Today is my fourth October 3rd at this address. That's something I tell myself whenever I'm feeling stressed about the house or beating myself up for not knowing/doing more. Yesterday evening, I thought I saw the light in my bathroom flicker while I was taking a shower, and that led to a pretty rough night of lying awake convinced that the fire ( Read more... )

I’m writing this at my desk at work. P--- and W--- are gathering up all the trashcans and loading them onto a pallet on the forklift to haul out to the dumpster. J--- and K----- were just outside K’s office discussing whether one of their kids whose college closed down should start working at the grocery store ( Read more... )

Sara, Mayim, and Tovah are all asleep right now. I'm the only one awake in the house, and I am freaking the fuck out in the middle of another anxiety attack. This one is so bad that my hands are shaking, and I feel like I need to either throw up or cry (or maybe both). I know part of the reason it's so bad right now is because I'm the only one ( Read more... )

Sitting on my bed in my room. Maroon 5 is on the radio, singing, "All the dreams bring back memories, and the memories bring back memories bring back you." The past always seems so rose-tinted and perfect when you look back at it. And the future always seems so scary. At least to me ( Read more... )

Oh man, what is it about winter? And it's only the first week of November! I'm probably in for about four more months of this, and I can already feel myself starting to crack. Stressed about the arctic cold front that's scheduled to hit us next week. Stressed about our trip back to Louisiana for Thanksgiving. Stressed about Sassafras and the other ( Read more... )

Wide awake at 3am because I'm pretty sure a squirrel or raccoon or something has gotten into our attic. Heard something moving around up there a little while ago. Even the cats were staring up at the ceiling. It was right above my bed/bedroom, so it was a scary thing to wake up to, but I'm trying not to freak out. I know that this has happened to ( Read more... )

This is our second night in the house. My first night sleeping in my own bed, instead of with Sara. My bed feels so much smaller when one side isn't up against a wall, for some reason. It feels strange to sleep in ( Read more... )

We never did get a snow-day off from work last winter, but on Thursday night, a really bad thunderstorm rolled through. Since I finally killed the plant that I brought home from Grandma's funeral, I started composting in the empty pot, and the storm blew my pot quite a distance and scattered apple cores, banana peels, egg shells, cucumber peels, ( Read more... )

I complained in my last post about how stressful life had been lately. Little did I know how much more stressful this past week would be. On Monday, our apartment flash-flooded! We had water coming up out of the water in both bathrooms and the kitchen, spreading everywhere and soaking everything! We were literally bailing water up off the floor, ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a while because life has been stressing me out lately. I know I shouldn't complain, because last month was the first year in waaaay too long that Back-to-School meant nothing to me (shehekianu!), but the tail end of August still had some ugh-worthy moments, including our hottest degrees of the entire summer (+100). But I was ( Read more... )