the grass. the wind. the stars. you and i.
Sometimes I wonder what people think and see of me. And sometimes I wonder if those views would differ from person to person, and even from myself. The other night I was just thinking over words people have said and I think it's quite scary if one day I realised the person I present to people may differ so far from who I am. But then again, who am I?
I have been slipping and falling cause I feel too tired to catch myself. Need to remind myself to do QT every SINGLE night, need to keep faith and be strong and courageous. God has been good still though and I thank God for each day I pull through and with each prayer being answered.
I can feel myself changing, I dont know if its for the better or for the worse. It scares myself sometimes because it seems like a risky position I'm putting myself in. Jingwen, if you read this, I am very scared what happened the other day (yknow which day right), would happen again and I've been feeling times when I'm close and just feel like slamming things or just stoning somewhere alone but circumstances have not allowed and I don't want that day to occur ever again but somehow I feel like I'm becoming not-as-strong and the even the thought intimidates me ):
March Holidays have begun, it doesn't even feel like we started school for long yet. I think this break feels too early haha I'm not tired enough to warrant a break nor sure enough that this break will be able to last me through the next 10 weeks of school. Tomorrow I will sit down and plan my holidays proper and make sure I have fun yet study, I need study dates. Mission 101 is a cool website, I'll write down my 101 and I'll embark on them bit by bit. One day I'll conquer and be the queen.
Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. How bout weak? What if I think I'm weak right now but yet no one else seems to think so.
cause we're all out of time