Just Releasing Negativity
I feel so depressed and alone alothough I know have plenty of family and a few close friends I can go to. I really don't know why I feel the way I do. I have a great boyfriend, an nosy, but kind of decent family, a good cuddly cat, my inspiration and moviation is coming back, I should be happy. I think something is deeper. . .
I haven't felt pretty or sexy lately either and I am not sure why. I just feel blah.
The buses that I usually ride have really gotten fucked up thanks to a local government. Our commissioner thought it would be smart and wise to keep as many buses going just switch the routes every hour now with the routes 51, &1; and 52 & 2, then they have these evening loops which are one hour and thirty minutes and more confusing than I have ever seen. Basically after 6:30 pm all hell and chaos break loose near the mall. I think our local government wants to fall apart and create a worst economy than we already have. I mean I personally know many people who use that bus almost everyday for work. If the local government is trying to fuck up the schedule to mess everyone up, and lose their jobs, because the buses are running clearly, then than government must want complete and total chaos. . . (Sorry I am really rambling, but the buses are annoying and confusing. I finally have them figured out and everyone else keeps arguing with me. Grrrrr)
This computer either freezes, I get an C++ error, flash error or Java error, and I feel like the speed is slowing down and I cannot get anything done. I am also seriously distracted by the Internet.
It seems like I cannot go on myspace without some updating that their world would be better it they rub everything in and push everyone down or that life suck so bad, because you personally pushed people out of your life. . . please people go watch foamy . . . www.illwillpress.com because just him I don't care!
Okay, why does it seem that my best friend from high school has replace me? Do I not go in her in click of friends anymore? Has she moved away from the darkness, the goth lifestyle she once begged me to be in? Does she not enjoy a good vampire tale anymore? Is it because I do not have a kid and she does? Or is it because I don't like to smoke or drink at the parties she has?
She has another Becky. . . is that Becky more encouraging than I?
I haven't felt pretty or sexy lately either and I am not sure why. I just feel blah.
The buses that I usually ride have really gotten fucked up thanks to a local government. Our commissioner thought it would be smart and wise to keep as many buses going just switch the routes every hour now with the routes 51, &1; and 52 & 2, then they have these evening loops which are one hour and thirty minutes and more confusing than I have ever seen. Basically after 6:30 pm all hell and chaos break loose near the mall. I think our local government wants to fall apart and create a worst economy than we already have. I mean I personally know many people who use that bus almost everyday for work. If the local government is trying to fuck up the schedule to mess everyone up, and lose their jobs, because the buses are running clearly, then than government must want complete and total chaos. . . (Sorry I am really rambling, but the buses are annoying and confusing. I finally have them figured out and everyone else keeps arguing with me. Grrrrr)
This computer either freezes, I get an C++ error, flash error or Java error, and I feel like the speed is slowing down and I cannot get anything done. I am also seriously distracted by the Internet.
It seems like I cannot go on myspace without some updating that their world would be better it they rub everything in and push everyone down or that life suck so bad, because you personally pushed people out of your life. . . please people go watch foamy . . . www.illwillpress.com because just him I don't care!
Okay, why does it seem that my best friend from high school has replace me? Do I not go in her in click of friends anymore? Has she moved away from the darkness, the goth lifestyle she once begged me to be in? Does she not enjoy a good vampire tale anymore? Is it because I do not have a kid and she does? Or is it because I don't like to smoke or drink at the parties she has?
She has another Becky. . . is that Becky more encouraging than I?