tossing and turning, you'll turn my world around.
Seventeen does not feel any different. Hoepfully with age comes wisdom that will empower me through this year! Very tired and worn out right now, maybe its cause of the bad night of sleep I had yesterday, maybe cause of my emotions running high and low today and maybe cause I lost my thumbdrive ):
But today was good, well, surprises were expected but thank God truly for friends and people who care even in this new environment :) Though some did come unexpected! Like Clara and her baked goodies! But all the same, big thankyou to loggies (Elena for drawing! Shiyan for all things despite you being sick!!), 11s70, and team and family :) And for all the people who wished me and gave me hugs and gifts! Big thank you.
The realisation that another year (kinda) had passed made me wonder what I had done and I ralise once again I have such a long list of want-to-dos but, truly, when will this list come to materialise? Right now, need to focus on whatever I have and work hard. Want-to-dos will come! I think I am a rather dreamy high achiever kind of person. I dream high and try to reach it and sometimes its so hard to get there but I do try. I hope one day I'll be able to get up there for all things. Mhmm. One day. Sometimes I hate these two words.
Have not been normal recently, emotions tend to run too high and low periodically. Not good need to remain focus and centered. External factors are getting to me :/ Relationships between people are sensitive issues that require delicate handling, but I don't think I'm a very delicate person. Need to seek more strength in God and myself than from this world!! Tonight I'll go study for my math test and snuggle in my blankets for cover.
Good night world, tonight I'm older by just a little bit more.