Depressed.... =(
I literally don't know what to do with myself... I mean, i know its me against the world, but me against my family? I try to be a good person, and i try to help who i can... and its never enough. I try to show i appreciate all the help i've ever gotten or still get, but it goes unnoticed... I'm just tired. Tired of feeling this way. Tired of always being treated like the bad guy. What have i done to deserve this? I literally cried every day for 1 week and a half... i feel so lost. I'm an honest person, a reliable person, a genuine person. I'm not a liar, i speak my mind. Is that so wrong? Is that why this is (because i'm very opinionated)? Right now i'm here, trying these words, listening to music. I need a new ipod...music drowns out everyone for me, and its like a whole other world to me in a sense...it calms me down. I just don't know what to do. I don't feel like waking up sometimes, but i have to. Without Elias, idk what i'd do. =( I'm at a loss for words.... thats all i can say...