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Things at my house are bad yet again. *surprise, surprise*. my dad really went psycho especially towards my mom after both me and my mom critisized him for purchasing me these really ugly curtains taht were too big for my window to begin with. i thought that they were inappropriate to being with me to college but i decided to let my dad buy them anyways because i could tell that it made him happy and i didnt want to get on his bad side. Little did i know thhough, that i already was on his bad side. Things only got worse after my mother agreed with me and told my dad pretty much the same thing. This caused my dad to flip out completely. He went to bed bath and returned my curtains as well as all of the electronical crap that i NEEDED for college such as my extra telephone cord, wireless mouse, usb ports, memorty sticks, extra cable, and re-writeable cds. My mom here is at an all-time low. There is way too much pressure on her and my dad blames her for everylittle mistake that goes on in the house. The sad part is that she agrees with him. She just hangs in there and takes it. And a person can only take so much shouting and hate for so long before they break down. My grandparents are over and they're trying their best to stay out of the situtaion and not get involved. This is hard to do when my mother is coming to me and my grandparents for advice since she really doesnt know what to do anymore. My dad walked out on us last night which also left a bad message for my grandparents and they are considering going back to florida beacuse they dont feel safe with us and are not having a good time. personally, i don't blame them but i really hope that they stay so i wont be here alone with this. Cara as usuall is confiding in her room and with her online boyfriends. she refuses to help out at all when my mom really needs it. This makes my mom feel like even one of her children is started to reject her. Jessica is totally oblivious because well she doesn't really understand. And i am the observer who has to take the weight off of my mothers shoulders while taking my dad's shit that hes been dishing out at me. Summer should not be like this. And i know that it'll only get worse before it gets better. Matty is with his relatives at the beach house and honestly, i cannot wait to join him down there on wednesday. I really need to just break away and relax. 3 more weeks till college and seriously i cannot wait. i hate the fact that i wont be as close to matty anymore, but its really coming down tot he point where its getting too much to handle to live at home. These patterns are pretty constant and i'm just so sick and tired of them. I'll never look back on these bad memories at home and maybe someday later on in life when im married and have a family of my own, i can talk to my dad again and try to straight things out.
"Divorce is looking like a better option everyday" according to my father. Maybe that'll atleast stop the fighting. or it could make it worse. i dont know. i really dont like the idea of my parents splitting up but if they do, i'll be there to support my mother and maybe that'll make things better if they dont heal themselves.
"Divorce is looking like a better option everyday" according to my father. Maybe that'll atleast stop the fighting. or it could make it worse. i dont know. i really dont like the idea of my parents splitting up but if they do, i'll be there to support my mother and maybe that'll make things better if they dont heal themselves.