<3 the beach house
Every opportunity that i've been finding this week i've spent it at matt's beach house with his entire family. And i feel so loved there. It's an awesome feeling really. His family is so accepting, and loving and nice that i feel like i belong in their family. and heck i probably do! I got really choked up yesterday when i called matt on his cell and his mother asked me why i wasn't over there spending time with the shaws. it was amazing to think that some parent actually WANTED me! i know that this seems kinda of far-fetched when i still have a family of my own, but believe me my mom sucks and my dad is a mess. My parents more and more lately have been telling me how much they love me, and yeah i believe them, but they picked the worst time to be so depressed and unhappy all the time. This was my only week off from work to just chill and spend time with my parents and grandparents but things just didn't work out that way. too much fighting and pain in this household. Maybe this is my parents way of trying to let go of their daughter because i'll be leaving in 19 days. pfft. *sigh* i dunno. But this experience has made me realize something. That jobs, grades,money, etc. none of it matters. What really matters in life is your family and your friends. and the ones that love you will always be there to support you and never let you down. I love my family i really do, but i think that my real family is with my closest friends (*you know who you are*), and with Matthew, the love of my life.
This summer is turning into not only the best summer that i've ever had, but also a summer to really think about who i am and where i stand in this world.
alright so enough of the serious stuff... back to fun!
Jenny B and i are getting tatoos sometime next week! (not too sure about which day yet) i am soo excited i cannot wait. but i am also really really really nervous. i don't want it to hurt, but even if it does, i'm just gonna squeeze someone's hand and be the big,brave,strong girl that i know i am inside. And then i'll be all badass cuz i'll have a hot, sexy tat right under my hip.
This summer is turning into not only the best summer that i've ever had, but also a summer to really think about who i am and where i stand in this world.
alright so enough of the serious stuff... back to fun!
Jenny B and i are getting tatoos sometime next week! (not too sure about which day yet) i am soo excited i cannot wait. but i am also really really really nervous. i don't want it to hurt, but even if it does, i'm just gonna squeeze someone's hand and be the big,brave,strong girl that i know i am inside. And then i'll be all badass cuz i'll have a hot, sexy tat right under my hip.