to do he’d grab me and we’d chill but he found other plans. Well that covered everyone I know but ironically enough Melissa texted me at like 8 all upset because bobby had broken up with her a couple days ago. I’d always thought she was pretty hot, mostly just due to her size I think (shes a 00. What the fuck kind of size is 00?). So when she got off work she came over and we watched a couple movies, got late, went upstairs but on a great documentary I found (which bored her but I liked it) called “a complete history of my sexual failures.” After that it was probably 7 am and went to sleep, she had to have SILENCE no tv no music no nothing. Then complained that it was getting light and she couldn’t sleep. She wasn’t lying I barely got any sleep with her tossing and turning and doing whatever. Got up, killed time, she went to work I still didn’t have a car so I stayed where I was. Still a nice coincidence because I was going to have to sit home alone on Halloween and she was going to be home crying for third night in a row. I actually realized writing this brittny and I were with her and bobby last Halloween at tech for He Is Legend show.
Not a lot since then, officially moved to fincastle in new house. Its about 25 miles each was to downtown Roanoke from here and im told if it snows forget about trying to go anywhere. Jess, the 26 year old attractive kindergarten teacher, seems very nice though I’ve never been home while she was awake to have any conversations. Since its so far from here to town I don’t come back at all unless I know im in for night and with no tv or internet in my room yet I cant really be here for the night. Usually I’ve gotten form between 1-3am and she goes to bed before 12 usually and I get up from 9-11 and she leaves around 7:30 I think. Its still a gorgeous house and nice but goddamn its so far away. I may have to stay in town some when its going to snow so I can get to work.
Brittny has been suspiciously absent during this catch up, actually shes been around a lot we’ve talked quite often when I had internet access on aim and we’ve texted and I’ve even seen her a couple times. Over all it’s been well. Of course there are always arguments or what not with any people but sometimes they can be stickier with us because we each have separate feelings that can be hurt or stepped on due to the break up. Im trying for once to handle those things properly and apologize of needed or whatever would take to make things okay. Even if it never helps with brittny its something I need to be able to do later. Brittny is still special to me, I miss her, I like to hug/hold her. But I think dealing with keith thing helped me back off a lot more than I normally would have because I know no chance now. I know the feelings we had existed im sure could bring them back if wanted but I don’t think that would be a good idea, at least at the moment. I’ll always be there for her regardless of anything else if she decided she wanted to try again one day im sure it’s a possibility. I don’t think im going anywhere and Melissa is not girlfriend material, just a trophy of tinyness. Shes actually a lousy person, she is republican. Well really that’s all I can think of that’s bad but that’s pretty bad. Shes just immature and doesn’t have the kind of drive brittny had to improve herself to the point that she’d need to. I would never sit around for the time it would take to help someone else “grow up.” Especially when shes just not intelligent enough to understand what she’d have to do.
So anyway back to brittny. It was Nice to see her and lay around. I was there for five hours the other night, I didn’t plan to be there so long just turned out prior to that days argument we had each wanted to see the other so seemed like maybe we should make up and hang out. Seems like long time, because never did anything except when I got there I watch coupling with Andrew and sean and brittny came out and watched too. Then laptoping and then some laying around and then it was 12:30 in the morning. Apparently keith was supposed to be there but decided not to show up. I believe he’s there now also unless he left super early to drive the wrong direction to shower. I’ll find out anyway because now driving past brittny’s is on my way to work. My long long drive to work every fuck day.
Speaking of work I need to leave in a few. So I guess this is done.