Lindsy and Charlene
I feel so happy and sad at the same time. It seems like it's happening again. Everyone I care most about and want to get to know more has to be separated from me by state lines for miles and miles. I don't know if I've ever known such wonderful women of God. They instantly show how much they care and they implement their faith every day and they are the best example of what a friend and a roommate should be. I feel like such a failure compared to them, but I wanna learn how they live like they do. I wanna be the kind of women they are! My heart breaks to know I could be doing more and I'm not. But I am determined not to let complacency get the best of me again. I am sick of living for myself! God, Give me the wisdom and strength to pursue You in every area of my life. I want to leave the kind of legacy that Lindsy Baker (soon to be Palmer) and Charlene Dower have left on 5 West. *Sigh* How do I have peace and zeal at the same time? All I know is I want to be more, to do more, to love more. God, I need You to help me accomplish this. You place these desires in my heart but then it seems like I can never fulfill them. Is it because I am trying to do it in my own way or my own strength? I want to be hospitable, amiable, approachable, humble, patient, kind, loving, gentle, caring, honest, open, generous.